Characters/Pairings: Ryan/Shane. TJ, Devon, Mark, Child and Teen Characters.
Rating: E
Warnings: Trans Male Character, Trans Male Pregnancy, Trans Ryan, Child Characters interacting with the boys, Supernatural Elements, Lost In The Woods, Explicit Content.
Word Count: 28,112 ~
Summary: After a big fight between them makes filming a living hell for everyone, Ryan and Shane get lost in the Mothman's woods. Having to face their major fears alone in the middle of the night while caring for another lost child in a cryptid's forest was not what any of them expected after getting married.
A/N: I wrote this fic months ago and it was an odyssey for it to get a beta until my lovely @ebonybow came to my rescue and had it ready in record time. Honestly, Fie-- I don't know what I would do without you. You have become an amazing friend to me, I'm glad we got to meet and I'm going to forever be grateful for how much you've been helping me lately. You know my next porn with, like, feelings is for you.
But this fic was written for my good friend @faequill, who I love with all my heart. I'm sorry it took so long, man. Thanks a lot for your friendship, your advice, the chisme and all the fun afternoon we've spend talking about everything and then none.
You are an inspiration to me, an incredible writer and friend, and an even better person, father and husband. Thanks for checking in with me, and for helping me build this fic and for sharing with me everything that inspired this story.
i'm in love with the fic Let Me In by poetdameron and i know that's you and i know you WRONGLY think you don't deserve it but i want everyone to know this is one of the best fics i've read in AGES and it deserves all the recs! - yademonfuck
Let Me In by poetdameron
Summary: After a big fight between them makes filming a living hell for everyone, Ryan and Shane get lost in the Mothman's woods. Having to face their major fears alone in the middle of the night while caring for another lost child in a cryptid's forest was not what any of them expected after getting married.
Rated: E
Word Count: 28,112 ~
Commentary: I wrote this one, so today we got @ghoulboyboos as a guest to comment this fic: “I really adore this one. It joins a fantastic and strange storyline of Mothman shenanigans with the raw and real truth of wanting to become a trans-parent. The boys are so clearly in love with each other in this one, even if they have rocky times and fight and the building of tension keeps you on your toes until the conclusion. (Also there is a smut scene and it's scorching hot, so a huge bonus right there.)”
So this post will totally be disorganized and a ramble but I just wanted to express how happy and loved it makes me feel to read Trans!Ryan fanfics in the Buzzfeed Unsolved fandom.
As a trans guy I never see guys like me in media (which is why im starting a tv show but thats another post) and being able to read well thought out, beautiful writing about a main character being trans makes me so happy?
And all of them are so respectful and don't fetish trans men at all. Another thing is with these fanfics they've brought me confidence-- like hello yes I am sexy I am desirable I am attractive and I am wanted. And with these fanfics it also dissolves my fears of not finding a future boyfriend/husband because of me being trans. But with these fanfics because you all have written Trans!Ryan with Shane and them being happy, caring, loving and down right sexy with each other makes me feel that I can find that one day. I will be able to find a future partner whom loves me and accepts me.
So yeah this is cheesy, and overly romantic but this is my thank you post for all the fanfic writers out there who make Trans! au's-- because you've helped me-- a trans guy, feel loved, accepted, confident and albeit even sexy.
I keep thinking about pregnant trans ryan. headcanons below the cut.
- ryan finding out he’s pregnant and immediately gets scared. He’s not sure how it happened. They usually have safe sex— well, there was that one time.
- either way, he’s not sure if he wants to keep the baby. He doesn’t tell shane right away, because another person knowing will just make the decision that much more difficult. Besides, its his decision anyways.
- he spends some time being distant from shane, which ultimately worries shane, so its counter productive.
- shane bothers him about whats keeping him to himself. Ryan rejects the advances at first. He’s leaning towards keeping the baby, but also concerned about how it would change their lives and relationship.
- shane wears him down and ryan finally confesses that he found out he was pregnant.
- shane’s shocked at first, but then he comes around and tells ryan that he’s with him no matter what.
- shane secretly wants to be a dad. People always tell him he’d be a good dad.
- ryan eventually decides to keep the baby. As it grows he goes outside less and less. Especially after one time a coworker mentioned something about ryan gaining weight.
- ryan’s pregnancy cravings are.. weird to say the least. He craves the dumbest combinations or specific food that they dont have.
- this is where steven comes in. He’s always finding new foods and places to snack so he brings ryan food. He knows that ryan’s pregnant, one of the few who know.
- steven is excited about the baby. He loves cute things. He thinks the child might become some kind of horrifying demon spawn because of its parents, though.
- ryan getting fussed over by steven and sara. the two taking him shopping for pregnancy clothes while sara pretends to be the one to be pregnant. she like wears a pregnancy belly and stuff, and ryan just wears a baggy hoodie.
- ryan realizing he wears pretty fitted clothing, and barely owns anything baggy, and having to wear shanes clothes for a while when he gets a little bigger.
- shane subscribing to parenting magazines. reading them at work in his spare time, getting startled when people catch him reading it. “are you gonna be a dad? who’s the lucky lady? are you married?”
- shane being a huge fucking teddy bear. cuddling ryan, being obsessed with making sure he has everything he needs. shane touching ryan’s stomach when they cuddle, trying to be stealthy about it but failing miserably.
- ryan getting embarrassed wearing baggy stuff, but shane thinking he looks so cute and soft. them staying at home a lot. shane and ryan moving in together. shane and ryan looking at cribs, thinking about building their own maybe, thinking about where they could put it.
- both of them literally freaking out about being parents like 24/7.
- ryan wanting a lot of sleep, especially in the sun. ryan hating morning sickness, and shane taking care of him.
- the both of them finding out the gender when its far enough along. a girl. ryan wanting to name the girl after someone in his family. shane scouring the internet and coming up with a long list of names that he thinks are “cool” or something. one of them is Ariel. Ryan rolls his eyes at the list. “Ava? Scarlett? Shane, this isn’t a tv drama.” - “but Ry... why can’t our baby be the star of a tv drama.”
- eventually, they get so many “wish you well” calls that Ryan decides to come out to more people. They all take it well, especially since his work seems to attract lots of open minded people.
- they spend a lot of time together. anytime anyone sees them, they can bet that there is some form of contact happening. Sometimes ryan sits in shane’s lap. sometimes they just sit pressed up shoulder to shoulder. sometimes they hold hands. even when they’re doing their own things, they just like to be in each others space.
- sleeping together regularly is a challenge at first because shane has long awkward limbs and tends to move around a lot in his sleep. ryan ends up with either all the covers, or all the covers are kicked off the bed. they get used to it, though.
- ryan: “oh man, i could really go for peanut butter and a pickle...”
shane: “sorry... what the fuck?”
- shane: “why are we spending like 300$ on baby clothes...”
ryan: “don’t you want our baby to be a fashion icon?”
- eugene buying them baby clothes!!!! fashionable baby clothes!!!!
- keith trying to convince them to get a puppy. “the baby needs a best friend... no not a sibling.... an animal. a dog. a dog best friend. just do it. i have a list of no kill shelters to adopt from...”
- shane tells ned that he wants to propose to ryan and ned takes him out to look for rings and they use the excuse of shooting a video or something.
