#venting kinda

[p2w-sys]

Being a system is being uncomfortable being you, because "what if I'm faking".

i am me, but, it feels wrong to be *me*. i know we shouldn't separate ourselves more, but hiding doesn't help either.

it's worse because i have a collective identity where we are just a dude. And I'm not that, nowhere close. But it feels wrong to deny it, to deny relationships, emotions that are what we should feel.

It's. we always feel forced to act or behave a way. our "normal free behaviour" is just, autopilot. really. we are dissociated to the point that nothing Will ever make us be together as i want it to be.

[emoquack]

having a social battery that drains quickly is so embarrassing because why am i getting physically nauseous over the idea of consistently talking to my friends whom i objectively love very much

[nuaaaages]

I was feeling anxious tonight and usually I can distract myself by doomscrolling or watching yt videos but today it wasn't working at all and I just kept spiralling and overthinking.

Decided to open my drafts and write and it helped and now I'm better. I know I've been saying a lot how much fun I've had writing my fic but it actually reminded me how much I love to write. I used to write a lot when I was a teenager and then I stopped for some reasons and forgot how much I love it. Like, I hadn't written a word for years but now that I've started again (albeit in english when before it was in french), I can't stop. And I'm just so so happy to rediscover something I love like that.

Even if it through smutty Jovier fics lol. Writing is writing....

[badasslittlepunkrockdyke]

anyone else feel like theyre giving up on their dreams before theyve even fully dreamt them

[waywardsou2]

I want to preface this by saying I am trans. Female to Male

Now I love a trans head canon as much as the next person but I kinda feel like everyone in the Arcane fandom is going a bit overboard.

I kinda feel like a dick saying this but I don't think anyone's going to see it so I don't really care

I see so many art and fics where Viktor is trans and he almost always has a pussy. Like I get it not all trans guys are the same, some guys take T and they don't get a T-dick. Some guys don't get bottom surgery. I get it, I'm not saying that. What I'm saying is I'd like a little more diversity. Give me trans Viktor with a dick, full on bottom surgery. Give my Viktor with a T-dick. Just something

Because at this point it feels like fetishization, y'all just want a boy with a pussy and I'm kinda over it

Am I an asshole for complaining? Probably

Do I care? Not really

[misteria247]

I usually don't get serious on here much less political but like everyday I see the news with our supposed president and see all the bullshit he and Musk are doing and how they're literally on the fast rails to repeating history and it legitimately fucking terrifies me. Like this shit is scary, witnessing it and seeing it and feeling this overwhelming sense of dread.

Just.......

Jesus tap dancing Christ.

[pageofheartdj]

Idk why people have to complain that others like different things, or the same things but in a different way, or are simply not skilled enough to portray it properly. Especially when there are plenty of the thing that they like instead, like why.

[florashifting]

I feel like I think that I'm pretty. But no one else would think I'm pretty. Does that make sense?