#with roxanne

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i just want everyone to know that if liv4brutality reunites at SummerSlam, I will be beyond consolation. I will never be normal again and this blog will be forever changed

[robynsaint]

-- temulenceGenetrix [TG] began pestering robynSaint [RS] at 21:50 --

TG: Hey.

RS: uh.

RS: i have no idea why you're messaging me.

TG: I uh.

TG: I'm going on this apology run thing.

TG: But I'm kind of really blanking on how to go about this particular one.

RS: you make it sound like a marathon.

TG: Right my bad.

TG: Okay so, here we go. I'm sorry for what I said, even if I was on drugs it was so messed up but not as fucked up as what I did and I swear I wasn't trying to hurt you or Derek or anyone else and I wish it never happened but it did and I'm sorry.

RS: i shouldn't be pissed.

RS: i don't have any right to be.

RS: i could say hey, you're even but.

RS: we're*

RS: i would still come out as the bigger bitch.

RS: and not even in the badass way.

RS: the terrible person way.

TG: I wouldn't want us to be "even" really. i dont think i'd be more happy that way.

TG: But uh, nice tackle though? Im not even be sarcastic you're good at it.

RS: that's because i used to play football.

RS: pro nfl.

RS: disguised myself as this huge guy.

TG: I almost thought your were being serious hahah.

RS: i ain't no stranger to fights, though.

RS: i admit i lost my shit.

RS: sorry.

TG: Its okay.

RS: so. is this where we go back to normal where you write passive aggressive comments on my statuses or...?

TG: No.

TG: I'm gonna just give you and derek some space for a little while.

RS: you've been avoiding me for like a year already.

TG: It hasn't been a full year.

TG: But can you blame me?

RS: no. but why give yourself another reason?

TG: Because I still need time from both of you? Because I dont want to complicate things like I already have while you two have a baby on the way?

TG: Because I clearly dont trust myself to be around you two while I still have really mixed feelings?

RS: so this time you're going to be mad at yourself instead of me.

TG: Yeah sure.

RS: that's bullshit.

RS: ask me to give you space, maybe?

TG: You have been.

RS: then you don't need to be the one giving me space.

TG: Okay fine.

RS: i just don't understand why you would need to be giving us more space?

RS: unless derek's spending enough time with you to warrant space?

TG: More space as in continuing to give you guys space. Is that better.

TG: Its not even about anything the two of you are doing, its about me.

RS: you shouldn't have to be changing anything

RS: you shouldn't have to be changing anything. you didn't DO anything worse than what i've done to you. or even half as bad.

RS: **

TG: I'm not tryin to compare the two.

RS: you telling me you're going to give me space means nothing because you're already giving me the most space possible.

TG: Okay fine.

TG: I'll keep doing what I'm already doing then.

TG: Until I feel okay enough to be around you two and not feel how I've been feeling.

RS: i'm not saying that to just. ugh.

RS: fuck.

RS: criticize you or anything i'm saying it's bullshit that you're in this position.

RS: because of me.

TG: Its not even about you.

RS: how is it not about me?!

TG: Its never been about you, its been about HIM.

TG: I'm not over derek. I dont know WHEN I will be.

TG: He could be with literally anyone and I would still feel as torn up and conflicted as I do now.

RS: jesus.

RS: okay. so.

RS: i'm sorry for making it about me. that's not fair to you at all.

RS: it just sucks.

RS: the circumstances.

TG: Yeah. It does suck.

TG: I should get going though.

RS: yeah. okay.

TG: Bye Riley.

