what you want
summary: you and taeyong have been best friends since college, sharing your adult lives side by side—your flower shop, his branding firm, countless shared memories. but as you near your 30s, the yearning to become a mother grows unbearable. during a reunion trip to jeju island, a tipsy conversation turns into something tender, raw, and irreversible. what begins as comfort and shared vulnerability becomes something deeper—intimate confessions, unspoken love, and the beginning of a quiet forever.
pairing: bestfriend taeyong x fem!reader
genre: slow-burn, friends to lovers, emotional smut, soft romance, hurt/comfort, domestic fluff, eventual pregnancy.
warnings: breeding kink, unprotected sex (consensual, emotional context), impregnatio, pregnancy mention, emotional vulnerability, suggestive adult themes (18+), heavy romantic tension with soft resolution.
wc: 4,5K
notes: hi hiiii, okay so i've been dying to read smutty taeyong fics lately and it's been ALMOST impossible to find 😭 like 90% are mxm and there's barely any tae x reader content out there... if anyone has recs pls drop them in the comments ily. alsooo it's probably painfully obvious by now that i'm obsessed with the whole breeding kink + domestic fluff combo BYE that's literally my favorite thing ever 😩🫠💗
you’ve always been close to taeyong.
since college, really—when you met in that ridiculously stuffy marketing class during your second year. he was late that day, hair still damp from a rushed shower, a printed branding portfolio tucked under one arm, and somehow, he still managed to slide into the seat beside you with an easy smile and that soft voice.
you became inseparable after that. group projects, late-night convenience store runs, silent study sessions that turned into hours of talking about everything and nothing. you built a quiet rhythm with him, one that never required a label or explanation.
you opened your flower shop right after graduation. taeyong built his own creative agency, specializing in branding and design—sleek, intentional, always poetic in its aesthetic. you sent him flowers for his launch day; he designed the logo for your storefront for free. "it’s a gift," he said when you tried to pay him, his voice warm over the phone. "besides, i owe you for all the coffee you bought me during thesis week."
now in your late twenties, things feel stable. solid. your dreams are real. you run a blooming business. taeyong’s agency is doing well. life, on the surface, is soft and good. but there’s one thing that sits heavily in your chest.
you want a baby.
you’ve wanted one for years. even when you were young, you imagined yourself as a mother before anything else—before being a florist, a business owner, a woman navigating city streets with earbuds in and a tote bag full of errands. you crave that connection, the physicality of pregnancy, the quiet intimacy of raising someone who came from you.
but dating? nonexistent. your schedule is tight, your circle small, and the men you do meet are more interested in weekend flings than parenting plans. you’ve been obsessively reading about IVF, sperm donors, even traditional remedies your grandmother used to whisper about. you bring it up to taeyong one night, half-laughing as you scroll through forums.
“i don’t know what to do,” you admit, looking over the rim of your mug at him. “i’m not seeing anyone. i don’t want to wait until i’m forty. and i want to carry them. i want to feel them growing inside me.”
taeyong goes quiet.
he doesn’t have the answers, but he listens. tells you that you’d make an amazing mother. suggests maybe you could consider adoption, but you shake your head gently.
“i want to be pregnant,” you whisper. “i want them to be mine from the start.”
he nods.
he doesn’t push.
a few days later, he messages you.
taeyonggie👺 [11:13am]: remember our old classmates? they’re planning a reunion trip to jeju. want to go? they said you’re welcome too.
you hesitate, then say yes. maybe a change of scenery is what you need. something about the sea and the quiet and the way jeju always smells like citrus and wind.
you don’t expect to feel so at ease.
you arrive together, him beside you on the plane, headphones shared between you as you both doze off mid-flight. you’re staying at a cozy hotel not far from the beach—modern but warm, all wood accents and soft lighting.
there’s a mix-up at check-in.
“two rooms for y/n and taeyong?” the clerk asks.
