#voice experience

[mitamicah]

Tiny rant under the line

My sister decided to gift me a bit of a less fortunate gift today by laughing at my singing voice during singing around the christmas tree (if you are confused: it is a danish thing 😆😅) and then saying my voice just sounded so "unnatural" right after.

This isnt the first time she's done this: the first year I was out (2022) she did the same but that was before I had started testosterone so I manually tried to lower my voice unlike now where it should've gotten deeper and so more natural sounding in the lower register by itself.

And the latter fact is probably what hurts the most.

The thing is that just about a week ago I saw the results of my most recent blood sample and my testosterone levels are on the way down. I already felt insecure about my facial hair seeming to stop growing but now I feel afraid it might have gotten thinner and starting to dissapear together with experiencing other mental and physical symptoms of demasculinisation of my body that may or may not be placebo.

So the one thing I could count on to at least not change was the voice. Aka the one thing my sister commented on.

Ngl my dysphoria has had a field day since I saw the blood test and after today it is very much back to almost the 'let us forget mirrors excists' era so I am not doing great 🙃

[micahthemoon]

September 23 2024

I tried to share my testosterone voice update last month but it didn’t work so let’s try again and hope it works this time. Today I have been on HRT for ten months!! How time flies. Looking back on this month’s video I am a bit uncomfortable with how my chest looks (not wearing a binder today) but otherwise I feel pretty good about it all. I’ve even started to find a way to sing cover songs that feel less strain-ly on the voice!!! Now it is just to practice it enough to become second nature.

[micahthemoon]

December 24 2023

Merry Christmas! Today I will share with you my one-month singing on t update. Yes, I have one of those. So here’s how my voice sounds when singing ‘Here I Am’ by Bryan Addams (the one from Spirit) pre-t, one day on t, 1-2-3 weeks and then one month on hrt. Here’s to me not sounding too much like a teenage boy tonight when dancing around the tree and if I do it’ll only be fun. Have a nice time and I’ll see you soon.

[micahthemoon]

February 23 2024

Another milestone reached! I have now officially been a quarter of a year (3 months) on testosterone!! Meaning that it’s voice update time again. Here’s what I sound like now. If you’re as curious and nerdy as me, I will add my graphs of how my voice have changed between recordings from week 3 to week 13 (yesterday).  Spoiler: it has dropped around 25 or 30 hertz! At the same time, I wouldn’t say my voice has cracked yet (still barely in the neutral range). Excited for it to develop further.

[micahthemoon]

February 7 2024 I finally watched one of the many voice masculinization videos I have saved on my watch later playlist on youtube. Maybe it would make sense for me to actually bring some of those exercises into my morning routine while already waiting for the gel to dry? They seem doable – it is just a matter of me getting into the habit – maybe rewatching the video a few times as well to memorize the movements but yeah… as long as I don’t overdo it (or do it wrong) what’s the harm?

[micahthemoon]

January 5 2024 At trans support meeting yesterday I had one of the transmen commented on my voice!?! Honestly, I’m surprised, since I haven’t noticed any big changes yet. At the same time however, I was still semi-sick so maybe that’s the cause? Let me try to find an objective measurement: I’ve used the voice recorder app a few times now. Yesterday the average was 168,6 hz which is 8 hz lower than the week before. Yet the Danish recording had the same average. Conclusion? It’s unclear.

[micahthemoon]

March 10 2024 I felt sort of confident with my voice again to practice for choir and that in turn gave me a rush of motivation to play guitar and sing my songs. In a way I’m sad that I haven’t shared more music after starting testosterone. Now I think of it I don’t think I’ve shared a song since starting hrt. Maybe, I can sit down and record one tomorrow? I know I wrote a song a few weeks into hrt about the excitement of getting to meet the me t would transform me into over time … maybe that one?