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Big brother f/o being a dick and messing with me by "what if"-ing about how easy it would be for him to drug my food but he severely underestimates how bad my contamination OCD is and he feels bad so now he makes me watch him every time he makes food for me so I can see that he's not lacing anything.
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Ohhhh I just realized why hdg makes me so uncomfortable. Forced drugging in fiction presented as the right good choice because look they're happy actually hits different when youre the kind of mentally ill person that oppressors would like to forcibly drug. It isn't just a fun fantasy kink thing especially when the guidelines state that the aliens enslaving humanity have to always be depicted as benevolent. This isn't me shitting all over it because scary hypno kink (although I have my critiques in some ways this is executed in fiction) this is. Um. Girls guys and enbies. This shit happens in real life. You're also very white. Having your planet taking over and being forced into slavery is. Like this feels racist too? I feel like im losing my mind here
Anon who asked about dumping my selfship lore here! Thank you for letting me! This was a lot longer than I thought it would be, my apologies ^^’
TWs for rape, drug mentions, incest (fauxcest, technically, but some would still consider it such), one mention of suicide, and brief mentions of OCD obsessive thoughts ig?
So my F/O is actually an OC of mine who I made because I want more problematic characters. He was also kinda made to help me cope with my OCD? Like, I have horrible intrusive thoughts about drugs, so part of his character is that he does (at least he used to, there's self-indulgent character development on that) stuff like that. I also have intrusive thoughts about my own IRL siblings, which I personally would never act on and frankly make me nauseous when I ruminate on them, so I decided to make my F/O an older step-brother character for my S/I to help me vent that stuff. I also get a wild amount of gender envy from frat boys, so. A lot of his actions are based on toxic frat boy stereotypes. Evil frat boy. He's an awful person who has a history of drugging people at parties for shits and giggles. Sometimes he'd rape them if he was feeling like it, other times he'd just roofie them for fun, record 'em getting all loopy, yadda yadda.
His parents got divorced when he was in middle school and he lives with his dad, up until 12th grade when his dad met the mom of my S/I who was in 7th grade at the time. S/I was really scared of him and he was a huge trigger to S/I's drug-related trauma. F/O is usually not the type to change his behaviours for others, but the little thing was intriguing and he couldn't get to know S/I more until he quit smoking, so he got over that. He won't admit it, but he feels better since quitting.
His attempts to get to know my S/I as family were met with a lot of running away, but S/I eventually sorta warmed up to him a little bit and they started to have a pretty normal sibling relationship. Then in 8th grade, my S/I came out to F/O as ftm and was really scared he wouldn't want to hang out with him anymore. But that's when F/O's non-familial attraction to S/I hit. A sheltered little brother who he gets to take under his wing? Teach him how to do boy stuff? Dress him in his clothes? Show him how boys jerk off? Make him hang out with him and his friends? Hell yeah.
He did end up influencing S/I into growing a spine as he got older, but F/O just found it hot and wasn't bothered too much. Yeah, his little brother does know how to stand his ground now, and it's because of him.
One day after my S/I started TRT, he shamefully came into F/O's room to ask him for help with the spiked sex drive, leading to F/O taking S/I's virginity and trying not to go crazy over it. From then on, any time S/I wanted to get off, F/O told him to just come to him and he'd help.
Where the timeline is now, with F/O and S/I being 23 (24 in October) and 19 respectively, S/I recently came into F/O's room to cuddle since he couldn't sleep. They bantered for a bit before S/I started falling asleep curled up to F/O. F/O was tired of dancing around each other and just being brothers who fucked. He wanted S/I to be his and his alone. He won't act like he hasn't thought about drugging S/I and stealing him away, but he knows how S/I would feel about having drugs that haven't been prescribed to him in his system. Read: violently suicidal. So he woke S/I up to ask how long they were gonna keep acting like nothing else was happening between them.