“no, just one,” taeyong corrects, glancing at you. “two beds, please.”
you nod. it’s nothing new. you’ve stayed over at each other’s apartments before. this is the same. right?
your room has two full-size beds, a window view of the ocean, and barely enough space for both your suitcases. you joke about how you’ll end up tripping over each other, and taeyong just grins, tossing his duffel onto the bed by the wall.
the first two days are calm.
nakamoto yuta—now a travel content creator, all sun-kissed skin and open laughter—is the life of the group. seulgi, working as a creative director for a fashion label, is effortlessly elegant, always with a camera around her neck. also in the group: kwon eunbi, a vocal coach; hwang minhyun, managing a production company; kim seolhyun, running a podcast on pop culture; and kim hanbin, now a choreographer.
you spend your days exploring the island.
taeyong helps you pick tangerines from the orchard. you braid small wildflowers into your hair, and he snaps a photo when you’re not looking. he buys you honey ice cream and insists on carrying your bag when your shoulder starts to ache.
it feels like nothing’s changed.
but there’s a moment.
you’re inside the hotel lounge, grabbing drinks. yuta and taeyong sit near the back, shoulders low, conversation soft between them.
“you still in love with her?” yuta asks, voice easy but not teasing.
taeyong chokes on his drink. coughs. blushes.
“no,” he says, eyes flickering. “i mean, not anymore. that was...college. i’m over it.”
yuta raises a brow. “you sure?”
taeyong doesn’t answer right away. his fingers tap against the glass, slow. thoughtful.
“she wants a baby,” he says eventually. “that’s all she talks about now.”
“so give her one,” yuta shrugs.
taeyong laughs quietly. like it’s ridiculous. like it’s tempting.
he doesn’t bring it up again.
but something shifts.
you notice him watching you a little longer than usual when you laugh. his gaze lingers on the curve of your jaw, the line of your collarbone, the way you absentmindedly rest a hand over your stomach when you’re lost in thought.
you don’t say anything either.
you’re still just friends.
sharing a room.
sharing a life.
almost.
dinner that night is golden.
the kind that stretches out with laughter, grilled seafood, tangerine wine, and flickering lanterns strung up between pine trees. the restaurant is open-air, tucked near the cliffside with a view of the ocean glowing beneath the full moon.
everyone's a little tipsy by the time dessert comes around. yuta’s telling stories about backpacking in morocco and the time he accidentally ended up at a wedding. seulgi keeps taking pictures of everyone's reactions, cheeks flushed from wine. hanbin and seolhyun are arguing about the best era of k-pop choreography. eunbi sings a soft verse of something nostalgic, and minhyun smiles so softly you wonder if he's thinking of someone he left behind.
taeyong is beside you. always beside you. refilling your glass with something citrusy. resting his arm along the back of your chair. letting his knee bump into yours and not pulling away. the heat from him is steady. familiar. almost too much.
later, the drinks keep flowing back at the hotel. minhyun brings out a bottle of plum soju he brought from seoul, and that’s when it really starts. shots. dares. flushed cheeks and slurred memories.
you’re warm. glowing. a little too honest.
“i mean it,” you say, your voice low, shoulders loose as you sit with taeyong on the floor by the balcony door, away from the noise. “i think about it every night. sometimes i dream about it.”
he looks at you, gentle. “dream about what?”
you lean your head against the windowpane, watching the wind rustle the curtain.
“having a baby,” you murmur. “being pregnant. the little kicks. the soft cries. the weight of them on my chest. it’s so clear in my mind. like… i can almost feel it already.”
taeyong swallows.
you’re drunk. not sloppy, just vulnerable in a way you rarely let yourself be.
“i’ve tried not to obsess over it,” you continue, voice quieter now. “but it’s hard. i want it so much. and i know it’s selfish to want the whole experience—the belly, the pain, the birth. i just… i don’t want to feel like i missed it, like i missed the chance to be the kind of mother i’ve always seen myself becoming.”
taeyong doesn’t know what to say. you can feel it in the silence. his fingers curl slightly, brushing the edge of your sweater.
