#vent!

[frauverbolten]

it's all "love the unloved!!!!" animals until it's wasps until it's hornets until it's centipedes until it's roaches until it's old world monkeys until it's chimpanzees until it's hippos until it's dolphins until it's cassowaries until it's peacocks until it's swans until it's animals you think are "scary" and "mean" and "evil"

[moxieisdumb]

VENT! Please dni if you feel like you have to tease this, you are your own person and can make your own decisions so I don’t want any hate comments or anyone complaining about how I am just dumb or smth.

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Hello everyone.. my mental health has been decreasing at a alarming rate and in very good chunks, my depression is slowly taking over and I’m not taking showers, getting out of bed, doing activities/chores, and etc. I feel like I need to bring myself back to depression rehab or something like that since I am feeling very very su!c!d@l and my irl friends are ignoring me, except a few that are real friends. My mom is just annoying me by being to teasing, there is a limit. Which I have a big interest in bugs, parasites, nature, space, and more. But lately most of my friends have been ignoring everything I talk about and when I try to talk about my interest to them they walk away. Once it got to the point where a girl in the friend group cussed me out and pushed me, making me fall to the ground. I haven’t been having such a good life and the only thing keeping me alive right now is my main two friends and some of my online friends that I love more than anything. I don’t like talking about my feelings since I always have that nagging feeling that I am a attention seeker or something. Also, once I was hanging out with my friends over my summer break and one was making r@p3 jokes which I dislike (the person isn’t my friend anymore) but I confronted them then everyone else including them started cussing me out, calling me ‘worthless,’ and other things that I cannot say for reasons. But then one accused me of making those foul jokes also, which of course I got defensive since I didn’t make those jokes and they just kept pressing things further, calling me SLURS and names. I eventually later that day cried which is valid. But ever since my life has downfalls a lot and my mental health has been just lowering and my self esteem, etc., but it’s so bad to the point where I want to KMS. I hope you all understand that I am not seeking attention and just dumping my feelings out. Please understand. Goodbye, everyone.

[twtysevapr]

Okay, I get super anxious after posting my art so it might be a short vent? Feel free to scroll past!

Lately I’ve been feeling like my existence has bothered everyone around me, I know it’s just a phase and I will get through it but damn WHEN

I’m fear that I might make anyone feel annoyed or uncomfortable with me or my post so much and it starts to make me feel bad to post or interact with people

Everyone here is so kind and very sweet to me but I can’t stop myself from overthinking :( I don’t want to feel hesitant about interacting with mutuals or people who are really kind to me but I’m scared to make you guys uncomfortable so so much

[ghostlychaosfoil]

i miss him so much

[m--rtyr]

Life sucks bc how is anyone meant to see me and take me seriously when I tell them my name is Evan lol

[bolszaja-miedwedica]

sorry mom I didn't know i had to ask for permission to use my own wine and vodka that i paid for with my own money to make offerings for my deities sorry I didn't know i had to ask for permission in my own fuckin house o m g stop acting like im stabbing you in the heart whenever i set boundaries and now she gets mad at me and will ignore me passive aggressively for hours again cool cool SCREAMING INTO THE PILLOW GRITTING MY TEETH HIDING THE URGE TO SAY GO FUCK YPURSELF LEAVE ME ALONE GOD DAMN

[vivinomi]

Vent!

Idk why but lately I've been feeling burnout and kinda depressed (?) I have a lot of tests and assignments need to be finished which make me rarely have time to write.

Not to mention I'm kinda feel insecure about my writing. I just keep deleting and rewriting some wip just to make it looks good. I know i shouldn't compare myself to others but insecurities get the best of me.

I also got a lot of harassment and threat from some weirdos and they even called me a r#pist or a p#do just because i like naoya

And i feel sad that i still can't open up to people like my friends and classmates. I still can't make small talk or have a conversation with them. I miss my high school friends :( i miss them sm.

I feel slightly jealous that most of people my age already have a part-time job, having a driver license, having a friend group, pursuing their dream, have interesting hobby and enjoying their youth. While me, I still rot in bed, daydreaming a lot. I feel so useless and pathetic.

But i shouldn't compare myself to others because they too have a lot of problems.

Sorry for the long rant. I just want to let it out. I promise i will be back and continue writing. I hope my passion for writing hasn't die yet!