#twotimekin

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For the canon disabilities ask game!

As two time, i dealt with chronic pain every now and again, mainly in my wings and legs. I was also autistic and had some kind of psychosis thing (mainly religious psychosis, this is also what caused the Stabbing), which also came with an unhealthy amount of paranoia.

As 1x1x1x1, i had NPD and also dealt with chronic pain in my wings. I was also missing a pair of wings (was created with 2 pairs) because of Telamon ripping them off. I was also missing two of my horns because of him. I also couldn't see out of my right eye because of an accident that happened when i was young. I believe i also had some kind of condition that caused my feathers to grow in improperly? I think it might've also been related to the chronic pain somehow but i don't really remember.

I have more kintypes but i've been mostly thinking about these two recently so they're the only ones i'm talking about here.

— Two Time and 1x1x1x1, both from forsaken. #🪽⭐

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normally i'd post about this on main but my bestie who is also my moot kins azure and i don't want to make him uncomfy,,,

anyways. i haven't played my source in fucking forever but azure was just added to the game and of course i have to go See him because that's my partner. and. Oh my fucking god they're so pretty. Like. oh my god. HE'S SO FINE,,,

and like i already Knew he was pretty. like this is coming from the same creature who will pause and stare at anyone who's avatar is a cosplay of him for a solid 5 seconds minimum solely because i am so entranced by how pretty he is. but something about seeing them in game is hitting me different and turning me like 20 times more gay for them.

AND HIS FUCKING VOICE IS SO PRETTY TOO LIKE !!! OH MY GOD. I cannot overstate this he is so hot. The religious psychosis CANNOT have made me fumble this im going to SCREAM. I NEED HIM SO FUCKING BAD!!! azure PLEASEEEE take me back i'll be better this time i'll do anything PLEASE

— Two Time, from Forsaken

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(tw uh ritualistic murder? I guess?)

I never mentioned his sacrifice to the survivors. Not of my own will. I always carefully avoided it. When asked if I regretted anything I had done for the spawn, I physically couldn’t make myself say I didn’t regret his death - so I just said Not Most Of It. The only reason the other survivors found out at all was because the specter took over my body and forced me to admit it. I was inconsolable.

I refused to stab azure or even get close to them when they became a killer, I was so adamant about it that it took the specter taking over my body and forcing me to actually ‘participate’ for me to do anything other than hide in the corner of the map those rounds. (I was sobbing and loudly apologizing the entire time it controlled me. Usually I would say ‘I repent’, but I never said that to him. I just wailed and said ‘I’m sorry’.)

I felt horrible for regretting it. It was against everything I was raised to believe. That’s why I kept it secret for so long. Why I never talked about it. I remember the night before the sacrifice I was inconsolable in his arms because I knew what would happen. But I did regret it. And I was right to. I hate every single bastard who forced me into that position. Fuck the spawn.

in essence: I Would Not Fucking Do That Shit (aimed at a headcanon I saw that won’t stop bugging me)

— two time, forsaken

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No pain worse to the human ego than being bad. At playing yourself. In a video game.

- an unidentified two time

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The weekly Two Time guilt has hit today and it has hit hard.

May tomorrow be a better day...

-Two Time, Forsaken, #sunstruck

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once again complaining about portrayals of my canon. dear dc comics and all associated entities, just because gotham had a harbor and was on the water does not mean it was an island. where did you even get that idea. new jersey HAS coastlines that aren't islands.

-- #🔪🫁🪢, your unfriendly neighborhood two-face

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Being uncomfortable with doubles with this kin SPECIFICALLY is hell. Every time i see another me i get physically ill... I literally believe in multiverse theory too so its not like it doesn't feel like they can exist just that its. Weird 💔

I did have a pretty bad fear of being replaceable in my canon so that might be part of it. Like. Maybe whenever i see another two time some part of me unconsciously decides that their existence is trying to replace mine somehow??? Idk. Its weird. I hate this why cant i be okay with doubles like i am with all my other kins 💔💔💔

- Two Time, Forsaken. #💣💥

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I'm not good with words, or apologies. You know this better than anyone. But, i don't think anything could have ever made losing you worth it. You were the best partner i ever had. I regret what i did that day with my whole heart. I'd give anything to have even one more day with you.

Do you remember that night at the lake, before we told eachother of our feelings? When we looked up at the stars together? When you told me how much you loved me, but i was just a little too dense to realize what you really meant?

I miss that. I miss you. I know you'll never forgive me for what i did. I know you probably don't want to hear from me ever again. But please know that i'm sorry. I love you, Azure. I always will. I hope you're doing okay, wherever you are now. May the Spawn (or whatever deity you worship now, if any) light your path.

— Two Time, forsaken. #💣💥

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