Upon the road. Three cars, one after the other, pulling to a halt alongside me as I walked.
And as they asked to search through my belongings I felt a great unspoken connection between them and between me.
Because they had a confidence that suggested they knew who I was and that they would have to kill me, they already knew who I was and what I was carrying, and I knew that they knew, but we had a few final shared moments between us where they would pretend that I was innocent and they were ignorant, and the kindness of the performance between us made me laugh, and laugh aloud, before the pistol butt struck me.
I never learnt who turned me in. I knew it must have been a sibling of the faith, one of the families I had most frequently visited or one of the hidden pilgrims who offered food and shelter along the roadside. Someone who would have known who I was and where I was going next.
I spent many of my final days turning the names over in my head, trying to guess - who might I have offended, who might have wished me dead, amongst my friends along the road?
In the end, I stopped wondering. I wished to die with love in my heart: not doubt, not enmity.
— Chapter 29: And Where My Final Footsteps Fall.