Yessss my girl Vesper, alright this is from Up Down by Boy Epic
I'll be stuck chasing time, running all my life
Trying not to lose a fight, burning in my eyes
In a mad mad world, I'm falling in
Little lost to go, trying to start again
Alright so this is Vesper reflecting on how she’s trying to learn from her past mistakes and have a fresh start, but she feels stuck in the same patterns.
Tick tock don't stop
I'm breathing
All that I see is, up down, up down
And I'm barely breathing, but I follow, follow you down
I'm on my knees and spinning, up down, up down
Still fighting my demons, but I follow, follow you down
So Vesper’s reflecting on her feelings for Annie and how she’d follow her anywhere basically, but she’s also trying to heal from her traumatic past and her history of substance abuse. She’s a pretty confused mess at this point, but she’s will to give it a go if it means she gets to be with Annie.
Through the glass I lose myself, in the darkest deep
Time is just a memory, with its sun's on me
Oh, it's a mad mad world, I'm drowning in
Does anybody know, how to start again
Again, Vesper knows she’s often been defined by her past and she’s trying to work past that. She feels a bit lost and isn’t quite sure how to move forward without the past dragging her back, so she’s a bit like “shit where do I go from here”.