-- temulenceGenetrix [TG] ceased pestering robynSaint [RS] at 23:07 --

[robynsaint]

RILEY: -sometimes, riley doesn't FEEL like taking the stairs from the highever levels of the atrium to the first floor. thank god for elevators, right? she enters the elevator, tired and ready to crash. maybe go see derek, or something. she hits the down button and waits- ROXANNE: -Same, Riley. Same. Quite literally it would seem because when the doors open Roxanne is already in this elevator, looking over a file filled with papers in her hands. Shes so enraptured with science she doesn't notice Riley right away, but when she does, its a lot of awkward staring and "Oh shit." Feeling.-

ROXANNE: ......... RILEY: -when she notices that the other person inside is roxanne, she realizes that it would be even worse if she was just to leave. what does she do? does she say hi? does she ignore her? the elevators doors close as they descend and she just...offers a half-hearted smile before looking away and staring at the floor numbers. that is, until the elevator jerks to a halt, and the lights inside dim. oh fuck, oh no. oh nooooo. riley attempts to PRY THE DOORS APART WITH HER BARE HANDS but it's no use because riley does NOT have crowbars for hands.-

RILEY: fuck! ROXANNE: -Smiling at her wont get you on her good side Riley. This elevator ride was awkward because she and Riley used to be such good friends, and then Derek cheated on her with Riley, and now was his girlfriend or wife or whatever it was, while Derek and Roxanne still had an adopted kid together and its just. Really not the ideal space. So she concentrates on keeping her eyes on her work, not saying anything because she isn't ready to have that conversation.-

ROXANNE: -And then the elevator jerks to a sudden stop, because the world hates them both obviously.-

ROXANNE: -She looks up and around as the lights flicker nO. Why did this have to happen?! Also why is Riley even trying to pry the doors open they are likely in between floors with no clear exit route.-

ROXANNE: Well shit.... RILEY: -she feels sick to her stomach, now in close quarters with a woman whose family she had singlehandedly wrecked. when it becomes embarrassingly clear that riley cannot open this elevator on her own, she lets go and just pounds on it- hey! we're stuck! ROXANNE: -The overwhelming urge to say "Well no shit" is resisted for another day.- 

ROXANNE: Yeah.

ROXANNE: Probably not for too long though? i think someone is gonna' notice the elevator not workin' if there not already some sort of alert system for when it stops. RILEY: that's why i'm trying to convey the message to whoever's out there. -pounds more before dejectedly giving up and sliding her back against one of the walls until she's sitting. She glances at Roxanne- man, can't get any more awkward than this, can it? ROXANNE: -By now she is also leaning up against an opposite wall, clutching her files.- 

ROXANNE: Yeahhh... probably can't. -Shes not really talkative, or warm and friendly towards Riley. In fact Roxanne wont even look at her.- RILEY: -she notices and sighs, silent for a few long moments-

RILEY: you can totally like, swing a few punches at me. i'll tell people i slipped with shit in my hands or something. ROXANNE: -She glances over at Riley and looks her up and down.-

ROXANNE: I dont punch people in broken down elevators so youre safe. -That was meant to be a joke but she sounded a lot more serious then she meant to.- RILEY: -actually snorts at that, possibly because of the nervous energy- i mean, that's cool. to be honest, not really a huge fan of getting punched in the face. surprising, i know. ROXANNE: -She doesn't laugh along with her and returns to looking around their temporary prison in silence..- RILEY: -another bit of silence- you probably don't wanna hear me say sorry, i'm guessing. ROXANNE: -Roxanne shrugs-

ROXANNE: Not really. but thanks though. i guess. RILEY: -bites her lip for a moment- you sure you don't wanna cuss me out or something? ROXANNE: -She thinks about it for a moment.-

ROXANNE: I mean... kinda'.

ROXANNE: But were both stuck in this elevator so fighting isn't the best idea. RILEY: girl, there's no way i'm fighting back. done enough already to warrant all of it. seriously. ROXANNE: Riley stop tryin' to make me fight you. RILEY: ...okay. -looks down at the ground and a few more moments pass- okay whatever this is, the awkwardness is worse than anything you could say or do to me, i'm sure. you're real good, roxanne. ROXANNE: Thanks. -She has no sympathy and starts looking through her files again.- RILEY: -glances at her before looking back at the floor- yep. -she eventually just, lies on the floor and groans loudly- ROXANNE: -She looks down at her, mildly judging.-

ROXANNE: You not good with closed in spaces or...? RILEY: -tilts her head back to look at her upside down- not really. i just wanna get out of here. ROXANNE: -Riley plz-

ROXANNE: Yeah. i feel that.

