#tri rants

[wingsoffireaus]

Okay so let's talk about Jerboa...

Again trigger warnings. But let me start off by saying this.

I actually didn't mind the chapter delving into her past so much. BUT I get if people are triggered or don't like it.

I mean I was shocked it was in there. But it didn't bother me that much. Guess that goes to show who I am though.

I don't know guys. Like it's bad. It really is. We've got it all here. Child abuse. Brainwashing (literally) and some loss if limb. But... I don't know. Like it took me back but...

Yeah it's probably bad that I just found it more fascinating than anything else. Like it's a very good dive into how ultimate power (and time) can corrupt you. Like... Ugh. I thought it was fascinating.

But.. I don't know. It's valid that people are upset over this part. It really is. But I grew up reading animorphs and let me tell you... That is some fucked up shit. Haha. Y'all think "oh those books with the silly covers? Psh what do they have?"

Haha how about. Child soldiers. Someone gets eaten in the first book. Mind controlling slugs. Racism. Ableism. Loss of limb. PTSD literal children being mind controlled by slugs. Cannibalistic giant centipede things. Genocide. Chemical war fair.

Oh and the series ended on one of the darkest cliffhangers I have ever seen. So yeah. Guys I've grown up reading stuff like this. It does not bother me at all. It probably should... But it doesn't. In all seriousness though guys Animorphs is an amazing series and I recommend it... But keep these in mind. To be fair they actually do have a lot of humor and character... Admittedly once the ghost writers took over it took a turn but .. we don't talk about that. But yeah. (There is an actual gay alien couple in the later books though. Being in the 90s they couldn't be obvious about it but... It's there guys. It's very obviously there. And the author's confirmed it. Not in that way. Like they did all they could do to confirm with out saying it straight out.

Anyway. Sorry Animorphs is a thing for me. I can't help but rant about it.

Continuing on. Yes this is a disturbing chapter. And I can see people being freaked out about it... But to be honest y'all can probably skip it. Actually here this is what pisses me off about all this.

Why does Jerboa exist? I literally think it's just because Sutherland came up with this fascinating character backstory.. but besides that Jerboa doesn't really do anything. Besides traumatizing children. She does that very well. Like I said earlier it didn't bother me. But I'm so fucked up that even as a child I don't think it would have bothered me. Again haha animorphs. But I don't think I'd let any of my nieces or nephews listen to that part. Maybe that's my protective side coming in I don't know. Meh. Ultimately I think it depends on who it is reading it.

So here's the thing that pisses me off. Jerboa took away animus magic. Cuz that's totally a great idea.... Fuck off man. I hate this trope. Why is this a trope? Why is this a thing? Let's take magic away! (But did anyone else notice she said only living Animi. Good job Tui. If you ever want to write a future book with Animi you can now.)

But just... Okay the obvious reason Tui did this was so they can't use magic to defeat the plants... But hey guess what? What you could've done is a spell where no magic can ever cause harm. Boom. Fixed it.

Then they can't use it to just kill Wasp. They'd have to find a way around it. Isn't that more interesting than taking it away? Like I'm sorry it's just... It's so boring and stupid.

This is exactly like when in fantasy movies they always have to leave the magic behind. Oh wow magical world. Oh wow friends. Oh no you have to go home but you're okay. Cuz being normal is good.

Cut it with the condescending crap! It pissed me off when I was 6 (seriously guys Narnia was an... Event when you watched it with 6year old tree) and it ticks me off as a 21 year old adult!

We're reading these books for the magic! Don't introduce it and then write it out so lazily! Even as a kid this would upset me.

But um yeah. So Jerboa? I kind of wish you didn't exist. Yes your backstory is... Deliciously tragic. And I'm just the sicko to find it fascinating. But y'know what. I could've lived without the taking magic away. No.

And another reason this upsets me?

Turtle. Hey anyone remember the end of his book. When he had a shut down when his magic was taken away? A vital piece of himself? No?

Well it seems like Tui has too. And it just... Fuck guys. I cried at that part! And I was ecstatic when he got it back. But nah guys.

Animus magic is too convenient. Better scratch that. Not try and be creative.

Blegh...

Oh wait... Hold on. Yeah so remember the ring? Yes the magic ring? That I'm kind of on the fence about? Guess what it adds another layer against Jerboa doing what she did. The ring shows the good magic can do. And then we had the crown showing the bad... I just .. I don't know I feel about this guy's. I just wish they weren't a thing. Cuz now I just feel like there could've been a dialogue about the good and evil of magic. But there's not really. Let's be real here. Once again one person made a decision without talking to anyone else. And I hate that. I want dialogue guys. I want conflict and then talking. You can't have one person be it all.

Cuz that's just as bad as one person running the show. But this is never gonna come up again. Just like Peacemaker is just gonna... Be Peacemaker. And it's all just... So upsetting I don't know.

I am so genuinely upset by these cheap cop outs guys. And I'm tired.

Anyway sorry guys. Prolly not the rant y'all expected. But I'm tired now. And emotionally drained from writing this.

