#venitng

[zillyart32]

Nothing is real nothing matters i could do anything i choose and it wouldn't really matter because everything is fake we're all temporary why do i subject myself to an endless loop of the mundane WHY WHY WHY WHY, GOD I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[catherinekal]

Just need to vent about something.

So one of my coworkers is a trans woman, in her 40's, and I have to be her emotional support pillar all the time there. Which would be fine but it just doesn't stop. I want to be there and help her, but day after day for a couple years of just the same kind of stuff happening, it gets so draining. She got a GF months ago and for a while things were going ok, but they broke up. Essentially my coworker is not poly but her, now ex, GF is and I just knew this was going to happen. She did try to pursue other people to get into the poly spirit but it didn't work well. Last night she laid it out that she can't do poly stuff and was broken up with. and it's frustrating because no one did anything wrong here, but she's in so much pain and I don't know what to do. Her ex is a puppy girl trans woman who wants that big polycule where everyone plays games and cuddles and fucks all the time. My coworker just wants 1 person to love and be loved by. She can't emotionally handle her GF loving someone else romantically. They aren't compatible here and she gets in her own head and plays the worst case scenario and things implode. It's taxing to come into work and deal with crying and spiraling and non stop doom and gloom and any attempt at giving advice is met with being told it's impossible, nothing will help. I'm not a professional and dealing with someone's emotional issues most of the days at work really wear you the fuck down.

Then if work gets stressful on top of this then she gets angry and yells at anyone, especially me because she's just overwhelmed and frustrated. It's not fucking cool.

I want her to be ok and I hope she can find someone, but there's just so much personal work she needs to do on herself that she just simply doesn't do. If she had others to rely on it would be easier but at work it's just me.

[hel7l7]

YOU DIDN’T EVEN FIGHT FOR ME. 

[sorasorakodoku]

Why am I always on someone's clock but when i need someone or something it's you're working on my time. So i have adjust my attention for when you're ready for it? But people don't want to match that same energy. I'm suppose just jump when you need me to. People are delusional. lol

[dantexxorihara]

I don't get it how am I privileged or lucky because I didn't have kids I couldn't afford. lol

[feminism-is-a-mess-blog]

My dysphoria hasn’t been bad for a while but right now it’s horrible.

[bitterpoptart]

liking multiple people at once feels weird a nd wrong but i know it’s not necessarily wrong is i disregard my religious beliefs but it feels weird but also nice but also sad ya feel

probably not

[theoldcoffeetragedy]

i feel like punching something

and yelling

and breaking everything ugh ugh ugh