ROXANNE: Hopefully television and movies lie an we won't be stuck here for hours. ROXANNE: 'Cus i need to go pick up russet. RILEY: she's getting pretty big. fast grower. ROXANNE: -Nods-

ROXANNE: Yeah. troll development is like. 

ROXANNE: Wild. RILEY: she's really cute, though. ROXANNE: -Alright well its hard not to smile when shes thinking about Russet.- ROXANNE: She really is. sometimes shes so sweet it gives me cavities. RILEY: ...

RILEY: you're a good mom, you know. ROXANNE: Mm. kinda feel like you are just sayin' that right now to make me feel better. RILEY: hey, i know right now it sounds like bullshit, but i mean it. i at least know what a not good mom is. ROXANNE: What do ya' think a not good mom is then? RILEY: my mom. -pauses- me. at least for 20 whatever years. ROXANNE: You aren't one anymore and thats the important thing to remember. -Also ugh, so her and Riley share bad mom experiences too? WHY must they have so much in common! Clearly Derek has an extreme type.- RILEY: -shrugs- eh. -she thinks about Dirk and how she hasn't had a real conversation with him since the INCIDENT. and stuff with Dave is still weird- don't need to encourage me anyway. that's kind of fucked up. ROXANNE: Right.

ROXANNE: .............kinda' really hope this elevator starts moving soon. things keep getting more awkward. RILEY: ...still sure you don't wanna punch me? ROXANNE: Im like.

ROXANNE: Eighty percent sure. also i didnt even yell at derek so punching you would just be mean. RILEY: it would make things less awkward. you gotta admit that. ROXANNE: Maybe. but then dirk and dave would probably get on my case for hittin' their mom.

ROXANNE: Pretty sure there has got to be like a rule against punching the captains mom. RILEY: don't think there are cameras in here. not like i'm gonna tell anyone it was you. ROXANNE: Jesus h christ riley im not punching you. ROXANNE: How many times do i gotta' say it? RILEY: okay, okay. sorry. -stares at the ceiling- ROXANNE: -Reaches up one hand and rubs at her temple.-

ROXANNE: What would me punchin' you even do?? like seriously? you get a swollen face, i get a fist full of trouble, and then what? RILEY: ...you feel better? ROXANNE: -She scowls- How would it do that. its not like dereks gonna' pick me over you if i clock you.

RILEY: -she has no idea what to say to that so she just...looks at her. Still with an upside down view- ROXANNE: -Shes still scowling at you Riley. You aint making her any less mad.- RILEY: i deserve that face. ROXANNE: Mhm. -Okay the longer she is stuck in here, the harder it is not to really feel how upset she really has been over all of this. It doesnt help that she can't take riley seriously when shes laying down like that and asking to be punched. Jesus this is who she lost to.-

ROXANNE: Like. you really do. i get that its not all your fault either but.

ROXANNE: God dammit i thought we were at least friends enough that you two wouldn't go behind my back??? ROXANNE: That wasnt even the first time it happened either!! RILEY: -okay this is more like it. she winces a little and swallows- it was a really shitty thing to do. we didn't...plan it or anything so i don't want you thinking that.

RILEY: you deserve better.

RILEY: i fucked up. ROXANNE: No. you dont get to say that to me okay??

ROXANNE: I dont want to hear about how i "deserve" better or how you messed up.

ROXANNE: What i want is to not feel like ive been tricked and lied to for the last several months.

ROXANNE: Also its even worse because??? like????? you and derek were divorced and i dont know the whole story but i know it wasnt great between you two but now it is?? ROXANNE: Sorry riley but it just doesnt make sense to me! RILEY: -she nods, quietly speaking- i know. ROXANNE: Do you though??? RILEY: -she opens her mouth to speak and then closes it- not like you do. ROXANNE: Yeah probably not. ROXANNE: -She huffs and leans back against the wall again.- (When th'fuck is this going to start moving.) RILEY: if you really want to know i can tell you. 