“you’d be such a good dad, you know,” you say suddenly, eyes half-lidded, smiling gently now as the alcohol softens your words. “like… annoyingly good.”
taeyong blinks.
“you’d be the kind that warms up the milk just right. that kisses tiny foreheads. that always carries extra snacks. that reads the bedtime story even when he’s tired. you'd probably cry when they take their first step.”
he laughs under his breath, a little shaky. your words are melting something in him.
“and your baby would have your eyes,” you add, like it’s nothing. “those pretty lashes. and maybe your laugh. and you’d panic the first time they got sick. and hold them all night until they stopped crying.”
he’s staring at you now. full-on. wide-eyed, a little undone.
“you’d be so gentle,” you whisper. “you already are.”
taeyong shifts. swallows again. his voice is rough when he finally speaks. “don’t say that.”
you tilt your head, confused. “why not? it’s true.”
“because,” he breathes, gaze flicking down to your lips for half a second before pulling back to the ceiling. “you’re drunk. and i’m trying really hard not to do something i’ll regret.”
you blink slowly, the alcohol making everything feel suspended.
you’re suddenly aware of how close you are. how intimate this has always been. not the words. not the night. just you and him.
taeyong stands. runs a hand through his hair, frustrated.
“i’m gonna get some water,” he mumbles, stepping away from the room.
you stay behind, heartbeat thudding, his warmth still lingering beside you.
you meant every word.
but you don’t know if he’ll ever believe that.
taeyong returns to the table with your glass of water clutched between his fingers like it’s something to hold himself together. his pulse is still uneven, the weight of your words clinging to him like sea salt in the air—soft but undeniable.
you’re laughing at something when he returns. yuta’s grinning, telling a story about a disastrous photoshoot in cambodia that involved a monkey, a drone, and his own foolish confidence. your cheeks are still flushed, but your expression dims a little when your eyes catch his, like you can feel the shift. like you remember what you said.
taeyong sets the glass in front of you gently, and you whisper a quiet “thanks” without looking up.
he doesn’t sit down again. instead, he hovers, letting the chatter of the group wash over him, standing on the edge of it all. seulgi pulls hanbin into a debate about concept staging in idol tours, seolhyun’s already half-asleep on the couch, and minhyun is texting someone with a small smile. the night has thinned out. the fire outside has died, leaving only the dim golden lights strung overhead and the soft hum of a playlist playing someone’s nostalgic mix of late 2010s ballads.
by the time the clock hits nearly two in the morning, someone mumbles about calling it a night.
you blink blearily, your words slurring just a bit now, your weight leaning more and more toward the backrest of the couch. taeyong’s already there before anyone else moves, slipping a hand beneath your elbow and helping you to your feet like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
“come on,” he says quietly, warm breath by your temple. “let’s get you to bed.”
you nod sleepily, your body soft, trusting. your fingers find the edge of his jacket sleeve as he steadies you, and he doesn’t pull away. the walk to the room is silent, the hallways dim and muffled. your steps are clumsy, and he catches you more than once, his hand curling around your waist like second nature.
inside the room, it’s dim and warm. the faint scent of saltwater and clean cotton lingers in the air from earlier. you collapse on the edge of the bed you claimed the night before, one of two queen mattresses sitting side by side with a single nightstand in between. the tension returns with the silence, thick and cloying. he walks to the dresser and grabs a bottle of water, offering it to you.
you drink half of it. then sit there. watching him.
he avoids your gaze at first. fiddles with the hem of his shirt. looks out the window like he might say something—then stops himself.
but you’re still drunk. and honest. and maybe a little bold in the way you never let yourself be.
“you know,” you start, voice quiet, “i wasn’t drunk when i said you’d make a good dad.”
taeyong turns slowly. you meet his eyes.
you swallow thickly, fingers wringing the edge of your pajama top. “i’ve thought about it before.”
he blinks, lips parting like he wants to ask but isn’t sure if he should.
you continue.
