#wallspaghettis

[deanon]

EXCITING NEWS:

I will have 5 days over Thanksgiving break (16 - 20) where I have my house to myself!

Since I am never able to have people over due to my BATSHIT PARENTS, I'm going to take this opportunity to say OK GUYS LET'S HAVE PARTY

I'll probably make a facebook event later but i mean for the moment

i call having a party sometime in that period

woo

[theperksofbeingawallspaghetti]

the wallspaghettis are BACK!

tomorrow is TMI Tuesday and we would LOVE if you'd flood our inbox with questions for us.

[deanon]

Dear Detourstuck / Wallspaghettis:

Warning: feelings post in honor of the new year ahead.

Double warning: This is kind of my 'year in review', so it starts out a bit sad.

But first - thank you. To the two groups of people most important to me this year - God, thank you so much.

Exactly one year ago, I was not in a good place. I was in a bad relationship that had been slowly killing me for over a year at that point. I had stopped writing, stopped drawing, and lost interest in many of the things which I had previously been passionate about. In retrospect, I was probably nearing a clinical depression. I sure as hell wasn't happy or functioning like a regular person. My moods and self-worth were determined by my girlfriend's opinion of me that particular day.

I broke it off with her, by sheer I'm-sick-of-your-shit, and have three weeks of the month of February that I don't even remember.

But then Homestuck. And then Detourstuck. And I've done a lot of feelings posts about you guys, but I basically just wanted to post this so that you all could understand what you've done for me. Even those of you that I don't talk to or see all that often. Just having a group of friends like this, that I can rely on, that won't abandon me even if I make a bad decision or do something stupid - I've never had that before, and it means everything.

(It means that when my ex called me and asked for me back, I had the strength and self-confidence to say no for the first time since my sophomore year of high school.)

I want to get even better in this next year. Once upon a time, I was consistently filling up almost a full notebook with stories every month or two. I was constantly making stuff and coming up with ideas. I was pretty outgoing and nice to people and happy.

I'm closer to getting that back than I ever have been before, but I really want to get all the way there. Between Detourstuck (and particularly Maya, Sara, and Ashley) and Chelsea, Dan, and Lauren, I almost feel like a different person than I was at the beginning of this year.

Thank you. Thank you. Just for being here. Liking my posts. Talking to me occasionally. Telling me that I was worth something. Loving me.

I have a lot of words, but there really aren't any for how much it means to me. Or how much you guys mean to me. 

[theperksofbeingawallspaghetti]

In which Lauren is very, very sick.

[theperksofbeingawallspaghetti]

In which I ramble about shipping (the less controversial kind) and crushes both new and old and the multitude of ways in which Dan is like a golden retriever.

[deanon]

If I like your question, anyways.

[deanon]

The thing about editing video blogs of yourself is that you find out things about your face that you never noticed before

Do I seriously stick my tongue out THAT MUCH while talking

Stop rocking back and forth like a crazy person self

My mouth is really weirdly shaped

How have I managed to make friends while communicating like this for 18 years

I'm just going to put pictures of Homestuck all over this video so that I don't have to look at my face anymore