- zach: i can babysit
ryan: what?
ned: me,too
ryan: we don’t need a baby sitter
keith: oh me too!
ryan: guys we dont need a baby sitter-
eugene: good, i dont really like babies.
zach, keith, and ned: eugene!
- shane propses one day when they’re eating dinner at home. he breaks out a sparkling grapejuice (because ryan can’t drink). they have a toast and then shane kneels and asks ryan to marry him.
- ryan cries and says yes through his tears.
[ oops i keep getting sappy and stupid. amazing. i can’t think of baby names. what do you guys think??? ]
Summary: Ryan wasn’t born what he wanted to be. But he has a wonderful boyfriend with the Fake AH Crew to support him. Then, he’s not careful and he and his boyfriend have to deal with the consequence for the rest their lives. Maybe, the consequence won’t turn out to be bad at all.
Word Count: 9,064
Pairing: Gavin/Ryan
AO3
The Vagabond was the most terrifying man in Los Santos. He had a lot of pent up anger and distaste for the world, and he thought being a killer for hire, a mercenary, would be a productive way to get it out of his system. He was very angry with the world mostly because he was not born into the right body. The Vagabond, James Ryan Haywood, had actually been born Jane Ryley Haywood.
When he had tried to come out to his parents as a boy, they brushed him off, claiming that it was just a tomboy phase. He ran away from his home in Georgia and off to Los Santos after that. He had partnered up with another girl he met in Los Santos, who went by Dollface, and worked with her for quite a few years. A time went on, Ryan’s name as the Vagabond grew. Eventually, the girl joined an all-girl gang, called the Los Santos Sirens, and Ryan and his partner separated. The two still kept in touch, anyway.
Even with the Vagabond working solo, the notoriety and fear that came with the reputation he’d built continued to grow. Eventually, jobs offered by the infamous Fake AH Crew landed on his desk. He was honored to be getting bigger jobs like this. After about three jobs with the crew, he was asked to join them full time. He gladly accepted, he thought maybe this crew could be the family he always should have had. Though, he never planned to come out as trans to them, hoping they would only ever know him as Ryan.
Th crew offered him a room in their penthouse, which he gladly accepted. He sold off his apartment so he could start HRT. He had begun to grow more facial hair and have more muscle definition. His more defined masculine looks caught the attention of the Golden Boy, Gavin Free. Gavin had no idea what Ryan spent his heist money on, so he began to treat Ryan. That led to the two of them having feeling for each other
The two of them eventually started dating and there was a sense of harmony throughout the penthouse, considering everyone saw it coming. The only thing that was slightly confusing about the relationship to Gavin was that Ryan refused to get physically intimate with him nor would he ever let him see him naked. Gavin assumed that was because Ryan was asexual or something. Gavin learned the real reason when he walked in on Ryan changing.
He saw Ryan with a binder on. Ryan saw Gavin and quickly put his shirt back on and tried to run. Gavin locked the door, not allowing him run. He quickly assured him that his physical parts don’t change the fact that he still sees him as Ryan. Ryan blinked in surprise, smiled, and the encounter finally turned intimate, after that. Thus, the two of them began to have a very active sex life.
Gavin was with Ryan for every step of his transition after that, as well. He would go pick up his HRT and feminine supplies, until Ryan stopped needing them. He took care of him when he was recovering from Top surgery. He had even started looking into who the best surgeon for Bottom surgery in the country was, for Ryan. Everything was going well, until the crew got super busy and Ryan missed his monthly HRT shot…
8 WEEKS
After Ryan had missed his HRT, he decided to wait until after he got his period again before he started it back up. When it didn’t come, at first, he assumed it was because of leftover hormones in his system. Then, he started to constantly feel nauseous. This caused irrational paranoia to set in. One May afternoon, Ryan decided to test if his irrational paranoia was actually correct.
He sat patiently on the toilet, waiting for the results of his third pregnancy test. The first two had come back positive, be he wasn’t going to believe them until he had three tests to tell him that he actually was pregnant.
The third one finally gave him a positive result. He gasped, he didn’t think that something like this would ever happen to him. He dropped his head in his hands and sighed, he wasn’t quite sure what to do. He had always wanted kids one day, but had had given up on that when he decided to become a mercenary and started HRT.
Suddenly, he heard a knocking on the bathroom door. “RYAN,” Lindsay’s voice called out. “YOU ALMOST DONE IN THERE? CAUSE I HAVE TO PEE.”
Ryan quickly grabbed the pregnancy tests and shoved them in his pocket. He got up and unlocked the bathroom door. “Sorry,” he apologized.
“It’s okay, but can you not block the bathroom so I can use it?”
Ryan nodded and began to shuffle out of the way. “Do you know where Gavin is?”
“Lads are playing Hitman in the living room,” Lindsay quickly replied as she slammed the bathroom door shut.
Ryan took a deep breath and sighed, he knew what he had to do next. He walked over to the living room to see the lads trying to outdo each other with creative assassinations in the game. He tapped Gavin in the shoulder. “Gavin, we need to talk,” he started.
“Not right now,” Gavin quickly replied, not looking up from the TV screen.
“Or you could do it right now,” Michael popped in.
“Distracting Gavin would make things easier for us,” Jeremy added.
“I think I found out why I’ve been nauseous lately,” Ryan continued, ignoring everyone.
“Yeah, Gavin’s ugly face,” Michael joked.
“Oh, come off it,” Gavin retorted. “What actually is it, love?”
“It’s something I need to tell you in private,” Ryan finished, emphasizing the need to do this privately.
“Can it wait until after this?”
Ryan’s eyebrows furrowed. “No,” he answered as he picked Gavin up off of the couch, slung him over his shoulder, and marched out and to their room. Once he got there, he set Gavin down and closed the door.
“RYAN, WHAT THE HELL?!” Gavin angrily demanded.
Ryan sighed, this was the moment of truth. “You know I missed my HRT back in February, right?” he asked.
“Yah, and you were gonna wait until you got your period again. I know this, already!”
“But, it never came.”
“Probably cause leftover hormones.
“I think I know what my nausea is,” Ryan said, to get back to the point.
“Right, but I don’t see what that has to do with,”
“It’s morning sickness!” he finally spat out.
Gavin raised eyebrows. “Ryan, you’re being irrationally paranoi-,” Ryan grabbed the positive pregnancy tests out of his jacket and threw them at Gavin. One of them hit him in the face and fell into his lap. He saw that it was a pregnancy test and gagged, “Oh my god, you hit me with sticks you peed on!”
“Look closer at them,”’ Ryan demanded.
Gavin forced himself to stop gagging so he could take a closer look. He looked closer at the one that fell on his lap and saw that it was positive. “Ryan,” then he looked back up at him, “oh Ryan, what are you going to do?” he asked.
“What am I going to do? What are we going to do?! Cause I sure as fuck ain’t going through this, alone.”
Gavin looked down and sighed. “Right.”
“So, what do you think, Gavin?”
Gavin looked back up and sighed. “Well, ever since Michael and Lindsay had their little Sophie, I had been wanting a little sprog of my own. But since you started your,”
“Then we keep it,” Ryan interrupted.