RILEY: don't need to hide anything from you. ROXANNE: ...... -Does she want to know though? Does she really?? Roxanne thinks about it in silence for several moments before coming to her decision.-

ROXANNE: Alright, yeah. RILEY: you wanna know from new years? ROXANNE: Sure. RILEY: okay, well...you knew everything that happened then. nothing happened between us for months. we just...tried to keep being friends, since i was, you know, stuck on the ship anyway.

RILEY: i could have left on locas but i didn't because i wanted to stay with dirk and dave until things calmed down. too much was going on.

RILEY: i didn't want to leave derek, either.

RILEY: but uh. we got drunk after dirk's first meeting as captain. nothing happened then, we just...said a lot of shit i honestly can't remember.

RILEY: it wasn't until the night i first got sick that he came over and took care of me. the next morning, we kissed. he flipped out. it...wasn't an easy thing for him. i don't want you to think it was easy. because he beat himself up about it.

RILEY: but uh. i pushed too much. and there was just...that's how it started. -she doesn't want to give ALL THE DETAILS because she figures that would make things worse.- ROXANNE: -Its still pretty bad Riley.-

ROXANNE: -She stares at her the entire time she speaks, looking stern. Upset, but maintaining herself. And when everything is said and done, she doesn't say a word and just looks up at the top of the elevator box they were trapped in.- RILEY: it wasn't all a lie. you and him. i know that. ROXANNE: Sure you do. RILEY: -furrows her eyebrows- i do. ROXANNE: Mhm. -She still wont look at her- RILEY: i'm serious. ROXANNE: A lie or not. its not gonna' make me feel better. 

ROXANNE: If it was a lie then ive been buying a lie for months. but if it wasnt, then that means ive lost out on the realest relationship ive ever had. ROXANNE: So. thanks but there isnt really a way to comfort me on this. RILEY: -sighs heavily- that's fair. 

RILEY: completely fair. ROXANNE: -She grumbles- Thanks for understanding. RILEY: got anything else you wanna say to me while we're here? ROXANNE: Mmmmyeahh.

ROXANNE: Got one more i think.

ROXANNE: So. you and russet.

ROXANNE: Feelings? derek wants to be there for her but i need to know how you feel about it too. RILEY: -sits up a little- what? ROXANNE: How do you feel about derek wanting to be russet's dad. are you gonna' be awkward about it like you were in the cafeteria forever? RILEY: oh.

RILEY: -shakes her head-

RILEY: i've always thought of her as his kid too, i just...felt bad with her coming to me with you right there. ROXANNE: Alright. RILEY: i love russet. i think she's great. -stops- there's..,one more thing you should know. derek only found out like last week or something. ROXANNE: -Stares at Riley.-

ROXANNE: Found out what? RILEY: -rubs the back of her own neck- well.

RILEY: when we decided on a divorce and i went back on tour and shit...

RILEY: that was when the headlines said your ship had been boarded and there were likely no survivors.

RILEY: and while derek signed the papers, i thought he was dead and didn't sign them. but i just never...signed them when i found out y'all were alive. ROXANNE: So....

ROXANNE: What you are sayin' is that.

ROXANNE: You two have been still married this whole time. RILEY: technically. yes.

RILEY: but he was not aware of that at all. ROXANNE: That sure was some life changing information you gave me then. ROXANNE: -Man all that sarcasm in her voice... RILEY: ...uh.

RILEY: okay. guess it's not that big of a deal. ROXANNE: I just. dont know why you felt you had to tell me that.

ROXANNE: Not really any of my business anymore, and yeah you thought he was dead so i dont blame you for not wanting to go through the paper work.

ROXANNE: But i guess technically speakin' that makes me the past homewrecked of your mariage. ROXANNE: Well obviously i didnt wreck anything. so i guess thats not one hundred percent true. ROXANNE: Sure made things awkward though. RILEY: i'm trying to be honest with you and tell you everything remember? that's part of it. it may have been a bigger deal had you found out about it somewhere else.

