fellow trans will byers truther. what is your opinion on these lyrics in terms of their ftm will vibes (replace texas with hawkins)
oooo this is a hard one actually because it feels so angsty
also im going to take a byler perspective on this too because that's the vibe im kinda getting here....
now i personally think mike would be really accepting of will being trans but i think will would feel much less accepting of himself in regards to how he thinks mike feels about him
granted okay im kinda basing this interpretation off of how my current trans will fic is built where mike doesn't know will is trans...
but in this scenario, and just based off experience, its pretty common to kinda yearn for something you feel you 'cant have' or 'don't deserve' so in an awfully self deprecating way you sorta errrr i don't know if degrade would be the right word but yeah you degrade yourself in regards to the treatment you think you're deserving of from the other person
(ex: give me a black eye, and cover it with stars in red, white and blue. which has an abusive connotation but then the stars section brings a sweeter tone which i interpret as, you think that's about the only loving part of a relationship you'll ever get/deserve if that makes sense?????)
along with (I love when you call me lady, then run me over on the freeway) in terms of misgendering and such, i think it would be less as mike misgendering will and more will misgendering himself because he's under the assumption that "mike's straight ofc he's not gay which means he'd only love me as a girl" so internally he starts trying to convince himself he can be okay/happy as a girl just so mike would love him but obviously this stuff doesn't work like that and always leaves will feeling like shit (run over on the freeway)
but then there's that later section of lyrics at (you burn so bright, but i can't turn a blind eye-- yet, i keep coming back, i keep coming back to you.) that sounds like someone admiring/loving a person sincerely but feeling as though its painful for you to do i.e, will being trans and in love with mike without mike knowing either of those facts, feeling as though if he could just be a girl and not be trans that mike would love him back, and overall not being able to stop being in love with mike even though it hurts to be.
either that or im pulling everything out of my ass and just saying shit OR this is really just an angsty interpretation of trans will being in a completely abusive relationship with mike.... :^(