“Ryan,”
“Look, I always wanted a biological kid, myself. I gave up on that idea for the same reasons as you. Now, this could be our only shot at this, so I’m not giving it up. I can go back to my transition afterwards.”
Gavin’s face lit up with excitement. “Ryan, we’re going to be parents!” he exclaimed as he got up and rushed over to Ryan to give him a kiss. He stopped as he pulled Ryan into an embrace, “wait, but this means you’re gonna have to come out to the crew,” he pointed out.
“We’ll,” Ryan stopped and sighed, “we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.”
Gavin nodded. “Oh, Ryan,” he cooed as he pulled Ryan into a deep kiss. This was going to be an interesting rest of the year, but they knew it was going to be alright.
14 WEEKS
Things had begun to change for Ryan in ways. Raging hormones had made Ryan much more irritable. Gavin was afraid at first, but mood swings immediately flipped the emotion switch and Ryan would apologize for his poor behavior. Ryan had also become constantly tired. Constant exhaustion and irritability made the interrogations Ryan conducted much more sinister and hostile.
A more noticeable change was Ryan’s cravings. He had desired odd combinations such as pickles and ice cream. Ryan had hated pickles before the pregnancy, but couldn’t get enough of them, now. Though even with all the other changes, he still had his thing for diet coke. Gavin had to step in after reading that caffeine was bad during pregnancy. Ryan reluctantly agreed to switch to caffeine-free diet coke for the time being.
The most noticeable change was that Ryan started to gain some pudge around his stomach. When Gavin pointed this out and went to pat Ryan’s belly, his hand got smacked away. He was self-conscious about anyone recognizing his pregnancy. He already wore looser shirts so he could hide it, he still wasn’t ready for the crew to know about it.
The only other crew member who knew about Ryan’s pregnancy was Lindsay. Ryan had already come out to Lindsay as FTM trans a while ago, and the only reason he told her that he was pregnant, was because she had found empty pregnancy test boxes in the bathroom that weren’t hers. She promised Ryan that she wouldn’t tell anyone.
An afternoon in early June, was when Ryan suggested that he and Gavin go out to meet his old friend, his first partner in crime in Los Santos. They planned on asking her to be their child’s godparent since Ryan wasn’t comfortable sharing his pregnancy with Geoff. He and Gavin were walking to the door when Ryan stopped and took a whiff of the air and smelled something divine.
“Love?” Gavin asked to try and get Ryan’s attention.
“What is that?” Ryan asked as he turned towards the smell. He saw Michael and Jeremy eating something at the kitchen table.
“Fried pickles, dude,” Michael answered as he shoved one in his mouth.
Ryan quickly walked over to the table, “May I have one?” he asked, gingerly, as he got to the table.
“Sure,” Jeremy answered.
He picked one of and took a bite. His eyes blew up, wide at the taste. He moaned in pleasure at the taste. “Oh, deese ah orgammic,” he gushed with his mouth full of pickle.
“Ryan, we’re going to be late for lunch. And I’m sure the place we’re going has fried pickles,” Gavin called out in an attempt to get Ryan’s attention again.
Ryan quickly turned back to Gavin, “Right,” he acknowledged as ha ran back over to Gavin. The two of them exited the penthouse.
20 minutes later they arrived at a diner, Last Train in Los Santos. Gavin scanned the front patio for any possible hostiles, when he spotted a familiar purple haired woman in glasses looking over the menu. Gavin began to shake as Ryan spotted her, as well. “MEG!” Ryan called out to get her attention and started to wave.
The woman looked up from her menu and smiled, wide, as she saw Ryan. “RYAN!” she cheered as she got up to give him a huge hug.
Gavin began to shake more violently. “You’re… you’re…”
Ryan started to rub Gavin’s back. “Gavin, this is Meg, my best friend outside of the crew.”
“And you’re Gavin. I’ve heard all about you from what Ryan’s told me. And seeing you in person is only proving that Ryan has good taste in men,” Meg compliment.
“You’re Dollface?” Gavin asked this time.
“Yep,” she confirmed.
Gavin grabbed Ryan’s hand and shook harder. “Ryan, she’s Dollface!”
“Breath sweetheart, I know that,” he instructed. “We’ve known each other since long before the names, Dollface or Vagabond, meant anything.”
“Yeah, and it’s been Ryan’s persuasive reasoning that stops the Los Santos Sirens from starting anything with the Fakes,” Meg added in an attempt to calm Gavin down. Gavin’s eye’s widened in surprise that Ryan had been preventing crew conflict. He took a deep breath and sighed. “Right then, do we want to go back and sit down? I already have a table for us,” she finished as she began to walk back to her table.
“Sitting down sounds like a dream right now. Come on, Gavin,” he commented as he took Gavin’s hand and followed Meg.
Gavin looked at how honest, caring, and cheerful Dollface was right now. He could see why Ryan had remained friends with Dollface, no, Meg, for so long. “Right, so what’s good on the menu?” he asked as he and Ryan sat down.
“Quick question though, does this place have fried pickles,” Ryan quickly asked.
“They do, but I thought you hated pickles,” Meg commented.
“Normally, I do hate them, but I’m actually rather fond of them at the moment.”
“Ha! You wouldn’t like pickles unless you were pregnant,” she joked.
“Well…” Ryan trailed off as he began to rub his arm, nervously. Gavin grabbed his hand and be began to rub circles in it to comfort him.
Meg looked up and saw the affection. Her eyes widened. “Oh my god, you are. Oh my god, Ryan!” she cheered as she quickly got up and gave Ryan a hug. “Congratulations!”
“Thank you,” he replied, graciously.
“You have to tell me all the details,” Meg demanded as she sat back down.
“Well, the little one is due in December,” Gavin started.
“And before you ask, no, we haven’t told the crew.” Ryan clarified.
“Oh,” Meg replied, sadly.
“But, Ryan, here, wanted us to ask you something,” Gavin filled back in.
“What is it?” Meg asked Ryan.
“Well, I wanted to do more than just tell you, I’m pregnant,” Ryan started.
“Well, what else is there?”
“I wanted Gavin, here, to meet you because I wanted him to know the person we were gonna be asking to be the godparent.”
Meg’s mouth dropped in shock, “Me?”
“Yes, you. If… you’d be okay with that.”
“Holy shit, I would love to be Mini Meg’s godmother!”
Gavin twisted his head in confusion and Ryan snorted. “Mini Meg, really?” Ryan asked with a smirk.
“That has to be its name now.”
Ryan sighed and smiled. He looked over at Gavin, and Gavin smiled in return. They both knew everything was going to be alright.
18 WEEKS
As expected with pregnancy, Ryan’s body continued to change. He continued to grow sleepier, and he couldn’t tell if it was psychosomatic of not, but he swore we was starting to feel movement in his lower abdomen. Gavin began to grow uneasy about Ryan going out to do missions for the crew, even offering to teach Ryan some hacking techniques. Ryan refused at first, claiming that he was still fit to do his work as crew muscle. Gavin finally demanded that Ryan take a break from missions after he got grazed by a bullet in the shoulder.
Ryan said he still needed to exercise, though. He asked Gavin to go weightlifting with him at the gym, saying that maybe they could try to switch roles in the crew. Ryan would be the lead hacker while Gavin could get to be the crew muscle. Gavin happily agreed to those terms.