RILEY: and nah. you're not even close to a homewrecker. ROXANNE: -Man, all this talking about it was supposed to make her feel better right? Air out the problems? The secrets? But all it was doing was making her feel even worse then before.-

ROXANNE: -She slides down slowly to sit on the floor.- RILEY: -looks back at her again- ...are you hungry at all? I snuck these weird tasting granola bars from the cafeteria. ROXANNE: -Shakes her head- No. RILEY: cool.

RILEY: ...can i apologize at least for fucking up our friendship like i did? ROXANNE: Yeah.

ROXANNE: You can. RILEY: -looks at her sincerely; she owes her that much- i'm sorry for treating our friendship like trash. ROXANNE: Thanks. RILEY: yeah. -sighs again, not sure what to say now- ROXANNE: -She just can't bring herself to talk to Riley anymore, and intends to remain completely silent until the elevator starts working again-

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DAVE: -he knows this isn't going to be easy. in fact, he's risking a lot by doing this, but he's genuinely worried about Roxanne, which is why he's knocking at her door. He's also carrying dove because babies lighten any situation- ROXANNE: -She answers the door with a baby in her arms as well, Russet had been feeling rather clingy today. Roxanne is actually really surprised with who is standing there, and she stops herself from frowning because Dove is with him. But she has honestly no idea why Dave would be here.- Oh. hey dave. whats up? DAVE: -he tries to sound as friendly as he possibly can, given the sensitivity of the situation- just wanted to stop by

DAVE: if thats cool with you

DAVE: visit my lil sis and doves been dyin to hang out with her aunt

DAVE: is it ok if i come in ROXANNE: -Oh. Okay yeah that's not what she was expecting but it was a far better outcome.- Oh, yeah sure.

ROXANNE: -she quickly steps out of the doorway and opens it up more for them to come on in, before turning around back into the room. Good thing Russet's play corner was already set up with blankets, blocks and other kinds of toys.- Do ya' want something to drink? ive got like juice and stuff. DAVE: you got aj -he seems interested in the prospect as he walks inside and looks around- cuz thats a definite hell yeah ROXANNE: -If he is expecting to see the place disheveled he is in for a surprise. Over all everything is pretty much "lived in tiddy" meaning as clean as it can be when you have a curious and attention waning toddler living with you. Some toys here and there, maybe a sock or two under the couch, or a sippy cup on the counter but it's clean enough.- Yep got ya' covered.

ROXANNE: -She goes to put Russet down on the couch but the little girl does make some insect like rumble of disagreement at being removed. However now with her arms free Roxanne is able to produce two bottles of apple juice, and holds one out to Dave- DAVE: - takes one before setting dove down next to russet and making sure she's good and sat up and set up with some of her own toys. is there a couch in here? If so, he's sitting on it- thanks youre the bomb RUSSET: -she tilts her head at this alien child new comer on her blanket turf.-

ROXANNE: -she joins him on the other side of the couch not too long after he sits and twists open her own juice bottle.- Doves lookin' good how old is she now? DAVE: -cracks open the juice and smiles over at dove- gonna have her first birthday on july 11th DAVE: can you believe that

DAVE: shes almost 11 months

DOVE: -grabs a block- ROXANNE: A whole year? holy freakin' moley. they grow up so fast.

RUSSET: =80 -She chirrs curiously. Where are your horns wriggler? You look more like her brother and mom and dad.-

RUSSET: -she takes two of those blocks that Dove hasn't already picked up- DAVE: i know right

DAVE: sometimes i check out the pics from when she was a newborn and -Dave do not get choked up right now-

DAVE: yeah -rubs the back of his neck and cleats his throat-

DAVE: but hey

DAVE: i wanted to see how you were doing

DOVE: -babbles at russet- RUSSET: -She chirps back at her and starts stacking her blocks into a tower.-

ROXANNE: Me? -She pauses, drinking from her juice as an excuse for it.-

ROXANNE: Yeah we are doin' pretty alright, russet and I. -Should she tell Dave? Does he already know? Why else would he be asking.- I've taken more time off my work schedule, as much as I can anyways, to spend more time with her lately so that's good. DAVE: -he nods- thats good

DAVE: but look

DAVE: i wanted to say im sorry

DAVE: for everything that happened

DAVE: you deserve a lot better ROXANNE: -Yep there it is.-

ROXANNE: -She sighs and leans into the couch more.-

ROXANNE: You ain't got nothin' to apologize for dave. DAVE: i know but

DAVE: id say its expressing my sympathies but it feels like its more than that DAVE: you got screwed over and i just

DAVE: dont want you thinkin it was your fault ROXANNE: Thanks.

