Hi guys, um life has fucked me over and I'm sick, but also I'm dealing with some sort of grief. My ex passed away two weeks ago, and I wasn't aware up until last night. There is alot going through my mind right now. We weren't on good terms when he passed, but he was still someone who was my friend at some point. I made this post to update you guys on how I'm doing as a person, but I also wanted to make this post as a warning and a message towards those who think about ending their life.
To those who are struggling, please do not be afraid to reach out. You are loved by somebody around you. You live in their memories, you are a part of somebody, and even if you feel like you are alone, you aren't. Keep pushing forward. I know it can be hard, but think about who you leave behind, who you impact by taking your own life. Think about the life ahead of you. Living is never easy, but there will be something that is worth it in the end. I know this has been said a million times, but it's true. My ex will live in my memories forever. The pictures I have of me and him together now sit there as reminders of what the world lost. I may not have liked him, but he was my friend at some point. I feel odd. His death prevents me from getting closure on our relationship. I don’t think I ever will get closure. There's a part of me that feels guilty for not reaching out to him, that maybe I could've atleast said something before he ended it all. So think about how the people around you would feel if you did, think about everyone you have ever loved, and consider them. Remember who you had and who you have.
To the people, the family, the friends, the lovers hell just anyone, I beg of you reach out and check in on your loved ones. Be there. Be present. Not just physically, but emotionally as well. Let this post, if it ever comes your way, be a reminder to check in on who you love. I know it will be difficult and different for everyone, but just do it. It will make all the more of a difference if you do. You change people's lives by being there with them, always remember that.
Finally, remember that I love you all, remember that you are not alone in the journey you are facing. There is so much I want to say, but it is so hard to articulate into words. There is not one word that can describe how I feel right now, but I pray that none of you will ever get to feel this way. I love you all so very much, so please take care of yourselves.
