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[ironessa]

What kind of holiday would it be if we hadn’t spent it with people who matter? Thank you, sis @elkarequinta, for being persistent that we should get together before 2019. Thank you, #FAG6, for always being part of my every year. 😘 . 📸 12.28.2018 . #FAG6forever #USTJRN #USTAB #adultinglikeaPRO (at Bondi&Bourke Bonifacio Global City) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bsv1XK-Fcyd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2brkmfhkth6j

[ironessa]

#FAG6Forever ❤️💛💚💚💜 #Fag6 #bestof2017 #adultinglikeaPRO #findingtime #makingtime #takingtime #togetherness #USTJRN #USTAB (at Icon Residences)

[kadalasanminsan]

031513: "Two out of three ain't bad."

In a span of two days, I ran on four hours of sleep. And maybe some little naps in my short commutes. Last night was the party of 2013! My class celebrated our christmas/graduation party at Scool Bar in Malate and I had a blast. It feels good to see the boys and girls I spent my four years of JRN with very out and about! Haha! Alam na! What happens in Scool, stays in Scool. ;) I drank a good amount but wasn’t enough to make me crazy. I think I was one of the few na may ulirat pa, and I could remember EVERYTHING from last night. And frankly, that’s the worst part from that party. I can remember EVERYTHING. It was fun while it lasted, but when people kept asking each other “Okay ka lang?”, boy, was it different. Anyway, so much for that. I went home at around 2 a.m. when my dad picked us up from the place. Safely returned ate Ria and Jam to their houses first, though. Had a good talk with my dad after, regarding family conerns and how we are slowly losing precious sleep. Kahit kanya-kanyang battles, wala namang iwanan sa family namin. I had to wake up at around 6 a.m. for another job opportunity. I was really in zombie mode, with aching feet from heels and a half-sober brain. Arrived pretty early for a 9:30 a.m. calltime. The tests weren’t really what I expected. I think I died a little in that workplace. I worked on three tests for a total of four hours, without internet, just purely raw files and my dysfunctional brain and what I learned from four years of Journalism in UST. Four hours without standin up, stretching or eating. One time, I had to watch a Pope John Paul II documentary and di lang akk nagpapahalata sa ibang employees dun na naluluha na ako sa ganda nung documentary, hahaha! Seriously. I finished at 2 p.m., had yucky lunch and went home after. Bought myself a reward though. For being a bad-ass zombie for two days. Anyway, I think I did my tests iustice. It’s 2/3 now. It’s my plan B but if it’s Thy will. :) Plan A will be in motion tomorrow! I’m just tired. Can’t help but to think that it’s just really time to fucking move on. Not just for me, I mean. I’m sure I am not the only one. Yup, I said it. Time to move on, kasi wala nang ibang pupuntahan kundi yun. After graduation is a brand-spanking-new chapter of life that smells of fresh books and parchment. But you know, sometimes we just can’t help but to peek at the highlighted parts of old and rotting books. Don’t misunderstand, I LOVED the party last night but just like everything we love and have loved, we move on. Somewhere, somehow. Basta.

[kadalasanminsan]

Death by thesis defense.

Tomorrow, it is. O, defensa!

[kadalasanminsan]

021413: "For you, a thousand times over."

Here's a late Valentine post that's just always with me.

S:

Kung ngayong ganito yung edad ko sana tayo nagkakilala, okay ang lahat. I mean, baka natuloy, baka mas pwede mo rin akong magustuhan. Baka mas pwede mo na akong magustuhan. Kung ngayon sana kita nakilala, baka mas swak sa timing, baka mas posible yung tayo.

Pero kung ngayon lang kita nakilala, baka mas lalong hindi naman magkakaroon. Atsaka parang ayaw ko naman kung ngayon lang. Edi mas lalo kitang hindi kilala, baka nga hindi talaga kita kilala at all. Baka mas marami pa ang mas nakakakilala sa iyo. Ayaw ko yun.

Hindi ko alam kung ano yung pagmamahal that time, so hindi ko alam kung mahal kita o na-infatuate lang ako. Pero ngayong malaki na ako, alam kong minahal pala talaga kita. At sigurado akong minahal mo rin ako.

Pero itong atin kasi higit yata sa pagkakaibigan, pero hindi aabot sa seryosohan. And pinagkaiba nga lang sa mga kwentong ganito, yung atin, okay na sa akin at sa iyo na hanggang ganito lang. :)

Ito yun eh. Ito lang talaga. Akalain ko ba naman na posible palang okay lang sa akin na ganito. 

Ang dami kong natutunan sa iyo at sana alam mo yun. I'd still look at you the same way I looked at you when I was a lot younger.

You told me the last time we met, "Dalagang dalaga ka na ah." I really am now. How I wish I was this way when we first met but I won't regret a single thing.

It's a gift to know you especially when meeting you was my original plan. I love you, man. You have taught me a lot, and I am growing up well. :)

N:

To my one great love, I miss you and how you made me feel. It's probably my 323874th time talking about you on my blog but hey, you're more than words to me.

I don't know who you are, what you do, how you are anymore and how I wish you didn't slip away from me. You could have been honest with me, it would've hurt less but we can't do anything about that now, really.

I practically spent my teenage years, waiting on you. That maybe you're the "teenage love" type of a person I can be with. You're my first love and sometimes you loved me back. Tapos eto ngayon, mag-isa pa rin ako.

Sayo ko lang napatunayan na nagbabago pala talaga ang mga tao sa isang iglap lang. Yung totoo, ano nga bang nangyari sa atin? We barely talk anymore. We barely know each other. 

Usually hindi ako nakakatapos magsulat tungkol sa iyo ng hindi umiiyak, pero ngayon hindi na masakit. Ang tagal kong nag-move on sa iyo. Sana hindi mo na lang ako pinaghintay.

Alam naman ng lahat eh, baka tayong dalawa na lang ang hindi.

I'm keeping the promise that I will write for you someday, kahit ikaw lang ang makakita.

Sabi nila 'frist love never dies,' baka nga. Pero yung tao, ikaw, matagal nang parang patay.

I don't think I can ever forget you, and it's okay because I refuse to.

C:

You. How do I even begin? Ikaw yung sobrang nagpakilig sa akin nung akala kong hindi na ako marunong. Sobrang saya ko na nakilala pa kita kahit sa umpisa parang ang imposible.

I am going to miss you, your eyes, your mannerisms and your voice. How we're awkward, how we're always having chance meetings, how you exactly looked when I met you. I'm going to miss how you act like a kid.

I am going to remember you like that September afternoon and each day we met after that.

Thanks for making me happy, trust me that I will never forget you and the things you made me feel.

Any girl would be lucky to have you, I am too, just knowing you.

I am so, so proud of you. :)

-These are my stories. I know it's way past Valentine's day but these stay with me forever. Some people aren't made for us to be with but that doesn't mean we can't love them, and they can't love us back (even for just a while.) Baka binibigay lang sila sa atin sa maikling panahon para mapaghandaan natin yung susunod na darating. At baka binibigay sila sa atin para kung mawala sila, matuto tayong mag-move on, kasi kaya talaga natin. Kakayanin natin.

Happy Valentine's sa lahat! Anomang estado ng puso mo, kaya mo yan. :)