Yaaay it's pride month!!!! Wanted to draw something silly out for my genderfluid steven headcanon....
I feel like steven is SOOO genderfluid. Not just in expression and presentation i mean i think sometimes he stares into the mirror and thinks "i should be a girl" lowkey HAHAHJAJDJD....
But anyway I think he would start realizing things about himself post CYM. like no way he would have the time to think about it before then... But once everything sorta settles down and he's no longer being called rose quartz and "she" right before someone is about to attack him (😭) maybe he would start trying out different labels here and there. Maybe nonbinary at first, but then it wouldn't fit because he FEELS like a boy, but also a girl. But i also think he would be conflicted about accepting the fact that he feels like a girl, because he doesn't want to "prove them right" about actually being his mother. So maybe he would pretend he didn't feel that way, or maybe he would just assume he only feels that way because of the years of being mistaken for his mother, and being referred to as a girl.
But after so long of pushing it down i feel like he would start to feel that horrible post realization gender dysphoria... Like the kind you feel when you finally figure out what you're feeling, so you feel it 10x worse.. and with none of the euphoria that comes with it because he refuses to let himself come out (out of fear of being associated with rose) (dont even get me started on how complicated his feelings about his mother would be after CYM thats a whole different concept i think about daily.. ough)
I think he would be able to push it down for a long time because he truly does feel like a boy a lot of the time. But when he feels like a girl again (In my head it would be like, boy for 3-4 months, then girl for a little while, a couple weeks or a month, then boy again..) it would be like the end of the world for him. Like 'nooo i thought this had finally gone away!!!' style... Maybe he would experiment once in a while by wearing "girl clothes" and doing his hair differently.. but then get kinda scared that maybe he was just a trans girl all along and push it down a little longer 😭
But yeah I feel like it would take him a little while to ultimately end up at genderfluid, but once he accepted it and started telling people i think he would be pleasantly surprised to find out that everyone is cool with it / weren't really surprised when he came out to them...
I think connie especially would be there for him thru it all, maybe he tells her first sorta early on and she tries to help him figure himself out... But i think she would be his biggest ally fr OHHH i love you steven and connie ......
Anyway this whole thing is super self indulgent but I love thinking about it so muchhh URGHH Steven you're so complicated gender identity.. also another fun thing for me to think of is this whole thing but from a trans guy perspective. Like afab steven, trans basically his whole life starts to maybe feel like he's maybe actually genderfluid around age 14-15 and is like. Well shit I'm gonna pretend i dont feel this way!!! But then eventually comes to terms with the fact that SOMETIMES he /does/ feel like a girl ... #mecore