ROXANNE: But I wouldn't be too surprised if it all did have somethin' to do with me. -she adverts her eyes from him and focuses on the girls instead. How does one talk about this with the son of the man who cheated on you?-

ROXANNE: I just try not to think to hard on it lately. blaming myself or anyone else isnt gonna' make me feel any better. besides your dad is old enough to know what he wants. sure I wish maybe he had figured it out another way, any other way really, but im glad he loves someone even if it's not me. DAVE: -it's kind of heartbreaking, hearing her talk about it like this. he glances at the girls too before looking back at her- trust me

DAVE: it dont

DAVE: if were being real here

DAVE: and i say this with the most amount of respect toward bro possible

DAVE: youre kinda too good for him

DAVE: shit the way youre talkin right now shows that ROXANNE: Not quite sure if thats true. got my own short comings and demons dave. im not meaning any offense by saying this but you don't know me that well.

ROXANNE: im happy he found someone 'cus that's a special thing ive never had, probably won't ever have but that's okay by me.

RUSSET: -She has constructed a nice sized block castle in front of herself and looks around it to see what Dove is doing- DAVE: dont we all tho

DAVE: got those fucked up parts of ourselves that we hate

DAVE: -pauses- one time i told dirk it was his fault for fuckin up our family

DAVE: didnt mean it but i said it anyway

DAVE: thats a part of myself i dont like that comes out more often than i want it to

DAVE: but i still found jade ROXANNE: -she looks back over at him. That does sound like a pretty terrible thing to do.- Yikes.

ROXANNE: But uh, still, the important thing is ya' didn't mean it. -she sips more apple juice.-

ROXANNE: Also jade probably sees that you are more then just that one small part of yourself. DAVE: exactly -looks over at her- applies to you too

DOVE: -she is hitting the block against the ground and yelling at it- RUSSET: -child please that is not how you use blocks.-

RUSSET: -she chirrs at Russet, expecting the other young child to understand her, and reached for the block in doves hand to show her how to play with it-

ROXANNE: Thanks i guess. DAVE: do you got anybody thats like

DAVE: that knows about the situation

DAVE: and is lookin out for you

DOVE: -she's still trying to slam it against the ground- RUSSET: =BO -She's grabs the block in her hand full on now trying to get her to stop- 

ROXANNE: Actually... yeah i do. -she smiles softly to herself thinking about how nice james has been to her through this.- DOVE: -looks up at russet with her hand still on the block-

DAVE: -well that's a relief- really 

DAVE: cool

DAVE: somebody whos got their shit together i hope RUSSET: -she slowly tries to pull it away from Dove-

ROXANNE: -Roxanne nods- James is one of the most put together friends i have. DAVE: -he nods in great approval here- yeah hes

DAVE: the best you can ask for

DAVE: did i ever tell you how i know james

DOVE: -yells- ROXANNE: No don't think ya'ever did. actually i had no idea you two knew each other that well-- -Baby yells and she owl turns towards the kids-

RUSSET: -Alarmed squeak and she lets go of the block- DAVE: oh yeah

DAVE: known him since i was 16 or 17

DAVE: he was my mentor at the skaianet academy

DAVE: he was like

DAVE: i dunno

DAVE: at the time felt like the closest to a parent i ever had ROXANNE: Oh man really?

ROXANNE: Huh yeah guess that checks out, he did mention he worked with skaianet.

ROXANNE: But thats actually pretty cool. -She also tactically avoids saying "But what about Derek?" is response to Dave's final statement.- DAVE: he was really good at what he did

DAVE: and he genuinely wanted to see me succeed you know ROXANNE: -She nods.-

ROXANNE: Yeah. that really does sound like him hah.

