5 Years Sober
I’ve been every kind of alcoholic in recovery. The one who shows up with pens and highlighters with her Big Book, who takes every suggestion, who takes few suggestions, who lies to her sponsor, who is completely truthful, who has 100 service positions and who can barely drag herself to a meeting. The one thing that has stayed consistent is that I kept showing up for myself, my recovery, for service and for the fellowship. I’ve been faced with some of the hardest situations and some of the most beautiful moments in these five years. I got sober at 20. At 25 I still feel like I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time, but I’m no longer as afraid. I have the loving hand of a Higher Power guiding me even when I feel lost. Keep coming back, be gentle with yourself and just show up even when you don’t want to. This recovery thing can’t be done perfectly, but it is worth it more than any drink or drug. I love myself today. I love the gifts this journey has given me. What a beautiful life it is.