I don’t feel… valid… enough. I’m extremely comfortable in my fictotype, but I just don’t feel. Valid. I feel invalid for not having enough memories from during the timespan canon covers, I feel invalid for self-shipping with a sourcemate of mine even though it’s based on actual intimate experiences I had with them and remember. I feel invalid for relating to fanworks just as much as the original material. I’m 100% certain of my identity, but I still feel fake. Like I’m just doing it for fun, or online clout.
I feel like the bad-faith parody version of myself and I don’t know how to turn it off. I’m so tired. I feel like I’m crawling through molasses. I’m crying into the distance for help and nobody is answering. I’m so tired. I’m so tired of feeling like this.
— ULTRAKILL’s V1
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