A bad day like this really wrecks me…
It starts of with annoyances (ex. slept late, bootlace broke and a lost replacement, Ryoga hid his feed dish in the back of his house, I burnt my food, etc.)
It became more serious problems that at least I’ll be able to deal with (ex. Flat tire….AGAIN!)
Then problems that are going to take a lot to deal with, and may be beyond me (ex. A hole the size of my fist in a roof, leaking into an over stuffed storage room)
Followed by a problem that promises a sense of disaster for the future (ex. A call from the lawyer about my cousin’s estate)
Before punching me hard with worries for a loved one (ex. Mom unable for the first time since the hospital, to hold a conversation)
With my attempt to do something fun complicated by emotional baggage (ex. My swim was probably my last of the year, which always fills me with sadness and the fear I’ll never swim again)
Oh, and more annoyances (ex. Having to put my ankle braces and boots back on to roll out the trash in the dark because I forgot)
Culminating with new health worries (ex. My bad ankle turned walking, my chest aches from worry, my throat is sore)
So here I am, just wanting to curl up and cry. Thing is quiet is just gonna make things worse. The last thing I want to do is think when I’m already in emotional overload. Tonight is gonna be rough, and considering I didn’t fall asleep until 3am last night, and had only had one hour of sleep the night before that, I don’t need life making my insomnia worse!!
Geez, I could use a hug…..