Sounding totally cliche. I miss the magic of this series. But I feel like it's been getting drained from it. Literally and figuratively.

[wingsoffireaus]

Woohoo! It's me again. Still on Hiatus but y'know what with the upcoming release of the newest book in the series I am slowly coming back into it. However no promises. Especially right now. Cuz... Haha. When I think I'm going to get a break something else roses from the shadows to hit me while I'm down. Plus in my spare time I've been working on other projects.

However. One thing that I have been working on is art. More specifically... Dragon art! Woohoo!

I might start releasing little bits and pieces here to do with AUs. Which might be better than trying to write them cuz haha. I've been way to mean to myself when I write lately. Even while writing this I'm cringing. (Proper English what's that?)

But I've been doodling tons of dragons lately and I'd love to try and make a comeback with that instead. But we will see.

There's other projects wof inspired that I have a renewed interest in but I'm not gonna say what those are since I have no idea if I even can do them. But I am going to try. Anyway. I'll be trying to get back into it. But I can't see myself really being sucked in until the new books comes out. Again we shall see. As long as the 2020 aftershocks don't hit me again I'm keeping my hopes up.

Take care y'all.

[wingsoffireaus]

Where I've been

Good even all of you lovely people. I know I keep saying this but... This account isn't dead. But I do think it's gonna be dormant for a bit longer.

Due to some recent tragedy in my family and quarantine I've been... Not great in the head. I've been struggling with some pretty hard core depression. I've thought about things... Especially with the bright futures au. And I definitely plan on doing things in the future. But whenever I try and actually... Do things it just... Doesn't happen. My brain decides it doesn't want to work.

I've just been dealing with a lot lately. I am going to therapy and I'm even getting a dog which I will be training with to be registered as an ESA. I'm hoping things will turn around... Soonish.

I hope everyone has stayed safe in these troubling times. 2020... Sure has been interesting so far. Anyway sending lots of love.

~Tri

[wingsoffireaus]

Thoughts on Darkness of Dragons? (Except the ending, of course, since you’ve already talked about that)

Dang it. You mean you don't want me to do another lengthy rant about how much I hate that ending? Well there goes my plans for the evening.

JK that's a fair enough question.

Okay... Oof. Trying to think of things that I don't immediately hate in the book.

Well first off I feel like the B plot was kind of unnecessary. Like I think it's entertaining enough but most of the book, the last book in the arch mind you, is focused on a side quest that once again is focused on the Sandwing throne. Can we not?

If we were going to do this we should have done it towards the beginning of the arch and not the end. Like I totally forgot Onyx even existed and honestly, she's just not that interesting of a character to me. I mean she SHOULD be but... She's not. She's just not. In fact, she had all of the trappings of characters I HATE. A self-entitled brat who doesn't appreciate any of the good in her life.

Yes. It sucks that she was self-exiled with her mother. Yes it sucks that she couldn't fight for the throne (although she would make a terrible queen. Probably better than the three sisters but not by much.) But you know what I'm just going to say it she was better off than most dragons during the war. She had a mother who genuinely loved her. She wasn't forced to fight in a conflict that would have ended terribly with whoever won and she didn't grow up orphaned in the streets of a place like a scorpion Den.

I'm not the type of person who likes to go "your problems don't matter, people are dying" because that's a super damaging psychology that honestly potentially f'd me up for years because I refused to seek psychological help because of that reason.

But you know what if you act self-entitled and bratty about it than I am going to absolutely bitch slap you back into reality because screw you. Sorry. Just ugh. I hate these characters who get away with crap because of sad backstories or whatever. Especially since she's one of the few in this world who actually had a decent parent willing to put everything on the line to protect her. Ugh. Sorry. I never realized how much I really disliked Onyx until just now.

On other stuff.

Vulture and Cobra were fine. That's kind of all I have to say for them. I don't think they were developed enough honestly, I think they could have been but honestly, I don't think I can remember a single line out of them besides the famous line where Cobra approves of qinter. Besides that not a single line. I think they could have been more interesting but I think Sutherland squeezed herself into a corner trying to fit in this sidequest as well as the ending. Rip. I love you Tui but you write yourself into corners when it comes to endings.

Other things... Moonbli is still underdeveloped. We're told that stuff happened but it was barely even a flashback and Moon is blander than bland in this book. That is when she's not making morally wrong choices and treating some serious trauma like it's all just a misunderstanding that can just be talked through. (Winter deserves better. The vase scene pissed me off so much in the fact that he was painted like a villain. I think it was honestly just so Sutherland can make Moonbli look like the best option. It... Really doesn't. )

Let's talk about Winter. I love him in the beginning. Even though it is disturbing to see him brainwashed (again. F Moon, Qibli, and Kinkajou for not taking it seriously enough. Qibli started to but threw it out to play knight in shining armor. Was Winter completely right in this scene? Oh heck no. Breaking stuff and yelling is never okay. But treating something like brainwashing like a joke or a misunderstanding is also not okay and I'm sorry I'm taking his side in this argument. They all should have apologized but nope. We needed that time for the Onyx side plot. Yay. -_-)

Anyway. Sorry back to Winter. Like I was saying. I like him in the beginning he and Qibli have pretty good chemistry with each other that you have to acknowledge even if you don't ship it yourself. I can listen to the weapon box scene over and over again just because the dialogue and character interactions are great.

