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So this turned into something I didn’t think it would, please read the warnings before reading. Some topics may be hard to read. Music means a lot to me and often brings out my deepest emotions and thoughts. This is very vulnerable and raw for me. But don’t worry there are funny and silly things in here! It’s not all bad I promise <3
Alright yall, I’m a BIG music head and so this is gunna get in depth and deep. So like, prepare for that. I may also pick a song off of one of the albums to go into detail about. Just a heads up, I am very open about my struggles with mental health, so there will be talk of that here. If anything here upsets anyone, I apologize. Maybe my words will bring some of you comfort, knowing you’re not alone in feeling/experiencing these things.
TW: Talks of depression, self harm, sexual assault, general mental illness talk
Ok enough yappin, onto the albums! These are in no particular order. Pardon any grammatical errors.
Jar - Superheaven
Ok I absolutely adore this album and it has been in my rotation for a few years now. Youngest Daughter and Sponge are my absolute faves on this album. Youngest Daughter is their most popular song for a reason. It has an amazing sound and structure, but I happen to relate to it quite a bit. I’m Non-Binary but I am afab, and the youngest out of my siblings. My father has been pretty absent from my life, especially after my parents split up. It has put a strain on my mental health my whole life.
“I am sick
I am horrified at everything I hear
The youngest daughter lost her way.”
The lyrics in this song really resonate with me now that I’m an adult. Especially when I’m talking to my mom about my dad. With becoming an adult comes new perspectives, I can now see my mother’s in this situation. Her seeing my declining mental health, self harm, addiction. My relationship with my father, or lack there of, has formed me as a person and not always in the best of ways. But I am slowly healing and letting go of these things.
Thats The Spirit - Bring Me The Horizon
THIS ALBUM MAN! One of the best albums ever written in my opinion. From the Lyrics to the composition. BMTH is a band that I’ve stuck by since I was in middle school. This album was a key piece of media in my formative years. This album got me through many struggles so of course I brought it with me into 2024. I’m gunna be for real and say there is not a single song I skip on this album. Not a single one. Doomed has to be the single I pick to talk about off this album. God this song kills me every time, but I love it. The lyrics are absolutely soul-achingly relatable.
“So leave a light on, l'm coming home
It's getting darker, but I'll carry on
The sun don't shine, but it never did
And when it rains, it fucking pours, but I think I like it
And you know that I'm in love with the mess, I think I like it”
Alright, let’s break it down. This entire section of the song is one of the most relatable things I have ever heard. As mentioned previously, I’ve struggled with mental illness for a very long time. I often over looked myself in favor of taking care of others(I habit I’m still learning to break). That’s where “So leave the light on, I’m coming home. It’s getting darker but I carry on” is relatable. If someone else needed help or was struggling with the same things as me, I would help them first. It didn’t matter how horrible my depression or my self harm was. I would always be someone else’s rock, putting a smile on my face while I was empty inside. “And when it rains, it fucking pours, but I think I like it” Another lyric that strikes me deeply. I got comfortable with my depression, it made itself a home in my mind. It was my “normal”, my default. I would purposely make myself sad/ listen to sad songs to make feel worse. I found comfort in my sadness, at the time any other emotion(besides anger, we’ll get to that) felt foreign. Long story short, this album kept me company quite a few times this year.
You Won’t Go Before You’re Supposed Too - Knocked Loose
Alright a break from the angsty shit. This album came out earlier in the year and absolutely ROCKED my shit. When they first dropped Blinding Faith I listened to it 97 times in one day. No lie. My Spotify Wrapped clowned me on it. This album is disgustingly heavy and stank face inducing. It itched my little ADHD brain so good. I think my favorite thing about this album was the guitars and vocals. Bryan absolutely killed it on this album. Also was not sure how Poppy was going to fit into this album, knowing its heavy nature. But I was pleasantly surprised by her and her vocals in Suffocate. Easily my 3rd favorite song on the album.
Preachers Daughter - Ethel Cain
Where do I even begin with this absolute masterpiece? I started listening Ethel Cain in the beginning of the year. And after hearing this album for the first time I thought, “Where the fuck has this been my whole life?” The story of Ethel Cain in the album is grotesquely sad and haunting. I can’t tell you how many times I listened to this album last year. I’ll give you a hint, a lot. Hayden(Artist) is a lyrical and sound genius, I wanna give her a big smooch on the forehead. The way she composed these songs really gives you the mental picture of what’s happening to Ethel. It’s just *chefs kiss*. I’d have to pick Family Tree(Intro) as my favorite song off this album.
“Swinging by my neck from the Family Tree”
The most reliable lyric off the song. My family doesn’t deal with their mental health. They will never deal with it. Thus passing it on down the line to me, now I’m dealing with mine alone. Them denying their obvious mental health problems caused me to develop my own. Well, besides the ones I was born with. Me speaking out about mine unfortunately causes issues. So I do in fact feel like I’m hanging from my family tree.
Hotel Kalifornia - Hollywood Undead
This band and me go wayyyyy back. This is the og band right here. I started listening to them when I was 8 years old, I am now 21. I’ve met them a total of 3 times by now and I have two tattoos dedicated to them. These mfs saved my life on multiple accounts. ANYWHO, this album absolutely slaps. It brings back a little of their old sound which I adore. And before anyone asks “Oh uh who’s better Deuce or Danny?” DANNY ALL THE WAY. Fuck Deuce, seriously. This album kept me hyped all year and always cheered me up when I was down. It’s actually kinda hard to pick a fave off this album. It’s definitely a tie between Alright, First Class Suicide, and Hourglass.