"not just in the abstract. not just... you as someone’s dad. but you as my—" you stop, heat blooming up your neck. you exhale. “sometimes, i think about what it’d be like if you were the one.”
he says nothing, but his expression crumbles—something tender and wounded flickering behind his eyes.
“i mean, we’ve been in each other’s lives forever,” you say, softer now. “we grew up together in every way that matters. you’ve seen me fail and get back up and fall apart again. you’ve never walked away. not once. not even when i was unbearable. i trust you with everything. i always have.”
taeyong doesn’t breathe.
you keep going.
“so yeah. i think about it sometimes. about what it’d be like to have your kid. to raise them with you. to wake up to you and a messy little human with sleepy eyes and your stupid laugh. and maybe i’m insane, maybe it’s just my hormones or my loneliness or whatever—but the thought doesn’t scare me. it grounds me.”
you laugh, a little bitterly, wiping at the corner of your eye. “and that’s the worst part. because i know you don’t see me that way. or if you did once, it’s long gone. and i shouldn’t be saying this—i know that. but there’s something about tonight that makes me feel like i’ll burst if i don’t.”
taeyong moves before you can finish.
quiet. careful.
he kneels in front of you. not touching you. not yet. just there, looking up at you like he’s memorizing every curve of your face.
his voice is raw.
“don’t say i don’t see you.”
you meet his eyes.
“i’ve always seen you.”
your breath hitches.
taeyong lets out a quiet, shaky laugh. “you talk about me being a dad like i wouldn’t spend every second wondering how the hell i got so lucky to build a life with you. like i haven’t already imagined it too. maybe not with words. maybe not out loud. but… i have.”
you whisper, “you have?”
he nods.
“every time you smile like that. every time you bring me coffee with your name scribbled next to mine. every time you hug me like home. yes. i have.”
you don’t move.
he reaches for your hand—slow, reverent, like he’s afraid you’ll disappear.
“but i never let myself say it,” he murmurs. “because i didn’t want to mess this up. not with us. not with you. and definitely not like this. but if i’m being honest… the thought of you carrying my child?” he swallows. “that doesn’t scare me either.”
the room is silent.
you stare at him, your fingers trembling in his grip.
you whisper, “then kiss me.”
he does.
not rushed. not heated.
just true.
the kind of kiss that feels like coming home after years of wandering.
like maybe—just maybe—you weren’t crazy after all.
the kiss deepens slowly.
taeyong’s hands are warm on your cheeks, cradling you like you’re the most precious thing he’s ever held. you melt under his touch, your fingers sliding up his neck, into his hair, pulling him closer, closer still—like you’re afraid he’ll vanish if you let go.
he’s the one who gasps first when your lips part just enough to whisper his name. it falls from your mouth like a secret you’ve kept buried for too long, and he swallows it whole.
he pulls back slightly, forehead resting against yours, his thumbs brushing over your flushed skin. you can feel his heart racing beneath his shirt.
“y/n…” his voice is hoarse. “are you sure?”
you nod, soft and breathless. “i’ve never been more sure.”
and there’s something in your voice—something so certain, so full of quiet longing—that makes taeyong inhale like he’s taking you in for the first time.
his lips find yours again, slower now, more deliberate. his touch trails from your face to your waist, pulling you gently into his lap, like he needs you close enough to feel everything—the way your body trembles against his, the way your thighs tighten around his hips, the way your breath stutters when his mouth moves down your neck.
he tastes your skin like a prayer, like something he’s dreamt about in the quiet hours of the night when your voice was the only thing that could calm him down.
you whisper into the space between kisses, into the curve of his jaw, “i want it to be you.”
his breath hitches.
“i want your baby,” you murmur, your hand pressing over his chest, right where his heart is pounding. “i want to carry your child. someone small and perfect and warm, someone who has your eyes… your smile.”
taeyong lets out the softest sound, almost like a whimper, and you feel his fingers tighten on your hips, his body tensing like he’s trying to hold himself back.
you lean into his ear and say it again—this time slower, your voice shaking. “i want your baby inside me, tae.”
his hands slide up your sides, under your shirt, reverent and gentle. “god,” he breathes. “you have no idea what that does to me.”
