#utmvfictive

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my favorite food is apples and i feel like its ironic

- nightmare sans, fictive

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I know to portray me as kind is an outlier. I know my self beyond the apple is generally considered to be seperate. But that is ME. I am not like some of the others in our collective, who love the idea of the death of the old and them holding the blade, or something to that extent. That is not the case with me and it is worse and worse for me to see the ways others portray me. That was me. That was ME. I refused to tell Dream anything of what was happening. I used my own body as just a way to keep those demons away from our mother, even if it was a hell of its own to deal with, one I refuse to remember. I snapped and ate the apple. Dream couldn't refuse them, and I hated it. They stormed the tree, our mother, and I chose to eat my own apple, to let my own abilities near drown me just so I could drown them too. It was my choice, it was my hell, and I lasted beyond them. I hate remembering them at all. It took years for me to allow any of my followers to lay a finger on my desktop, much less my arms upon it. They softened me, working their way in to show me my first actual kindness. How dare you say I would hurt them. I know for some it was the case and I'm so horribly sorry, I wish you the best, you deserve that and so much more. But seeing those depictions of me makes me want to rip myself apart. I killed my own mother, nearly my own brother, in my own hate and rage. I couldnt even bear the thought of laying a finger on my loves. Not when my touch felt as though it could bring ruin to anyone I cared for - Nyx (Please tag as Nightmare Sans fictive. Thank you for your service MPC, #🔮🎭)

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it wasn't me it wasn't me it wasn't me IT WASNT ME IT WASNT ME

THAT THING ISNT ME. ITS NOT ME. I PROMISE ITS NOT ME ITLL NEVER BE ME ITS PRETENDING LYING TO YOU IM SORRY BROTHER ITS NOT ME IM SO SO SORRY

please I'm so sorry it's not me I never wanted to hurt you I never would you know I'd never hurt you right? you know? right?

-night, (nightmare, though that name was stolen from me) utmv fictive. (#starcrossed)

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its so hard to be okay with myself. i want to be happy, comfortable, but therein lies the problem, doesnt it? how can i be okay with myself if no one, not even me, values being miserable? no matter what i do, i lose; i can say i enjoy being in pain but that only makes that pain valuable by saying its actually pleasure, i can strive towards self-acceptance but thats the same as saying theres nothing valuable about me at all.

even the people who claim to value me only do so because negativity only exists to make positivity more meaningful. i only exist to make him look better, dont i?

i was doomed from the start - even the act of wanting to be valued in and of itself is another way of saying i am worthless

-nightmare sans fictive, utmv

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canon alignment ask game!

i'm gonna do it for our most frequent fronters and then i will force them assign alignment to me as well.

hazbin hotel lucifer - that guy is chaotic good for sure. unpredictable and well-meaning. wants to do the right thing. pats him on the head and gives him a rubber ducky (he's older than me by several millennia). (his subsystem consists of neutral evil, lawful good and chaotic neutral fragments of him. this guy has range)

jax tadc - ohhh this guy is like. between chaotic neutral and chaotic evil (though closer to neutral). just look at him. fall for his evil manipulator persona pretty please. trust that's all he is.

killer sans - hmmm. he's somewhat canon divergent, but i think he's more chaotic evil than anything? (his boyfriend is nodding. alright). the boyfriend in question is dust sans who is neutral evil.

and finally, me. siffrin. i'm neutral good. idk what else to say, everyone else is suddenly refusing to help me out so i guess i'm leaving it at that. jax is making fun of me right now. finishing the submission for sure this time because i need to dunk him into the sea.

- siffrin (isat), jax (tadc), lucifer (hazbin hotel), killer sans (utmv), dust sans (utmv). all of us are fictives

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wish i could read fic of myself, but my canon was its whole own au and the only way ill find anything like it is by writing it myself. the closest thing is xtale, but my universe was much closer to normal and our gaster wasn't neurotic.

that being said, there is a sort of kinship there. yeah you aren't MY sans, and you have your own chara haunting your bony ass, but you're similar enough that i cant help caring. and while im about you guys, yeah nightmare isn't generally cast as a caring figure, but he was in my memories, i know from a distance, and the nightmare in our system now is.

its nice to be cared for. is this how you felt? i kinda wish we could've met you properly, but i know we avoided you all on purpose.

so to whatever xtale sans or chara is reading this. or hell, any of the "bad sanses" (what a ridiculous name) from a line where nighty was like ours (or hell. Especially if he isn't) i hope you're doing well. keep on being the bunch of hilarious and probably dangerous fools you were - lycorine, a chara dreemurr fictive #🔮🎭

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me and my bro are package deal. do not separate. we were together since he was created and we will stay together until one of us dies. codependent much? yup. probably. but that's just because my bro is so cool. i know he's here in this brain somewhere. i wish i could actually talk to him though instead of just a vague knowledge that he's here. i miss him. oh to be carried by paps again........................................ it was snowing outside recently. maybe i should make a snowskeleton that looks like him. it will most likely end up like a snow lump, but it's the thought that counts, right? heh

- sans (fictive, #🧷☢️)

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this world is not where I belong. it's not where I'm meant to be. I feel it. every time I see or hear anything related to Undertale, my soul aches with longing. i could never do the geno route, because i felt like I was killing my friends and family. I cried so hard the one time I tried that I had to shut down the game. I need to go back. I'd do anything to be back there again. I hope reincarnation is as real as I think, because it might be my only chance of returning. I miss everyone so bad. as Chara, i miss my brother(azzy), my mom(Tori), my dad(asgore), everyone in the Underground. as frisk, i can't just name a few that I miss, but Asriel/Flowey, Toriel and sans are definitely some of the ones I miss the most. sans you were a great dad please come father me again thank you <3

- Chara Dreemurr/Frisk Dreemurr-Serif, both fictives (#starcrossed)

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