Ryan’s stomach continued to expand, beginning to look more like a baby belly, rather than a pot belly. Gavin had a greater desire to pet Ryan’s stomach, and would ask permission before he tried anything. Ryan was very reluctant to agree, seeing as he was very self-conscious about his pregnancy and still hiding it from the rest of the crew.
In mid/late July, Gavin had stepped out to work out a negotiation. Ryan waited on the couch, patiently, for him back at the penthouse. As the hours passed, Ryan dozed off. He had been fast asleep, so he didn’t hear footsteps approaching the couch. “Ryan?” a voice asked. Ryan continued to snore. “RYAN!” the voice yelled to wake him up.
“GGGAAAAHHHH!” Ryan yelped as he jumped. He looked to see who had woken him up, to see it was Geoff. “Yes?” he asked, with a yawn.
“So, Gavin asked me not to put you on any missions,” Geoff started.
“I know,” he replied, groggily.
“And, I was wondering if everything is okay with the two of you. I mean, is he trying to be too controlling or something? Cause I’ve seen him try to control your actions, even seen him trying to control your diet.”
Ryan blinked and sat up. “Everything’s fine between us. He just wants me to be healthy.”
“Well, I’m not sure it’s working ‘cause it looks to me like you’ve been eating a bit on the side with that beer belly you started rockin’ there,” Geoff commented as he went to go poke Ryan’s stomach.
Ryan quickly swatted Geoff’s hand away. “DON’T TOUCH THAT!!!! I CAN’T DRINK ALCOHOL ANYWAY! CAN’T AND WON’T!!!” then he got up. “I’m going back to my room, don’t follow me,” he demanded as he shuffled away. Geoff just sighed.
20 minutes later Gavin came back. “RYAN, I’M BACK!” then he looked around and saw Geoff sitting on the couch, alone. “Where’s Ryan, I thought he’d be waiting there for me,” he asked as he walked over to Geoff.
“I asked him what you were doing to make him stress eat so much, on the side, and he wouldn’t tell me,” Geoff started.
“Oh no…”
“And when I went to poke his beer belly, he swatted my hand away and ran off. So, tell me, Gavin, what are you doing to him that’s making him do this to himself?”
“I…” then Gavin sighed, “I can’t tell you.”
“Seriously!?”
“I want to bloody tell you!” he cried, “but, I promised Ryan I wouldn’t tell a soul. This whole ordeal is a lot bigger that it may seem on the surface!”
“Well if it that big of a deal, you better tell me before Ryan gets any bigger!”
Gavin sighed again, “I know,” he said to himself. “Listen, I’ll go talk to Ryan, but you have to get the whole crew together. We’re gonna need to fill the whole crew in.”
“Got it,” Geoff confirmed with a thumb up.
Gavin found Ryan in his room sitting in his bed with his face in a pillow. “Rye?” he asked as he walked in.
Ryan lifted his head to reveal a damp face and red eyes. “Gav?” he choked.
“Oh, Rye-bread,” he replied softly as he walked over to the bed and got on to hold Ryan. Ryan smiled softly at the nickname. “What happened, love?”
Ryan frowned again. “Geoff called me fat, then tried to poke our little one.”
“Oh love, it will be okay,” Gavin comforted. Ryan snorted mucus back into his nose, in response. “But, the little one is starting to grow big.”
Ryan sighed glumly, “I know.”
“I think it might be time we tell everyone about the little guy.”
“But, but, that would mean,” Ryan began to shake in fear.
“I know what it means love. But, we prepared for this.”
“Hey,” a voice, Michael’s, came from the other side of the door, “are you guys coming? We heard you had an announcement.”
“Well, it looks like this is it. You ready?” Ryan nodded, sadly. “BE THERE IN A MINUTE!” Gavin called back as he rolled off of the bed. “Need help getting up?” Ryan shook his head and slid off the bed. “Do you want me to grab your senior yearbook?”
“I got it,” Ryan answered as he walked over to his desk, sighed, and grabbed his yearbook.
Then Gavin held out his hand. “You ready, love?” he asked again.
Ryan sighed one more time, “as ready as I’ll ever be,” he finished as he took Gavin’s hand. The two of them walked out of the room.
They entered the crew meeting room to find the main crew sitting around the table. “So, you have a big announcement, I hear,” Jack stated.
Ryan looked nervously at Gavin and he gave him reassuring look to let him know that it would be okay. Ryan gulped. “I uh, wanted to show you my senior yearbook photo,” he announced as he began flipping through the yearbook to find his photo.
“Ugh, lame!” Jeremy groaned.
Ryan rolled his eyes at that and put the book, opened to the page with his senior portrait, down on the table and pointed to his photo. The crew gathered around to look.
“Jane Ryley Haywood?” Michael read, “I didn’t know you had a sister.”
“It’s interesting to see your sister’s portrait, but where’s yours?” Jack asked.
Ryan took a deep breath and sighed, this was finally it. “I, I don’t have a sister.”
“Then who’s,” Michael began to ask.
“It’s my portrait. Jane Ryley is me, who I used to be,” Ryan took another deep breath. “My whole life, I thought I was born in the wrong body. I wanted to fix that when I moved to Los Santos,”
“So, you’re trans?” Jeremy asked. Ryan nodded gingerly to answer. “You know, that’s actually pretty cool.”
Geoff’s eyebrows furrowed, “and know you’re leaving the crew,” he guessed.
Ryan’s head shot up and his eyes looked like they were beginning to water. “What?” he asked as he begun to shake with fear.
Gavin tried to hold Ryan, “Geoff, please don’t kick him out of the crew,” he pleaded.
“I’m not,” Geoff started. “Kdin left the crew the day after she came out to the crew as a woman, I can only assume Ryan’s doing the same thing.”
Ryan sighed in relieve at the fact that he wasn’t being kicked out. “Geoff, no. I was already in my true, male, identity when I joined the crew. And Kdin left because the Los Santos Sirens offered her a job to do exactly what she wanted to be doing. It was nothing against you,” he informed Geoff.
“So, you’re not planning on leaving the crew?”
“I’ll stay as long as you’ll have me.”
“Alright then.”
“Congrats on coming out,” Jeremy cheered in support. The rest of the crew clapped along as well.
Ryan smiled and Gavin rubbed his back, “You did it love,” he congratulated.
“Ha, now that you have the stress of hiding in the closet gone, you can work on losing that stress weight,” Geoff commented.
Ryan’s eye’s widened again and he looked back to Gavin for reassurance. “It’s alright, love. You did the hard part, so this part should be easy in comparison.”
Ryan nodded and took a deep breath. “I… can’t lose this weight right now…”
“Why not?”
“I uh… can’t lose it till December.”
“Wait, let me guess,” Jeremy started, “you have a stomach tumor and you’re getting it removed in December.”
Ryan did a double face palm and Gavin sighed. “Don’t call ‘em a tumor,” he whined
“I just came out as FTM transsexual, and you think I came out because I have stomach cancer?!” Ryan demanded.
“Then, what is it?”
“Take a wild guess!”
Jeremy looked at Ryan confused. Then, Michael looked Ryan up and down, “Ryan, are you… pregnant?” he asked.
