even on my better days I have to remind myself that my trauma and my feelings about it is still valid. just because I feel better doesn't mean it doesn't affect me, doesn't mean it stops shaping me as a person. it happened, and it still affects me even on my better days. how can it only be valid on what I consider my bad days? trauma remains, trauma doesn't go away even when I feel better. it doesn't work like that. and though it saddens me to know I carry it with me even as I get better, it feels comforting to know that even on good days, my trauma and my feelings about it will continue to remain just as valid even when I'm feeling at my best, and not just at my worst.