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Rey had first met Kylo Ren on Takodana. They had fought, him trying to capture her, her having no idea what to do, just knowing she couldn’t be caught. But he had succeeded. She had mixed feeling about that. If he hadn’t captured her, Han, Luke, and Leia wouldn’t have died. But if it had never happened, they never would have connected. They may have met, fighting on opposing sides of a galactic rebellion, but the chances were slim. So even though they had put the galaxy and their loved ones through so much, she was glad he had knocked her out in that forest. She still teased him about it sometimes, having been told how after capturing her, he didn’t put her down the whole shuttle ride back to his ship. And in the interrogation cell, with him staring at her, with the mask, she had never felt more terrified. But then he had taken the mask of Kylo Ren off, and for just a second, thee mask of his face had slipped, and she had seen Ben Solo underneath. She only got a small glimpse, and then he had composed his face to show no emotion. But she could still sense Han’s son underneath it all.
After escaping, she had hated him with all her heart. She had fought him with all she could offer in that forest, her only thoughts those of avenging Han and protecting Finn. And she had been winning, could have and would havex finished him off if not for the split on the planet that had separated them. After that fight, she hadn’t expected to see him for a while.
Rey then journeyed to Ahch-To with Chewie and R2-D2 to find Luke Skywalker, out in the unknown regions. But, the force had begun connecting them. At first, she was angry, she hadn’t wanted to see the man who had killed what was basically her only father figure, and who was his actual father. She had used to think that if you had a true family, you would never do anything to hurt them. But after several of these odd force-bonds, she had seen how much turmoil he had inside and learned his story. She could sense his divided soul, being ripped more in half every day. She could feel the ripping too, wondering why it felt like half of her soul was being ripped in two. She hadn’t known why she could feel all of them until she learned about their dyad. She had begun to understand him, wishing there was something she could do to help Ben Solo break free of the darkness that was Kylo Ren.
So she went to him. Rey took Chewie, and R2-D2, and left Ahch-To, soaring out of the system on the Falcon. She had Chewie drop her escape pod close to Ben’s Star Destroyer. She was going to bring him back, to the only family he had left. She could feel Leia, close but weak, and wanted her to see her son one more time. While drifting through space, she felt ready for whatever she faced on the ship. She wanted to show Han how much his son meant to her, how she would do anything to save him. She wanted to bring them back, both of them but knew there was only one whom she could do anything for. So she floated, waiting for them to notice her and pull her into the hangar.
On the Super Star Destroyer, Rey hadn’t known what to expect. So she willingly followed Ben, waiting to face the Supreme Leader. In the elevator, she told Ben what she had seen. She told him how he was going to turn, how he could help overthrow the first order. It was when he had refused that she had seen just how much the darkness had invaded him. It had poisoned him, almost to his core, and she could feel the fight that was going on inside him, trying to repel the shards from his heart. Then, inside the throne room, she thought he had turned. He had killed Snoke, they had fought the guards, and she was ready to bring him back. But then, he had told her that she was nothing. EH gave voice to her deepest fears, telling her that she had come from nothing. But apparently, that didn’t mean anything to him. He wanted them to continue the legacy of the First Order, wanted her to turn, with no concern for her thoughts on the matter, or how his comments had made her feel.
When she had refused, he had broken her lightsaber. Sure, it had belonged to his grandfather, but she had heard its calls and retrieved it from the depths of Maz Kanata’s castle. With no lightsaber, and no Ben, she had left, despairing of ever bringing him back, just hoping that Ben Solo, not Kylo Ren, understood why she had come.
After saving them on Crait, Rey continued to help the Resistance, trying not to let him creep back into her head. She focused on training, honing her skills so that the next time they came face to face she could best him. She tried to give her all, but something held her back. She didn’t know what it was for months, she was just frustrated with her failures. It was not until Poe commented on her level of focus in training, an offhand mention about how she was training so that she could best Ben, so she could bring him back, and they could be happy, that she realized she was falling in love with him. She tried not to, but it was too late. Rey hadn’t noticed she was falling in love with Ben until her feet hit the ground at the bottom of the pit.