#tw suic

[transgendergoblinfromspace]

TW:DEATH/Sui

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If I’m being honest with myself I went into a majorly depressive episode when my dad killed himself and I haven’t tried to heal from it because I’m angry and I miss him and I need him. It’s frustrating and I’m riddled with guilt because I know it selfish to wish you were here.

Im sorry. I really miss you.

[iynnn]

kill yourself

i could write a long answer but instead im going to gulp your spine

[monkeymish]

I feel like there’s a movie out there about a suicide pact that I’ve seen before. Anyone remember the title?

[chloasis]

до свидания

I'm trying to learn Russian and it just sounds like really bad Italian because my brain is hardwired for Romance Languages. I really miss Arielle right now. If she were still here, I'd check in on her, probably my lame self sending her a message on facebook telling her I'm learning Russian and begging for help. I really miss her. Sometimes the littlest things remind me. I've been doing a lot of Shakespeare lately, and she was always amazing at it. Sitting in Williams class and looking at the curtains she sewed for him. And Fleetwood Mac. I can't sing Landslide without crying, either. When I'm by myself its really bad. Every single time I hear a train pass, I think of her, too. I suppose its a reminder of how much I loved her and how much I miss her. 

I know its been two months. Two months and a week or so. I grieve slowly, I guess. Things don't really hit me when they actually happen. Good things or bad things. I cried when she died, but I still didn't really think it was true. I miss her. God, I miss her right now more than I ever have. 

I'm sorry this is emotional and stupid, but no one will read it anyway, so I don't care. I need to say something today because I never say anything any other day. 

I miss Arielle. до свидания.