So I'm not gonna lie, the last two days have been pretty tough. I'm pretty sure I have yet another UTI, and I'm suffering a lot of physical pain... I make the distinction of physical pain there, because my mental health has also made me suffer. Whenever I have a long, very happy stay with my parents, I find it particularly hard to transition back to reality. And I suffer. Now this doesn't mean I don't love living in Cardiff; it's just that I really, really miss the people I love who live in Swansea. I miss having them so near by... I'm pretty sure should I ever move back to swansea, I'd feel the same about my loved ones in Cardiff. The biggest challenge this time is that I haven't had such a bad dip in my mental health since my last relapse, which means I'm rusty and out of practice when it comes to using my Self Care tools. Cue a day of laying in bed being a miserable cow. My parents always know I feel like this, but I never feel like I can talk about it without hurting them. So I do the whole Suffer On Silence thing. Last night I saw the quote; "when we suffer, we survive". I drew it out in my journal, and I felt better. So today I gave myself a kick up the arse and decided to try a new accessible yoga class (I would prefer not to go into why I've left my old class. Those who need to know, do.). Unfortunately, due to a fuck up on the part of the taxi company, I couldn't actually go... but at least I went and got my weekly food shop done! And more importantly, I left my bedroom, interacted with people, and actually put on a bra 👍🏻 #welldoneme !! To be honest my mental health is still rocky tonight, because I have palliative care clinic tomorrow, and I just know someone's gonna pull out a pin and poke my leg to test what I can and can't feel... I'd rather focus on my day to day ability. I'm managing just fine without all that pesky feeling business... and I'm not keen on having it shoved in my face, ta very much! But on the plus side, my week can only go up 👍🏻 #alwayslookonthebrightsideoflife #palliativecarewarrior #palliativecareclinic #mentalhealthwarrior #yogaismagic