How long does it take for the pain to completely go? I know by heart and I have been told that digging out the past won't do good to any kind of relationship but why is it that every time something comes up that would trigger an old wound of mine that has not been completely healed, I would always feel the same pain over and over again like as if it only happened yesterday?
I hate the kind of thoughts, to be honest, but I just can't help but to always remember how much my trust was betrayed, especially when provoked.
And this is the kind of attitude that doesn't happen with the thoughts of what you might do again in the present or in the future but the thoughts of being trapped in the past. I haven't forgotten anything of everything did to me. It keeps coming back to me.
Yeah, it is, always. I never forget anything. It’s always hard for me to forget. The thought of how I was cheated on, right in front of my face, how a shit was crowned on my head is a terrible feeling.
Yeah, it was past and it happened a few months back. I have my own share of shortcomings and you have a hundred times apologized and cried. We patched things up. But the thoughts of it is still in my head. Still fresh. Like a wound that is yet to be healed. For until when is still questionable.
Any conversation/situation that reminds me of the past is like a knife in my chest.
I hate it. I hate this. But I can't force myself to completely forget about it. I'm trying to, and you know I am…
The last thing on earth i want for myself is to be betrayed by anyone, whether a lover, a family, a colleague or a friend.
Trust is only given once. Only in the beginning. And trust as always has to be 100% given to the recipient, not 99%. It’s either 0 or a hundred percent because that 1% can actually kill you.