Slipknot - Slipknot
This fucking Album dude, phew. It’s my favorite Slipknot album hands down. Next to Iowa of course. Also another album with no skips, this includes the deluxe version. This album is loud and angry, which are both words that can describe me well. I have ADHD(Can you tell?) and have struggled with mood swings because of it. However, I have always had this bone deep anger that never seems to go away. I was diagnosed when I was 12 years old and promptly medicated. The medication they put me on did…not work well lol. So instead of trying a different medication, they cut me off cold turkey at the ripe age of 13. So not only was I starting puberty, but I was also going through narcotic withdrawals. So just imagine how my brain was functioning during this time. So, so much rage at a young age. Also unfortunately during this time I was mentally uncovering and processing sexual trauma I went through as a child. All while my home life was shitty. I was angry, so angry all the time. I found this album around 7th grade and holy shit I fell in love with it. The raw/rough vocals, the mind numbingly loud instruments perfectly encapsulated what my head sounded like on the daily. I am now significantly better with my anger now that I am older. I still struggle with it daily, but it is much more managed. I listen to this album in it’s entirety at least 4 times a year. It’s just so fucking good.
“l am my father's son 'cause
he's a phantom, a mystery, and that leaves me nothing” -Eyeless
One of my most reliable lyrics from the album, for obvious reasons.
POST HUMAN: NeX GEn - Bring Me The Horizon
BMTH fucking strikes again, god I love this band. This album came out in and I absolutely lost my shit. Another no skipper. The singles the dropped before the album release were amazing, it kept me hyped. I own this fucker on Vinyl(along with TTS, Sempiternal and Amo). How the songs flow into one another is absolutely breathtaking. I will literally never stop praising Oli Sykes and his amazing brain. And yes, I know ThE oThEr MeMbErS aRe JuSt As ImPoRtAnT. Never implied they weren’t. But Oli’s lyricism and music composition has always been fucking amazing and I will die on that hill. Also I’ve had the most diabolical crush on him since I was 13. Sue me. This album is amazing though, I really love the wide variety of emotions on this album. I really love [ost] (spi)ritual, Kool-aid and LosT the most. The deep 808s mixed with the guitar in [ost](spi)ritual literally itched my brain so good I thought I saw the Gods the first time I heard it. I love how Oli opened up about his struggles with addiction in N/A. I related to it heavily having delt with my own. 10/10 album.
Archetypes - Trevor Something
Omfg I love this album. I’ve come to find out that it’s a cover album, and honestly his versions are better the the originals. I absolutely love this artist, he has such a unique sound. This was 100% my summer album. All That She Wants and Love Lockdown are my faves of this album. The synths are absolutely INSANE on this album. Im a sucker for good synths. I’ve been a big fan of Trevor since 2022 and this is definitely in my top three favorite albums from him. The other two being Deep Wave Data Dark Web Daemons and Microwaves. Definitely has one of the better covers of Closer by NIN I’ve ever heard.
Take Me Back To Eden - Sleep Token
Where do I even start with this album? This is one of, if not the best things I’ve ever heard in my life. This band is absolutely amazing and has completely taken over my life. Vessel is one of the best lyricists/vocalists of our time. And I will absolutely not back down from that statement, it would be like arguing with a brick wall. The emotions that this album provokes should be studied. I found this band towards the end of 2022 when I was in a very rough patch of life. I was friends with a very toxic person who didn’t not take care of their mental heath, and it started to affect me negatively. But I didn’t really have any other friends during this time so I stayed. I was also unemployed at this time, so I felt even more trapped and isolated from the world. As soon as I first heard Vessels voice I fell in love immediately. I listened to their entire discography in two days. I was so excited to find out they had a new album coming out in 2023. I was absolutely EATING UP the singles they dropped up until the album release. I listen to this album often. It helps me think and clear my head. Its helped me deal with a lot of things this year, and helped me make some big decisions for my life. Sleep Token is one of the only bands that can quiet my mind. I also own it on vinyl, along side TPWBYT. I’ve fallen hopelessly in love this band and all their goofy antics. I could literally talk about them forever.
Also quick PSA
DO NOT POST/TAG ANY THAT HAS TO DO UNMASKED SHIT!
I don’t wanna see it, they don’t want us to see it. Quit it, y’all are weird asf.
Ahem anyway.
But yes this album is an absolute masterpiece and I cannot wait for their next album. Im currently rocking like a crazed lunatic in the corner knowing these mfs could release a new single any day now.
This album only has one skip for me and it’s Are You Really Ok? And it’s because it’s heartbreaking and I only listen to it when I’m sad. I think my favorites off the album are TMBTE, Aqua Regia, and The Apparition.
A/N: Wow, that was a lot lol. But I do not apologize for it. I absolutely love music and would be dead without it, and so I will always talk very in-depth about it. Also if anyone wants to yap about any of these bands, please feel free to dm me. I love talking about them. Especially Sleep token, I <3 my Eepies.