Ryan nodded. “Yeah.”
“Ryan and I are having a baby! We’re gonna be parents!” Gavin cheerfully announced.
The rest of the crew began clapping wildly. “Congratulations!” Jack congratulated.
“I guess that means I’m a granddad, now,” Geoff laughed.
“Sophie’s gonna have a buddy on the crew!” Michael cheered as he ran over to Gavin and gave him a noogie, “I can’t believe Golden Boy knocked the Vagabond up,” he teased as he gave him the noogie.
“Micool!” Gavin complained.
Ryan looked over and chuckled. Gavin’s eyes met his and they both smiled, they knew everything was going to be alright.
20 WEEKS
Coming out to the crew was a huge weight off of Ryan’s shoulders. He was a lot more eager to learn Gavin’s hacking techniques, and Gavin was happy to teach. Ryan was also happy to help Gavin train to become more adept at intimidating people during interrogations, even teaching him how to throw knives. He even helped Gavin train at the gym until his stomach rounded, had grown a bit too large, and he no longer has the energy to teach or do intense work outs. He asked Michael to step in as a trainer and he happily obliged.
As Ryan’s stomach continued to grow, Ryan had to find even larger shirts and switch to sweatpants. He wasn’t as self-conscious about it after he came out, but he still wasn’t a fan of anyone touching his stomach. This was why Ryan had postponed his ultrasound. He knew he was pregnant, but the thought of another living being growing inside of him was a bit to freaky for him. He didn’t want a photo reminder of the fact that he was pregnant.
Since the only doctor Ryan saw outside of Andy, the crew doctor, was his OB/GYN. Ryan was pretty reluctant to visit his gynecologist, but he knew that he still had to go see her to check up on the baby and so he and Gavin could figure out the sex of their child. So, Gavin scheduled Ryan’s appointment for an ultrasound, the first week of August.
Gavin opened the door to the doctor’s office, and held it open for Ryan. When Ryan wasn’t moving towards the door, he got worried. “You alright, love? Can you not walk?” he asked, concerned.
Ryan groaned, “I can walk, I just don’t want to be here.”
Gavin old his eyes, “oh, come off it.” He then went to go grab Ryan’s wrist and drag him into the office. “We should have done this at 18 weeks, but we were too busy coming out to the crew, yah.” Ryan groaned, once more. The two of them walked to the receptionist’s desk. “Excuse us, we’re here for Mr. Haywood’s 1:30 appointment for an ultrasound,” he informed her.
The receptionist looked at her computer to check Ryan in. “I have you down,” she started. Then she looked him up and down, “though, I don’t understand why a man would go to a gynecologist’s office for an ultrasound.”
Ryan gave a small smile at her obliviousness. “It’s a, uh, small exception.”
She raised her eyebrow, “alright. Just have a seat and the doctor will come get you when she’s ready for you.”
“Come on, love,” Gavin directed Ryan to one of the seats in the waiting room. Ryan grumbled as he walked over to the seats. Gavin rubbed Ryan’s back as he joined him. “Aren’t you excited to find out what we’re having, though?”
“We’re having a baby, we already know that.”
“No, I mean whether we’re having a boy or a girl.”
Ryan scowled. “We won’t know whether they’re a boy or a girl until they know whether they’re a boy or a girl or something else.”
Gavin shook his head, “no, no, I didn’t mean gender,” he clarified. Ryan jut sighed in response.
15 minutes later, a woman doctor with long, blonde hair stepped out. “Mr. Haywood?” she called out.
“Over here,” Gavin called out.
She nodded, “Come on back, the room’s all set up,” she informed them as she motioned for them to follow her. Gavin stood up and grabbed Ryan’s hand. Ryan sighed and stood up, as well. the two of them followed the doctor. “How are you feeling?” she asked Ryan.
“I hate what pregnancy is doing to me,” he admitted.
“And why’s that?”
“I’m not allowed to do my job, and even if I was, I’d be too tired to do anything. I’m an emotional train-wreck. I’m fatter than I’ve ever been. I wouldn’t hate the cravings if thy weren’t making me even fatter. I pass gas a lot more than I used to, and that’s just embarrassing.”
“It’s not really that bad, Rye,” Gavin reassured him.
“You won’t let me be the little spoon because you don’t want me to fart on you! And it’s starting to get difficult for me to be the big spoon,” Ryan complained.
“Well…” Gavin’ face went red with embarrassment.
The group arrived at the room for the ultrasound. “Alright, here we are,” she informed the group, “Ryan, you lay down on the exam table,” she instructed. Ryan sighed and followed directions. Gavin went in to follow him, but the doctor stopped him. “Can I assume that you’re the baby’s father?” she asked him.
“Yeah, I’m Gavin, the baby’s, uh, other father,” he corrected her.
“Right, I should have known that. My apologizes. I’m Dr. Atkinson,” she introduced herself, at the end.
“Pleasure,” Gavin greeted back, offering a hand to shake. The two of them walked into the room.
Dr. Atkinson walked over to Ryan and grabbed the ultrasound gel. “Can you lift up your shirt, for me?” she asked him.
He whined and looked at Gavin. “I promise not to look at your tummy,” Gavin promised. Ryan sighed and lifted his shirt.
The doctor squirted lubricating jelly onto Ryan’s stomach. “Jesus! Why is that so cold?!” he demanded.
“Just relax,” she assured him as she began to rub the ultrasound transducer on the lubricated area. Images of the fetus began to appear on the television screen beside her. Ryan’s eyes were transfixed on his stomach.
Gavin’s eyes skipped over Ryan and looked at the screen. His eyes lit up as soon as he saw the fetus. His smile grew wide as he began to wave at the screen. “Hi, little guy. Can’t wait to meet you,” he told the image.
“Gavin, I thought you said you wouldn’t look at my stomach!” Ryan growled.
“I’m not looking at you, you dunce! I’m looking at our baby, through the ultrasound,” Gavin quickly fired back. “Why aren’t you looking, too? It’s quite extraordinary, getting to see our baby.”
“I…,” then Ryan took a deep breath and finally looked at the screen, as well. His serious expression melted the second, he saw his baby. “I… wow!” he breathed out with a smiled. “You’re going to be my world,” he told the screen.
Gavin looked at Ryan and smirked. “That’s a big title you put on the baby,” he commented.
Ryan rolled his eyes, then looked back at Gavin. “Our world,” he corrected himself.
Gavin sighed and shook his head, “right.”
Dr. Atkinson, who had been looking at the television screen, look at Ryan and Gavin. “Well, everything seems to be looking normal with the baby. Everything’s right on track for their December due date. Would you like to know the sex of the baby?” she asked.
“I don’t think that will be necessary,” Ryan told her.
“Well, I’d like to know,” Gavin commented.
Ryan shook his head and sighed, “then, let’s hear it,” he relented.
Sex and gender were touchy subjects for Ryan. He didn’t see the importance of know which set of genitals his child had, seeing as his gender identity may not end up matching them. Or the child could end up normal, nobody really knew for sure. He was just glad he got to see his baby as best he could. It only took one look at the child for him to know that everything was going to be alright.
