May 17, 2021
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Sunbathing clerk.
My favorite portraits are the ones where I feel that I captured the person in an authentic moment, when I look at all those photographs I realize that I’m just trying to find myself in them, trying to look for the humanity in people, we all feel happy, sad, angry, we all can at least find one thing in the other person that we can relate. We are mirrors of each other and sometimes we don’t like what we see in the mirror, sometimes we love what we see, those qualities we see in other we have it too. And this quote that I just read explains it so well:
“Now you look into the eyes of another being, and you see another being just like you looking back at you. Are you in there? Far out! I’m in here. How did you get into that one? And what you see at that moment is another awareness just like you, but packaged differently. In Christianity it’s called the soul; the eyes are the windows to the soul—so you see another soul just like you, but who is having an entirely different set of life experiences because they’re packaged differently.“
~Ram Dass
I think that we have made wanting to look back, look bad. I often hear people say “stay present”, “don’t focus on the past”. And I guess they mean don’t look back at bad times that are gone, but we don’t talk enough about how beautiful is to remember the good times, going back to a time in our memory where we were happy. Being “nostalgic” can have sometimes a bad connotation because we maybe get sad that some people are gone or because we wish we could go back... But I think that nostalgia can be a beautiful feeling, is all matter of perspective. Instead of being sad because something is gone, I’m happy that I lived it.
Looking back at good times makes me happy, looking at old photographs of my favorite moments fills me with joy, my soul is happy and makes everything that is botherig in the present less meaningful, it makes me feel grattitude and makes the strugggles of daily life worth it. Life can be really hard sometimes and I need a reminder of the good times to feel better again, to be reminded of how beautiful life can be. y is why I make sure to document all the happy moments. I keep my favorite photographs and I look at them when life gets tough, so I can keep moving forward.
ahhh your tattoo sounds so cool! im dying to get an f1 tattoo but idk what to get. do you have any other f1 themed ones?
Omg thank you!!!! If I was less of a coward ((and perhaps one day I will be)), I’d post pictures on here! But alas, my tattoos are really really recognizable, so I must be secretive 😭
I’m toying with a Seb tattoo, actually. In the beginning, I wanted to find a way to get “I don’t apologize for winning”, but it was too long to really put anywhere. So now I’m planning to get “sunshine” above my left knee.
Originally, I liked a blend of these font styles:
But increasingly, I’m drawn towards that sort of cyber cigilism/black metal font, like this:
Which would be fun, because then I could do “sunshine” on one leg and “IDAFW” on the other. A bit of a “if you know you know” vibe?
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TALK TO ME ABOUT TATTOOS I LOVE TATTOOS I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM
I’m gonna keep doing encounters here while I’m still in the car since I can’t take photos or progress in the game right now, may as well right!!
oh, man. so I just had a weird thought. if it’s true that the Sons of Feanor named Elrond and Elros, what if... okay, hear me out. my route for Erestor is that he’s a cousin of Elrond and a peredhel. that’s one of the theories of his backstory and I liked it so I’m running with it. I’m still super vague about how old he is and when he was born because I literally still haven’t made up my mind. so this is all speculation right now, but if he was the around the same age as Elrond and Elros, I could theorize that he also was found in the cave and was also named by the Sons of Feanor.
see, I’m still struggling with explaining his name because it loosely translates to “lonely brother”. but we know nothing about him pretty much. why is he such a lonely brother that that is literally his name? at one point, my understanding is that, in the early drafts Tolkien had made Erestor a peredhel and even a member of the Fellowship of the Ring (someone give this AU/verse!!) and so from this, there has been speculation that Erestor was intended to be a brother of Elrond. but if that’s true, no notion of it remains in any existing works or drafts. now I’ve decided I’m definitely running with Erestor as a cousin, not a brother. I’m open to it as an AU, but not for my default.
but that doesn’t mean that an entirely different and interesting concept can’t crop up. what if a) Erestor was the one charged with hiding Elrond and Elros in the cave? or b) what if he was around the same age and hidden with them? either way, if Erestor was found in the cave with the twins, he could have been named by the Feanorians in similar fashion to the twins. the term “lonely brother” could come from the fact that he was with the twins, and even related to the twins, but not actually a brother to them so I could see him being off by himself. and it might make sense for the Sons of Feanor to think, at first, that Erestor was a third brother. the more I think, the more I like.
that would make three children found by the Feanorians that day: Elrond, Elros, and Erestor.
So I’m almost completely out of fan fiction I might start writing my own stuff and putting it on ao3
i changed my dp to me for now uvu