Also, the scene, when they get to the Scorpion Den and Winter, admits that he has a lot to learn about the world. Just mwah. Absolutely wonderful. And once again why do all the really good character-building moments for these two happen with each other? And we're not supposed to ship it?! Excuse me?!

*Cough* anyway. Side note rant. I really wish that we could have seen the scene where everyone is told about Winter's experience in the ice Kingdom.. and once again I wish it was taken seriously because it's not. Which is upsetting because his PARENTS literally set his BROTHER to KILL him to take his spot on a wall. And it's treated like an in-joke. I mean I'll give it some leeway because even Winter almost jokes about it and I myself will joke about traumatic stuff after they happened as a coping method but I don't know. That was such a big thing and I wish it was taken more seriously by everyone because he literally sacrificed everything to come back only to get screwed over. This is why I have hang-ups with the Jade Winglet. Except maybe Turtle and Peril. Bless em.

Also, why did Smolder and Winter not meet? Golden opportunity and you blew it, Sutherland!

Sorry again. Winter is my child at this point.

Anyway... Yeah. How about I talk about other characters.

I love Qibli as a POV character. He is such a fascinating protagonist. But I do have some hang-ups. Primarily.

Starting a sandstorm that actually killed some dragons. Did everyone forget the dragons sucked up in that with very little chances of survival? And then Thorn barely gives him a slap on the wrist. Um... What? So Winter breaks a vase, end of the world. Qibli starts a friggin deadly sandstorm? Oh, that rascal!

Hmmmhmmmm....

Okay. That's fine and doesn't feel dirty at all. Psssh.

On a positive note, his relationship with Darkstalker is absolutely fascinating and should have been a more primary focus overall. I don't know how she could have fit that in but it should have been built up way more. I mean there was already groundwork in Talons of Power where Darkstalker says it's a good thing that Qibli is not an animus since it would make things more difficult (or something like that anyway.)

Darkstalker was interesting enough. A bit rushed but... There's not much you can do since he only gets a third of the book actually focused on him (at least that's what it feels like. Whatever amount it was it was not enough!!!)

Anemone was interesting. From the little, we see of her which is a shame since the ending of ToP was setting up some pretty interesting stuff for her. Also, I know Turtle was in the dungeons for most of it but seriously. You bring him back and give him his powers and no big scene of his relief after that panic attack he was having after ToP? Nothing? Okay. If that's how you want to play it.

Peril has some good moments in the beginning but is pretty much a nonentity besides roasting some Nightwings.

Oh. Let's talk about the battle. There's some interesting stuff that happened here and some not so great stuff. And I get to talk about Winter more.

The death of Narwhal and Winter joining the battle should have been focused on a little more. Especially since the Jade Winglet act so betrayed after all that crap they pulled. I'm sorry. Narwhal was a right bastard but that's still Winter's father. And oh guess what, that's still Winters brother up there about to go into battle. Not to mention his tribe that he still cares about even though they're pretty shitty to him he still cares. And F you guys. He already gave up more than all of you and all you've done is make fun of his trauma or ignore it. I know he's an asshole, trust me I KNOW, but so far he's put more effort into this. Literally, self exiling himself to potentially never see his home again. What did you do? Oh, go on a field trip that your queens either approved of to an extent or would probably just give you a slap on the wrist. Yeah okay. You can sit on your high horses and act better because fighting is bad. Aghhhhhh!!!!

Side note. I know I'm not being fair. But I don't care. People defend all of these crappy decisions and treat these characters like they can do no wrong. Well at least I admit Winter did do wrong at times but at least he never erased anyone's personality or changed their race because it would do them good. (Sorry. I had to reference it.)

Despite all of this... I do like how they end the battle. I don't like that they send Winter away without thinking. Especially since it's Qibli, mastermind extraordinaire who has a plan for everything, is the one who wrote it and apparently put a lot of thought into it. Honestly, I think it was just so we wouldn't have a conflict of interest with Winter clearly being uncomfortable with rewriting people's personalities.

But I love it when people are treated like people. Where both sides are shown with fears and decently valid reasons for what they do. It's an interesting way to end a conflict. A little forgettable compared to what it was built up as but... You know.

Haha! Bet you didn't expect a friggin essay that only mentions the ending a handful of times. I guess I never fully understood how frustrated I am with this book. Sorry about that, it's all over the place. I literally wrote it on the spot. But it came from the heart. If you like this book. Good on you. But please don't harass me about how I just don't understand the secret brilliance of it all. Because I don't. And I doubt you're going to change my mind. Especially if you come at me with a condescending attitude like that. (Sorry personal experience)

[triforce-powers]

People tell me I have a stereotypical 'sex hotline' voice.

I don't even know how to react to this??1??1?

Is this a good thing... errrrr 

ALSO I've had people say "Awww! You have such a nice voice!"

WHAT IS 'NICE VOICE'

/endoddrant