25 WEEKS
As the little baby grew within Ryan larger, the child became very active. The kid would constantly be moving around, wiggling and kicking Ryan’s organs around. Ryan had to pee a lot more because his bladder was constant target for kicking practice. The child’s constant movement was starting to keep Ryan awake more, but he still didn’t mind any of it. The beginning of September came, and Ryan was spending most of his time either in the tech room, the bathroom peeing, or snoozing in his room.
Fakehaus members, Bruce and James were visiting the crew one day in mid-September. They were hoping to work out some territory disputes. They decided not to make this a formal meeting, opting to have it in the living room to make it more casual.
Geoff and Bruce sat in chairs facing each other, while Gavin and James sat on the couch in the middle.
“Look, your crew has control over South Los Santos, what more do you want?” Geoff asked.
“South Los Santos is predominantly African American, and we’re kinda a crew of white guys,” James pointed out as he played with his knife.
“How about East Los Santos, then?” Gavin proposed.
“We were actually thinking a bit of upper class stuff. Like maybe parts of Rockford Hills?” Bruce requested.
“I’m not sure that,” Geoff was cut off.
“Ryan, what are you doing!?” Gavin quietly demanded at the larger man quietly walking out and toward the kitchen.
“Sprog’s being rowdy. Figured diet coke might calm him down,” Ryan yawned.
“Wait, Is that you, Vagabond?” Bruce asked, surprise.
Ryan’s eyes widened as soon as he realized he was being called out. “I…”
“Holy shit Vagabond, you’re huge! what made you blow up like a balloon?” James commented, next.
Ryan took a deep breath. “Don’t worry about it,” he breathed out.
“No seriously, what happened to you?” Bruce pressed.
Ryan scowled. “It’s none of your goddamn business what happened,” he stated firmly.
“If it wasn’t impossible, I’d say you looked preg,”
Before Bruce could finish his statement, Gavin snatched James’s knife away from him and threw it at the wall, getting everyone’s attention. Everyone’s eye grew wide as it embedded itself in the wall. “ENOUGH!” Gavin screeched. Everyone turned to face Gavin. “Vagabond, run back to your room. I will get your diet coke,” he instructed as he stood up. Ryan nodded and did as he was told. “And I believe everyone ELSE was negotiating territory. So, get back to it, yah.” Everyone nodded, nervously, “good.”
He grabbed the diet coke from the kitchen and walked back to Ryan’s room. Ryan was rubbing his stomach, “Ow,” he yelped quietly as the baby continued to kick his insides around.
“Love,” he cooed as he walked over to Ryan. “I brought your diet coke,” he said as he handed Ryan the can. Ryan tried to sit up enough that he could drink. He brought the can to his lips and took a few big gulps. The baby continued to move around and Ryan winced. “Still rambunctious?” he asked. Ryan nodded. Gavin quickly thought of an idea. “I have an idea of something else that might help. May I rub your tummy?” he asked.
“Baby, after a knife throw like that, you can do whatever the fuck you want to me,” Ryan answered in a raspy, attempted sexy, voice. Gavin began to rub Ryan’s stomach and the baby calmed down. “Ooh, yeah.”
Gavin raised an eyebrow as he rubbed Ryan’s stomach, “Ryan are you turned on?”
“Mm, yeah. To tired and fat to act on it. I missed the days when we fucked like savage animals.”
Gavin sighed, “I miss them too.”
“Can’t wait till I have a massive cock for you to bounce on,” Ryan lazily smirked.
“Ryan, you tease,” then, Gavin realized what Ryan had just said and he tilted his head in curiosity. “Wait, you’re still planning on that sex change?”
“Absolutely. This pregnancy is a onetime thing. If we actually want more kids after this one, I gonna have ta freeze my eggs,” he mumbled.
Gavin’s eyes grew wide. “Wait, you can do that!?”
“Yah, did… research…,” Ryan told him as he fell asleep.
Gavin continued to pet Ryan’s baby belly. The door to the room suddenly reopened. “Yo Gav, you coming back or,” Geoff started.
“SSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!” Gavin shushed Geoff and motioned to a sleeping Ryan.
“So, I take that as a no, then?” Geoff asked more quietly this time.
Gavin scowled and grabbed the knife that was sitting on the nightstand next to the bed. He chucked it at the door and Geoff quickly dodged out of the way and slammed the door close. Ryan, who wasn’t completely asleep anymore, smirked. With a partner who was willing to protect him like that, he knew everything was going to be alright.
34 WEEKS
Ryan was reaching the point where he tired of what pregnancy was doing to him. First of all, he was tired of being tired all the time. The odd cravings normally wouldn’t have bothered him, but he wasn’t looking forward to all of the excess weight he was going to need to lose. He was huge because he was pregnant; his stomach protruded a good seven/seven-and-a half inches and could barely walk straight anymore. His bust had grown back to an A-cup and he absolutely hated it. He hated the constant reminder that he was biologically female and he thought he couldn’t wait for this kid to be out of him.
But, there were still a few things he was thankful for about his situation. He was thankful he had a wonderful crew to back him up. Michael was able to offer legitimate fatherly advice, helping his boi on his transition into fatherhood. Geoff wept tears of joy when they showed him ultrasound pic of the little one, saying how proud he was to be a grandfather, no matter how unofficial it was. He was thankful for Gavin, a loving boyfriend and amazing father to be. He waited on Ryan, hand and foot, and comforted Ryan in his hormonal, emotional needs. Not a day passed where Ryan wasn’t given a reason not to be madly in love with him. And as annoying as they were, Ryan was thankful for the child they were going to have. The constant activity was only proof the Ryan that the kid was clearly his and Gavin’s.
At the beginning of November, the crew planned to throw Ryan a baby shower. Gavin thought Ryan would hate the idea at first, but Ryan thought it would be a good excuse to introduce the crew to their child’s godmother. Geoff was slightly bitter about not being named the kid’s godfather, but he was willing to accept it.
The baby shower was being held at a safehouse in Morningwood. Ryan and Gavin were frosting the baby shower cake in the kitchen with Ryan sneaking little tastes of the frosting in between, Michael and Jeremy were tying balloons around the living room, Jack was setting up snacks on a table to the side, and Geoff was turning the cushioned chair in the living room into a thrown fit for a king who happened to be pregnant, complete with a ripped paper crown.
“Ooh,” Ryan whined in pain.
“Oh my gosh, what’s wrong?” Gavin quickly asked.
“Nothing, nothing,” Ryan quickly reassured, “Just a rather painful kick to the bladder. I’m gonna go to the bathroom,” he clarified.
“Need help?”
“I think I can still make it. I still have some use in me,” Ryan replied with a smile. He started to waddle away towards the bathroom. Gavin smiled fondly as he finished icing the cake on his own.
Five minutes later, the doorbell rang. “Is that an intruder?” Geoff asked, panicked.
“No, no. it’s probably Meg,” Gavin announced as he rushed over to the front door. He checked the front window, then opened the front door with glee. “Meg!” he greeted, happily, as he went in for a hug.
“How are you, Gavy?” she asked as she hugged back.
“Top.”
“Is Ryan inside?”
“Yah. The sprog’s playing kickball with his bladder, again.”
“Daw.”