ROXANNE: I havent known him nearly as long of course but thats about right i think.

ROXANNE: James is a really great guy. DAVE: oh yeah it dont matter how long you know him for youre just as important

DAVE: its great you got him ROXANNE: -She just nods again, smiling to herself.-

ROXANNE: -She really doesn't deserve how nice James is to her.- DAVE: i just want you to know that there are people who care about you through all of this ROXANNE: Thanks dave.

ROXANNE: I mean like, i know that there are but.

ROXANNE: Still its nice to hear it. also its nice of you to say it since you really didn't have to? i feel a little bad we dont know each other that well but you are still here. even under the pretenses of playdates -pointedly looks over at the babies.-

RUSSET: -Shes waiting for Dove to get distracted and when she does Russet will try snatching the block again.-

ROXANNE: Point is, your a great kid. DAVE: just doin what i feel is right for a person i respect

DOVE: -throws the block at russet- ROXANNE: -Okay thats??? Really touching???-

RUSSET: -Now SHE yells. Also covers her head from anymore attacks.- DAVE: -glances over at the yelling- dove play nice you cant just throw blocks at your aunt thats not cool RUSSET: -She looks over at Dave, still covering her head, and chirps insistently- 

ROXANNE: -She leans over to look around Dave at them too.- Yikes.

ROXANNE: Well uh, i mean if they keep fighting we can always replace the blocks with stuffed animals. DAVE: hopefully dove will cool it

DAVE: she likes throwin shit

DAVE: gonna be the star of sportsball ROXANNE: Russet has been kinda' a pill lately too. shes been goin' through a bit of a possessive phase with her toys so i cant entirely blame dove for bein' short with her. 

RUSSET: -MOTHER!! BETRAYAL- DAVE: sounds like typical baby troll shit ROXANNE: Oh really?

ROXANNE: Are any of the other troll babies going through the same phase?

ROXANNE: I mean all babies do but usually not this early on i think. DAVE: not sure actually

DAVE: citrin has his moments ROXANNE: Oh thats dirk's son right?

ROXANNE: -Shes met Citrin like. Once or twice.- DAVE: yeah my nephew ROXANNE: Hes pretty adorable lookin'. DAVE: isnt he

DAVE: hes so chubby ROXANNE: Perfect for hugs to be honest. DAVE: yeah right on

DAVE: doves good for that too ROXANNE: Russet also is real great at cuddling.

ROXANNE: Great at nap time. DAVE: hey dove too thank god

DAVE: took her a while ROXANNE: Oh man yeah. i remember roxy was real bad about sleeping through an hour let alone nights. -Wait is that weird to talk about?- DAVE: was she

DAVE: how come

ROXANNE: -She shrugs a little.- No real medical reason to it, she was just fussy i guess. 

ROXANNE: But she started bein' better about a little while after she turned one

DAVE: good to know cuz dove has her moments

[robynsaint]

-- temulenceGenetrix [TG] began trolling robynSaint [RS] at 23:25 --

TG: Hey there. RS: hey. uh, who's this? TG: Oh shoot right,

TG: We never talked not in person before.

TG: Its roxanne. RS: oh! hey. right. whoops.

RS: what's up? TG: Nothin' much really.

TG: Just thought I'd check in see how you've been. RS: cuz of the whole losing my shit in front of you thing last time we talked?

RS: i'm doing well enough to not sob sporadically.

RS: but thanks for caring. how about you? TG: Well nah not 'cus of that really.

TG: But glad to hear?

TG: And im doing okay i guess. TG: I kinda wanted to TG: Let ya' know derek told me. RS: told you what? that i sometimes binge on trashy reality tv unironically? TG: Nope, but lets be real who doesnt.

TG: Th'answer is no one. TG: Nah though he told me 'bout new years. RS: oh. that we hung out? TG: Yeah. and like. the rest of it. TG: I just wanted to let you know that,

TG: You and i are still cool.

TG: Im not mad or anything. RS: oh.

