I’m 33 weeks pregnant and 5”0just let that sink in. I can’t see my feet or my legs. It’s been an overwhelming pregnancy. My mom wasn’t exactly thrilled at first when we told her the news. In fact she really didn’t want to have much to do with us. It hurt. But I think I was more focused on fixing my relationship.
I don’t know how most men act when they find out that their fiances are pregnant but mine was in shock to say the least. I didn’t feel like he was interested or really hit reality until he saw her and heard her heart beat at the doctors.
For a while he would stay at the office pretty late and I would be home waiting for him. Most nights I was asleep by the time he came home. I felt so alone. Almost like a terrible person for carrying this baby who I was so excited to have been blessed with. I looked literally on every military spouse website I could find to see if I was really alone and figure out how to cope with his distant ness and my loneliness.
It got better. We grew stronger. Together.
When she started moving for the first time I think I cried. I had no idea how wonderful and attached I would feel towards our baby. Now she kicks my ribs and stretches her little heels and knees until you literally can see and feel them.
Between acid reflux, leg cramping, low iron, and having to pee every five minutes I’m feeling a little overwhelmed. She’s so close to being here and I’m ready to meet her and I’m ready for her to meet her daddy!! I talk to her and let her know all about her daddy. How he is a good man, how proud I am of him, and how excited he is to meet her.
Daddy talks to her too. And I think she likes the sound of his voice because she kicks me and moves every time he talks to her and I. He loves to feel her kicking and moving.
I think the one thing I am blessed with and will never take for granted is having my man right here beside me throughout this entire pregnancy. I know there are so many out there who don’t have that blessing. So many military spouses who’s husbands, fiances, or boyfriends who are deployed or living in another state. I admire you. You are staying strong and you are doing it even without them there. And for that I do not have much I can complain about. I do not have that right. Stay strong.