“Well, would you like to come in or,” Gavin was interrupted be the sounds of guns, cocking. He turned around to see everyone has their guns pointed at the front door. “Guys,” he whined in disappointment.
“Get out of the way, Gavin!” Geoff demanded in anger.
“What are you on about? Why do you have your guns out? Why do you even have them with you!? Ryan told you not to bring them!”
“Don’t you dare let that siren in here,” he instructed, ignoring Gavin.
“She’s not gonna do any harm, she’s just here for the baby shower.”
“Do you really expect us to believe that,” Jack questioned with a scowl on his face.
Meg shrugged, “well, they have me beat because I didn’t bring a gun,” she announced, sheepishly.
“Oh yeah, then what’s in the bag!?” Michael asked, furiously.
“A present… for Mini Meg…”
“Guys, what’s going on? I thought I heard guns cocking and,” Ryan started to ask as he left the bathroom. Then he noticed that everyone had their guns pointed at Gavin and Meg. “OH, COME THE FUCK ON!!! I TOLD YOU PEOPLE NO GUNS!!!!!!!” Ryan shouted angrily.
“But, she’s Dollface and your boyfriend has an apparent hard on for her,” Geoff argued back.
“No, I don’t!” Gavin squawked.
“I have a girlfriend,” Meg added.
“MEG TURNEY IS THE GODMOTHER OF MY CHILD!” Ryan screamed.
“YOU CHOSE A SIREN TO BE YOUR KID’S GODPARENT OVER ME!?” Geoff yelled back.
“THAT’S BECAUSE I’VE KNOWN HER LONGER THAN I’VE KNOWN ANY OF YOU!!!!!”
Gavin ran over to Ryan and started petting his head and rubbing his back. “Calm down, love. High heart rate’s not good for the baby.”
Ryan took a few deep breaths, “sorry, sorry, that was all unnecessary. Meg, please come in.”
“Whatever,” Geoff grumbled.
Meg happily skipped in the room and over to hug Ryan as best she could. “How are you, Rye?”
“Tired, fat, but pretty overall happy,” he answered with a smile.
Then, she placed he hands on both sides of Ryan’s belly, “and how’s Mini Meg?”
“Actually, the name Gavin and I decided on is,” Ryan lowered his voice to make sure only Meg could hear him, “Henry.”
“Henry!” Meg exclaimed. Everyone around the room looked at her in confusion.
Gavin frowned, “Ryan, we were gonna wait to reveal the name until after the ‘sex reveal cake’.”
Ryan shrugged, “sorry,” he apologized, sheepishly.
“You’re having a boy?” Jeremy asked.
“Yah. We were gonna wait until the cake to reveal all that. But after this whole ordeal, we could all use some sweets right about now,” Gavin joked.
The room lit up with laughter. In an instant, all unnecessary conflicts seemed to be forgotten. They could all get back to the fun baby show day they had planned. In that moment, it seemed like everything was going to be alright.
39 WEEKS
They were in the home stretch. As excited for having a kid as he was, Ryan could not wait for the kid to be out of him. The pregnancy was becoming very annoying, at this point. His body had been tricking him with Braxton-Hicks contractions since he was seven months along. Of course, he had dealt with the pain of being shot on multiple occasions, so the false contractions were nothing more than an annoying inconvenience.
As time moved closer to his due date on December 18th, the baby shifted lower on his hips in preparation for birth. His belly was already the size of a basketball, and this made walking steady even harder for Ryan. Gavin helped Ryan get from point A to point B when he’d let him. Ryan had nearly bit his head off though, when he suggested that Ryan be confined to bed-rest.
On December 11th, the crew had planned on going out for a heist. This heist would be Gavin’s first big heist as crew muscle. Of course, Ryan would be staying back at the penthouse helping with tech. That morning, Gavin helped Ryan to the kitchen. Jack and Jeremy were already sitting at the kitchen eating breakfast.
“Are you sure you want to help with this, today? Because you could go back to bed to rest and nobody would blame you or anythin’,” Gavin attempted to persuade Ryan as he led him to his chair.
“Gav, we got a week left before I’m truly out of commission,” Ryan argued.
“I could stay in,” he started.
“Sweetheart, this may or may not be your only chance at being real crew muscle. I want you to take it, show me how big and strong my boyfriend can be,” Ryan argued, further. Gavin just sighed in response.
Jeremy looked up from his food to see Gavin and Ryan. “Morning, Gav and Rye,” he greeted the two of them. “And you’re looking festively plump today, Ryan,” he joked.
“Jeremy!” Jack scolded as he swatted Jeremy’s arm.
“Ha, jokes on you,” Ryan retorted as he slowly sat down, “I won’t be like this anymore by the time Christmas rolls around.”
Gavin rolled his eyes at the exchange, he was still very excited about the fact that he would be a father soon. “Right, what do you want for breakfast then?” Gavin asked Ryan.
“I’m feeling like… cheesy scrambled eggs.”
Gavin quickly went to the fridge to grab the supplies he needed to make the dish. “Gavin, you can’t cook, you’re going to burn the kitchen down,” Jack pointed out.
“Learned,” Gavin quickly informed him as he cracked two eggs into a pan.
As the rest of the day went by, Ryan felt a contraction every few hours. He was too busy doing tech work on the crew’s heist at Pacific Standard Deposit Bank to notice that the time between each contraction growing shorter. He was directing the crew when another one, a strong one, hit. “You got the money,” he asked.
“Yeah,” Geoff confirmed.
“There’s an exit on the Alta street side that would be a good,” he stopped when the contraction hit and he whined, quietly.
Lindsay looked up when she heard Ryan’s whine, “you alright?” she asked.
“Yeah, strong Braxton-Hicks. Tell Axial to take tech lead for a bit, I’m gonna go splash some water on my face to get my head back in the game,” he replied as he used the table to push himself out of the chair. He waddled to the bathroom and turned on the sink. He splashed water on his face, “get it together, Haywood. You can do this,” he told himself He turned off the sink and started to back to the room went get noticed his pants were all wet from his crotch. He hadn’t thought he’d somehow spilled any water on his crotch, and it quickly dawned on him that he actually hadn’t spilled any sink water. “LINDSAY!!!” he screeched in hopes of getting her attention.
“What?” she asked as she ran in the bathroom. She looked Ryan up and down, and frowned, “did you really just call me in here to show me that you peed yourself when you were three feet away from the toilet?”
“Didn’t… pee myself,” he gritted out.
Lindsay’s eyes met Ryan’s, “Wait, did your water break?” Ryan gave a slight nod to answer her question. “Oh my god, your water broke. Holy shit, you’re going into labor!” Lindsay then ran back to the tech room. Ryan attempted to follow behind her, hoping to make use of the time between contractions. She got into the coms and tapped in so she would only be talking to Gavin. “Goldie, I need you to get out of there,” she informed him.
“Why? Everything’s going fine here,” Gavin asked over the com.
Ryan quickly yanked the com mic away from Lindsay. “YOU WERE RIGHT! YOU WERE ABSOLUTELY FUCKING RIGHT, YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED HERE WITH ME! CAUSE I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!” Ryan screeched.
“Rye,”
“HENRY’S COMING!!!!!!” he finished yelling as another contraction hit.
