#vent junk

[lucksunkpunk]

every day every night

walls have eyes, 

somebody behind me someone is lying

living life 

filled with fear

i feel them scheming,leering, far and near

everywhere i go

everywhere i was

am and never been

they follow

no matter, what i feel their eyes

gawking at me

they won’t leave me alone

always watching me

[heckingheckheckheck]

sucks that my art isn't good enough

tired of working doing bullshit for other people

just wanna draw but can't even manage that

don't wanna be exhausted like this anymore

[jusadode-blog]

Out of everything about being trans that sucks, the lost years are always the worst. The friends you lose as puberty tears you apart, the lovers who you couldn’t reach out to, and just all the experiences you wanted to have growing up that you just don’t get a second shot at when you become an adult.

You realize how little time there was for everything, and see the timer clicking away at your current situation and you still can’t do most of the things you want to do, and it hurts so much more than before because even though you now know who you are the frustration with knowing what possibilities lie out there and knowing they’re just out of reach will cut away at you.

I wanted to be a boyscout, wanted to go into the woods and earn badges for starting fires and shit, wanted to make a Friday the Thirteenth joke at camp since I was born on the day. For fucks sakes, I could have earned the nickname Jason and wore hokey masks every Halloween. I wanted to take karate, and I could have earned a belt to wear like a headband during my hardcore Naruto phase. My life wouldn’t be perfect, but at least I’d be happy.

Instead though, I’m sitting here dreaming of a life I never got still waiting for the day for my life to fucking start.

[heckingheckheckheck]

would you eat me if you had teeth sharp as tiny shining daggers 

would you rip flesh from bone and shatter ribs and wrench my innards out till they fell warm to the floor 

would you hurt me so that the scars bled sluggishly trailing red down my abdomen and legs for the rest of my days and nights 

would you blame me if I told you I’d do the same to you

[goatpilk]

ughhhhh

[skull-brains]

I feel so sick

I'm tryng my best to be independent being all "I don't need no man/woman" but it keeps happening all around me

I guess I'm intimidating and/or gross looking 

I mean I've even seen the most awkward people get a boyfriend what how

[gilfaethwy]

Being a dick to someone that doesn't know something that you spend a good portion of your day thinking about doesn't help anyone

Properly educating people does

Calling someone a racist for using what isn't yet even commonly known as a slur is not going to help people adjust their behavior

Yes, by all means let them know but holy sweet jesus if they say"I don't understand, this is the actual name of the thing in question...?" don't get all passive aggressive and pissy with them

Wow, they don't genuinely know something? How dare they. They don't automatically agree with someone being mad at them online, where people constantly throw opinions and fake facts around like cheap posthalloween candy? Unheard of, let's never question anything again because you can't be confused when someone doesn't like something you do, you just have to be extremely sorry for it and move on.

Stop attacking people start being smart about things holy shit I am so done with this god damn site right now

[heckadai]

you can't lose with canti doodles