Before I say how I feel, I want to clarify that I do have friends. I actually have a good number of close friends who I care about a lot. We always have fun and laugh and do silly things like most friends do. It seems like a normal friendship, I would say. But I think there is something wrong with my brain. I know I'm in the circle, or the group, of friends, but I still feel like an outsider. Like I don't belong there exactly and my friends are just being gracious enough to let me join them because they feel sorry for me. Every time I text them, even if it seems like we're having a good time, I feel like I'm just annoying them and that they wish I would just leave them alone. I feel like a freeloader or something and that I should just leave them alone... but I can't. I need someone to talk to now and then. I sometimes even feel like they're hanging out without me or something... or texting without me. Like a break from me. I don't know... It's kind of hard to explain. I know that they care for me and that I care for them. We've been close friends for years... but I still feel like this. I honestly don't know what to do about it. I'm scared to tell them, like that would annoy them or something. Anyway, sorry for all the rambling. I was just wondering if I was the only one who felt this way. Am I alone? Am I a bad person for feeling this way?