#volume issues

[chipmunkweirdo]

I thought that I am naturally one of those emotionally flat unexpressive autistic people (who are great people! Honestly!) and that my exuberant personality might just be an act.

But as I examine myself closer, I realize that I can sometimes become emotionally flattened and unexpressive out of necessity and not because I enjoy that or because it’s me unmasking.

It’s because my voice is LOUD. I naturally talk far too loud for most people to tolerate. When I feel any emotion at all, I feel it STRONG. And I love to feel it strong. But they make me loud. Too much.

So in order to talk at an acceptable volume and not sound like an overexpressive cartoon character…I silenced my voice and with it my emotions. Because in order to quiet down, I needed to not allow myself to feel things like excitement or joy. SUCKS, DOESN’T IT!?

Now, I’m learning to express myself through my voice and through the chipmunk voices out loud more instead of just online again. AND GUESS WHAT! It’s been exhausting me too, because while it feels good, I still get scolded for being annoying and loud. And my body is not used to the frequency with which I talk. (I keep getting really dry mouth! Lol)

But it feels good. It feels liberating. Hopefully someday it’ll also feel less exhausting!

[bisexualwarlord]

my boombox is malfunctioning and i’m gonna bite someone

[katiestkid]

Why do movies have to do that thing where the soundtrack is like twice (or more) as loud as the talking?! I hate it so much! It's like I have to turn the volume up so loud just to hear the characters speaking but then the soundtrack comes on in deafening volume. I use subtitles and closed captions (when they're available-which I hate when they aren't but that's a whole other issue) too but if the soundtrack of the movie is louder than the talking, you have an issue.

[thisisnotwhatyouhadplanned]

okay I'm all for drama and amazing soundtracks that make me wanna sob or keep me on the edge of my seat BUT FOR FUCKS SAKE watching Rogue One on Netflix I just had to change my volume TEN NOTCHES from this whispered conversation shit to epic music that pierced every opportunity for silence, every god damn sound effect while ships fly I IUST WANT TO WATCH THE DAMN MOVIE WITHOUT KEEPING MY THUMB ON THE VOLUME BUTTON

[stray--thoughts]

I’m sorry spotify but you are acting like a rabid six year jerked out of their mind by having 25 too many pixie sticks and messing with the volume button.   We will meet again on another day.

[fasscinating]

I keep turning down the volume on my iPod and not understanding why the music coming from my computer isn't decreasing in loudness. Fuck my life is so hard