“tell me.”
he leans back just enough to look at you—really look at you. his pupils are blown wide, his cheeks flushed, lips swollen and parted.
“i think about it all the time,” he says, barely more than a whisper. “what you’d look like with my baby growing inside you. your belly round and soft, your body glowing. coming home to you with your shirt stretched over the bump, your hands cradling it like it’s the most natural thing in the world.”
he presses a kiss to your collarbone, then another, lower. “i want to see you like that. i want to wake up and run my hands over your belly, feel it kick. talk to it. kiss it.”
you whimper, your fingers knotting in his hair. “tae…”
his hands slip beneath the waistband of your shorts, thumbs brushing over your hipbones like they belong there. “i want to fill you up,” he murmurs, voice thick and trembling. “not just for tonight. not just for the fantasy. i want this to meansomething. it does mean something.”
you nod, cupping his face. “i know. it does to me too.”
he kisses you again, deeper now, one hand at the small of your back, guiding you down onto the mattress. the room is quiet, lit only by the moonlight spilling through the window, and everything feels soft. intimate. warm.
he undresses you slowly, carefully, as if every piece of clothing he removes reveals another piece of your heart. your legs wrap around his waist instinctively, pulling him closer until there’s no space between you, nothing but breath and bare skin and whispered names.
when he enters you, it’s slow and deep, like he’s savoring every inch, like he’s trying to memorize the way you feel wrapped around him. your back arches, and he moans into your neck, your name a broken sound on his lips.
you’re both trembling—emotion thick in your chests, tears brimming at the corners of your eyes. because it’s not just sex. not just lust. it’s home. it’s years of friendship and quiet yearning finally coming undone in the safest way possible.
taeyong presses a kiss to your temple and whispers, “you’re perfect. you’re mine.”
you cradle his face in your hands, smiling through the tears. “give me everything, tae. i want to feel you. all of you. i want to feel you stay.”
his rhythm falters, just for a second, overcome by the weight of it all. “i’ll give you everything. i’ll give you a family.”
you tighten around him at the words, gasping.
“i want to make you a mom,” he whispers. “tonight.”
you nod frantically, lips parting, “do it. please. i want to feel it—i want to feel you—when you fill me.”
taeyong groans, hips stuttering, burying his face in your neck. “fuck. y/n…”
you whisper, “put a baby in me, tae.”
he thrusts deeper, harder now, the restraint beginning to crumble. your bodies are slick with sweat, moving together with a kind of desperation that feels like both a beginning and a promise.
when he finishes—inside, just like you wanted—it’s with a gasp, his arms locked around you tight, like he’s scared to let go. and for a long moment, neither of you move.
“i want you full of me,” he says against your mouth, already hardening again. “i want to make sure.”
you nod, dazed. open. warm.
“don’t stop,” you whisper. “please don’t stop.”
and he doesn’t.
he makes love to you over and over again, slow and focused, like each time is another chance to seal your wish into reality. sometimes he holds your hips, watching your face as you fall apart for him. other times he lays you on your side, kissing your shoulder while whispering how beautiful you are, how perfect you’d be with his child inside you.
when dawn breaks, you’re tangled together in silence. your body aches, sweet and sated. your thighs sticky, your heart full. his hand rests on your stomach again, like he’s already waiting.
he is groaning your name, whispering over and over, “mine. you’re mine. our baby. our future.”
you’re crying. he is too.
and when the trembling stops and the world is still again, he kisses your lips, then your cheeks, then your stomach.