Gavin dropped everything that he was doing and ran out of the bank. “Where the hell do you think you’re going!?” Geoff yelled after him.
Michael had a feeling he knew why Gavin was running away. “Don’t get caught, Ryan needs you right now!”
Gavin drove back to the penthouse and ran in the front door. “Ryan, I’m here!” he called as he ran in.
Ryan waddled out, clutching his stomach, with Lindsay following behind. “How did you get here?” Ryan asked.
“Drove.”
Ryan groaned and squeezed his eyes shut. “Idiot,” he gritted out.
Gavin smiled, “but, I’m your idiot, love.” And Ryan smiled back sweetly, then, he groaned in pain as another contraction hit.
“Alright, I’ll drive you two to the hospital. Gavin, get changed out of your heist clothes while I get Ryan down to the car,” Lindsay instructed. Gavin quickly nodded and ran to his room.
Lindsay and Ryan got down to the car. Two minutes later, Gavin met them at the car in civilian clothes and they all drove to the hospital. Ryan and Gavin were admitted into a hospital room while Lindsay had to wait in the waiting room. Ryan wailed in pain all night long, yelling that that baby better take his uterus out with him. By the morning of December 12th, Henry Daniel Haywood-Free was born.
Ryan sat up, cradling his baby in his arms, while Gavin leaned up against the bed. Gavin gave his finger to the baby to grab onto and the baby latched onto it. “He’s gorgeous, a right handsome baby,” Gavin cooed.
“Yeah, he sure it,” Ryan agreed, lazily. “He got your nose,” he giggled.
Gavin shook his head and smiled, “sorry, Hen,” he apologized.
“Don’t be sorry. Your big ole’ nose is pretty cute, just like the rest of ya,” Ryan complimented as he began to shut his eyes.
“Daw,” Gavin smiled. “‘e prolly got your gorgeous eyes.”
“He’s… perfect,” Ryan said as he drifted to sleep. Gavin quickly picked up Henry and began to cradle him so Ryan could sleep.
His son yawned in his arms, he was going to be the perfect baby for him and Ryan. Sure, this kid was born into a life of crime, but none of that mattered. Their little family was now complete, and he knew for a fact that everything was going to be alright.
15 Months Later
Henry’s first year of life was kinda interesting. Ryan had chosen to go by the name Papa for Henry, while Gavin chose to be called, Dada. He was just as rambunctious as he was when he was in the womb, and that caused a lot of trouble for his parents, but that were still happy that they had him. He had criminals coming from all over the city to care for him, but he was too young to know what being a criminal meant. His godmother would make the finest clothes for him, despite his Dada buying him all the posh baby clothes a baby could ever want. Little Sophie Jones was eager to play with him, even though she was a year and a half older than him. Michael and Gavin joked that it was the next generation of ‘Team Nice Dynamite.’ The world was a big, bright place for Henry.
Ten months after Henry was born, Ryan took Gavin out on a date to La Spada, a nice Italian seafood restaurant. In between dinner and dessert, Ryan got down on one knee and proposed to Gavin. Gavin ecstatically said yes and passionately kissed Ryan. After a hot and heavy, intimate night of more “dessert,” Ryan asked when they should have their wedding, and Gavin said he didn’t want the wedding until Ryan was done recovering from his sex change. Ryan said he hadn’t scheduled one yet, and Gavin handed him a pamphlet for a cosmetic clinic in Liberty City and a note for an appointment reminder. Gavin had found the best clinic for Ryan’s sex change and scheduled the surgery for him. Ryan couldn’t be more in love with Gavin after he did that for him.
Five months after that, Ryan, Gavin, and Henry few up to Liberty City. Ryan was taken into surgery, with Gavin and Henry waiting in the waiting room. After ten hours, Ryan was released from surgery. They went to go check on him and he was fast asleep. They retired to their hotel by the clinic for the night and went back to visit Ryan the next day. The nurses warned Gavin that Ryan may be high from the pain killers. Gavin took Henry up to Ryan room and they saw Ryan blinking, groggily.
“Hey, ya pretty cute,” Ryan complimented Gavin.
“Thank you, Rye,” Gavin smiled back. Henry cooed as if to compliment his Papa.
“Now that I have a dick, I’d fuck ya with it,” he slurred.
Gavin covered Henry’s ears. “Ryan, don’t use that type of language around the baby.”
“Sorry sweetheart, but right now, I’m hiiiiiiiiiigh as balls,” he giggled and reached his arm to point up.
Gavin quickly rushed over to push his arm back down. “No, no. You don’t wat to rip your IV out.”
Ryan’s eye’s drooped as he smiled, fondly. “An ya care ‘bout me too? Think I migh be in love wich ya.”
Gavin snorted. “I should hope so,” he replied with a smile.
“Buh cha can’t tell mah fiancé dat.”
“Ryan, I am your fiancé.
Ryan’s eyes widened in surprise, “Really?”
“Yah, and Henry, here, is your son.”
“He’s beautiful,” Ryan cooed, “An you’re drop dead gorgeous.”
Henry babbled happily, as if to thank his papa for the compliment. “Daw, thank you, Rye-bread,” Gavin thanked as well.
“Love it when ya… call me that…” Ryan mentioned as he fell back asleep.
Gavin and Ryan’s lives were in no way considered normal. They were a gay couple living in a big city. Ryan was an FTM transsexual who had inexplicably gotten knocked up. And on top of all that, they were members of one of the most dangerous criminal crews in Los Santos. Some might assume that life might be hard for the two of them, but for Gavin and Ryan, their life was more than alright. It was perfect.
Hi! Do you know if there (a) fic(s) similar to Unconventional by InkStainsOnMyHands but with the other way around (trans male Ryan)?
trans ryan wants a baby by @faequill
Summary: I really loved your fic unconditional, do you have any ideas with trans Ryan in a similar scenario? :)
Rated: Not Rated (I’d say G)
Commentary: THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE FICS IN THE WORLD. I love it so much, it’s wonderful. I know it’s very short, but man-- I just love it as much as I loved Unconventional. For some reason-- No, I know why. I got attached to this fic like crazy because Ryan’s situation reminded me of a conversation I once had with my now boyfriend after I was left by an ex-partner for wanting a baby in the future.
The way Joey writes characters always gets to me, and this fic took me by surprise in the sense that this small scene made me have a little flashback to one of the happiest moments of my life as an adult. So I once said that I would love to read a full fanfic of it, and I say it again today. I would love to read a full fic about this.
juno au (with trans shane) by faequill
Summary: Exactly that, a Juno AU with trans!Shane.
Rated: Not Rated (I’d say M)
Commentary: For real, Joey has the best ideas and the best way of writing everything ever. This one is the cutest thing and has one of my favorite endings in the world. It’s a very lovely story!
Do you know fluffy fanfics that include Ryan's doggos???
The’s only one that I have read:
I would like that by Crimsonflowerz
Summary: The third person who knew Ryan was trans was the ghost that haunted his apartment.
Rated: T
Commentary: To be fair, only Dori appears in this fanfic, and there’s the idea of getting Micki to keep her company. But man, this fic is the fluffiest, most sweet thing in the world and I’m in love with it. Like I mentioned before, this is one of my favorite fanfics and It’s my complete comfort fic.