S/I was confused and sleepy, but he got it together pretty quick and started getting nervous. Asking what if their parents found out, what if people saw them in public and knew them, what about F/O's friends? F/O said they didn't have to tell their parents, and that he'd deal with anyone who saw them in public who recognized them as siblings, and that his friends don't even know they're stepbrothers and think that S/I is just some cute little boytoy that stays over a lot. S/I doesn't question how they thought he was F/O's boyfriend and nothing else despite having known them since 8th grade, i.e. as a child. F/O got uncharacteristically sincere and confessed that he really does like S/I, and that he's tired of what they have going on right now when all he wants is to claim his little brother properly. So S/I decided that they're boyfriends now, and then they kissed and lived happily ever after!! :D
F/O also likes stalking S/I whenever he goes out and dreams about raping his baby brother, but there's always something in the way of him doing it. He'll get his way eventually. Trust 🙂↕️ Something something dressing up and raping surprising S/I in a haunted corn maze around Halloween....
Again, I'm so sorry this is so long. I get a little excited talking about me and Rogue (F/O) since my IRL friends are antis and I have no one to talk about him to.
Something about drugging a brat, watching them melt into your lap .. they're panicking because their head feels all wrong, but they're so warm, and you're wiping away their tears. Kissing their forehead and murmuring against it that mama is here, she won't let anyone take advantage of them like this, that they're such a good pet 'nd they're so much easier to handle when they just shut up and let mama take care of them.
Korone Angst Stuff
TW: drugging, mentions of violence, mentions of abuse, disordered eating, and generally a deeply mentally unwell character who works for a very much evil organisation.
Likes making physical markers that they were somewhere so that she can be sure something actually happened because he just. doesn't know or trust his memory at all. she has no concept of space or time and will get very freaked out about existing if there's not proof that they did do a thing
Umm, is constantly freaked out because everything he uses as a way to remind himself that something happened can be faked
Which is like a valid thing to be freaked about because things have definitely been faked for a variety of reasons. Look it's not good
such an unhealthy attachment to VILE
Percieves VILE as actual freedom, as a way to exist without any rules. no laws no solitary confinement (this isn't necessarily true but we'll get to this later) (he says like the rest of it is true. it's not)
So loyal to VILE for this reason. VILE is freedom to him and he thinks that everything that happens to him while at VILE is only her fault and they can do nothing wrong
on that note, when Carmen (one of Korone's probably two/three best friends at the time) left VILE, Korone was not having a good time. Perhaps better described as having anger issues. Perhaps better described as just generally being violent and destroying things around them. Not necessarily even aware of what they were doing. And not exactly seeming to get tired after like three hours
I doubt VILE would let them destroy a lot of stuff for longer than like 15 minutes, which would mean incapacitating them in some manner
Anyways, when Korone's other best friend ran away not a month later, VILE wasn't keen on letting that happen again. So they prepared. By putting him in an empty room all alone where she couldn't destroy anything and also drugging them so he'd be a bit less violent
VILE also probably told her that none of that happened and he was told and reacted perfectly fine and no that never happened.
She literally can't tell if that's true or not because if it's not he doesn't remember and if it is then there would be no memory anyways
Anxiety attacks/panic attacks except they don't really display at all. she can feel his pulse through his entire body and is literally shaking from that and isn't capable of processing information, maybe nonverbal, but other than that there's no visible signs or anything
Hooo boy has no concept of self at all. Will tell you everything they say is an act, and that's not not true, but it's also like a bit of an exaggeration
Food is a struggling for him because gods she has like maybe ten things that are edible and they keep changing and it's confusing and stressful and sometimes they're starving but xe are nauseated at the idea of eating anything he's just stuck staring at a random food for an hour before actually eating
Does genuinely have no concept of what safety is. Assumes whatever the opposite of his childhood was is normal. And he wasn't allowed to do anything a child because it was all 'too unsafe' so basically just ends up doing a whole bunch of unsafe things because it's the opposite of what her parents would let him do which means it's fine in his brain
that's all for this. Go drink some water if you can. This was heavy for me to write out, so it prolly wasn't great to read. I wanted to get some stuff down for reference for something else and I'm happy I did. anyways, gonna go take a short break from typing now. take care of yourselves!
✍️ for mymymy
For rotumblrrr it's probably spiking her caretaker's tea and then knowingly letting it continue, (she was a teenager in fairness) for other universessssss.. actually no that might be her most fucked up RDMHMDRHT. If you really squint you can talk about her defending evil people
Tw: drugging
Suguru slipping something in your food to help you relax and fall asleep easier after watching you be unreasonably anxious for days (main culprits are cultguru and messed up vengeful cannibalism enthusiast househusbandguru T-T)