“i can’t wait to see you grow,” he whispers, resting his head just below your ribs.
you run your fingers through his hair, heart pounding.
you whisper back, “i hope it has your eyes.”
the sunlight pours through the thin curtains like a slow, golden confession. the air smells like salt and lemon shampoo. taeyong wakes up first this time, his arm heavy over your waist, your back pressed flush against his chest. sunlight filters through the cream-colored curtains, warming the bare skin of your shoulder.
it kisses your bare shoulder first, then the soft curve of your waist, then the scattered marks taeyong left across your chest like constellations only he could read.
you’re the first to stir, eyelids fluttering open to the unfamiliar ceiling of the hotel room. for a second, you forget where you are. but then you shift slightly and feel the weight of an arm draped across your stomach, the steady rise and fall of a chest pressed into your back, and the unmistakable warmth of taeyong’s body, still wrapped around you like a second skin.
his breath ghosts against your nape, slow and deep, and you realize he hasn’t let go of you all night. not once.
you smile.
when you turn your head just enough to see his face, it nearly knocks the air out of your lungs. he’s peaceful like this—softer, younger somehow. his lashes rest against his cheeks, and his mouth is parted slightly, lips still swollen from all the kisses you gave him. his hand, large and warm, is splayed gently across your lower belly, protective and possessive in the same breath.
you reach down and lace your fingers with his.
as if he feels it, he stirs, humming sleepily against your skin. his nose nuzzles into your shoulder. “mmm… morning,” he mumbles, voice thick and low, still soaked in sleep.
you twist around slowly in his hold so you’re facing him. he blinks a few times, eyes still heavy, but when they focus on you, they soften in that way they always have—like you’re the center of his world and he’s been waiting all night just to see you again.
“you stayed,” you whisper, thumb brushing his cheekbone.
he smiles lazily, eyes fluttering shut again. “of course i did. where else would i go?”
you tuck yourself into his chest, your nose against his collarbone. “you feel so warm…”
his arms tighten around you instantly, drawing you closer until there’s no space between you. “you kept me warm first,” he murmurs, and you can hear the smile in his voice. “i didn’t want to let go.”
you stay like that for a while. breathing together. existing.
and then you feel him shift, one hand still resting over your belly, thumb drawing lazy, absent-minded circles over the skin there. he hums, low in his throat. “do you think… do you think it worked?”
your breath catches.
you look up at him, searching his face. he’s watching you carefully now, no longer groggy, eyes wide open and impossibly tender.
“i don’t know,” you whisper. “maybe.”
he leans in, kisses your forehead. then your temple. then the spot just below your eye. “i kind of hope it did.”
you feel your throat tighten with emotion.
“you do?”
“mmhm,” he nods, nudging his nose against yours. “i kept thinking about it last night… the way you’d look months from now. the way i’d get to take care of you. rub your back. cook for you. kiss your belly every morning.”
you let out a small laugh, wiping at your eyes with the back of your hand.
“i’d be so annoying,” you murmur. “always crying. craving weird stuff. complaining about everything.”
he smiles, brushing your hair behind your ear. “you’d be perfect. i’d love you more every day. and our baby… our baby would be lucky.”
you bury your face in his chest, overwhelmed by the sweetness of it. the certainty.
he strokes your back gently. “and if it didn’t happen this time… we try again,” he says softly. “no rush. no pressure. just us. just love.”
you pull back, tearful and smiling all at once. “you want to try again already?”
he grins, lips brushing your cheek. “i want to make love to you every morning for the rest of my life. but yes… also for the baby.”
you laugh, breathless, and he kisses the sound right out of you.
his hands start to wander again—slow, exploring, remembering. he murmurs against your lips, “can i stay inside you today too? just like this… all day?”
you nod, whispering, “don’t leave me empty.”
and he doesn’t.
he makes love to you again—this time slow and languid, under the weight of sunlight and morning warmth. he kisses your face like you’re already glowing. like you’re already carrying a part of him.
when he comes again, deep inside you, he doesn’t look away. he holds you through it. kisses your tears. whispers your name like a promise.
afterward, he pulls the blanket over your bodies, still tangled. still joined. he keeps his hand on your belly, and you both stay quiet, smiling softly.
as if the future is already there.