RS: about that.

RS: look. that was all me.

RS: don't know if he made that clear or not but yeah.

RS: i'm sorry, roxanne. i was being an idiot and he stopped it right away. TG: You dont have to try and explain it.

TG: Not to be rude or awkward but its not like i care much?

TG: Meaning that its fine what happened. and i dont need to hear the details.

TG: Like who started what and all.

TG: It happened super long ago anyways. RS: really?

RS: cuz you know you can punch me if you want. TG: I wouldn't wanna' punch you riley.

TG: Cus im not mad at you or derek. TG: I get it.

TG: You two have got a lot of history so it isnt like this is th' twilight zone.

TG: Its understandable. RS: are you sure because i would punch me.

RS: wait are you saying you saw it coming? TG: Well no. i wasnt expectin' you two to kiss or anything.

TG: Im just sayin' im not surprised because if it were me in either of your shoes.

TG: I could see how it would happen. RS: ha, yeah.

RS: so uh. are you guys still good? TG: Yeah we are now.

TG: Not that i really helped the situation at the time.

TG: But i think we are good now. RS: did he just tell you now? TG: Nah he told me a while ago.

TG: And then we took a break for a bit.

TG: I kinda' needed some time to process finding out about the kiss and also hearing him saying the word "love" for the first time. TG: Also my daughter was gettin' married too so that took a great deal of attention. RS: oh, yeah. i had no idea you guys took a break.

RS: the l word will throw you for a spin. TG: Heh. yeah. TG: No lie there. RS: glad you guys got through it though.

RS: you two are perfect for each other. TG: Thanks.

TG: Double thanks really. RS: sure.

RS: how's the kid? TG: Russets doin; good.

TG: Real cheery and getting crazy good at learning numbers. RS; so this might be a weird question but what human age is she equivalent to? development wise? TG: Ta'be honest im not quite sure.

TG: Somewhere in toddler range?

TG: Shes walking and showing a lot of cognitive function.

TG: Still not talkin' like the other troll kids yet though. TG: Kind of really wish i knew more 'bout this then i do.

TG: But russet wouldn't even be considered "normal" to trolls in general.

TG: So i dont know how much of what is known about a troll kid to her anyways. RS: had no idea most trolls talked so early. TG: Neither did i. TG: I had some hint that they get pretty independent pretty fast.

TG: But this is a lot faster then i would'a though :0 RS: real different from humans. you gotta wait what seems like forever for them to talk. TG: Yep. TG: Maybe russet is just more human like and thats why she still only makes mostly bug noises, hah. RS: oh, yeah. the bug noises. i remember those days. TG: Huh? RS: sorry, making a joke.

RS: my kids never made bug noises.

RS: that would be concerning, probably. TG: Oh hahah, yeah i was gonna' say. TG: Yep never had a kid that chirps or clicks at me before.

TG: Its a new experience for sure. RS: entertaining though. i guess it's like babbling for them. TG: I wonder if they can tell the difference from insect babbling and regular talking.

TG: Cus' with the way russet chatters sometimes its like shes trying to hold conversation.

TG: Then again older trolls dont seem to understand what the kids are sayin' either so probably not hahah. RS: i wouldn't be the one to tell you. TG: Dont know who would to be all that honest.

TG: I meant to talk to th'dolorosa about a lot of this kinda' stuff but... RS: who's that? TG: She was like.

TG: Apparently the first troll mom? that wasnt an animal thing. TG: She raised this ambassador guy. it was some big deal for trolls i think? TG: Anyways, she was a real nice lady. TG: But she passed away when all those people got kidnapped. RS: oh my god. i'm so sorry. TG: Yeah it was really terrible.

TG: I didn;t know her well or anything.

TG: But still a lot of people were torn up about it. RS: well yeah. sounds like she meant a lot to a whole lot of people. RS: some people are just like that. you don't even know them well but they have an impact on everyone. TG: Yeah. 

TG: She was a really nice lady. TG: Dont think there was actually one person who didnt like her. RS: she sounds amazing. 

RS: shame i never got to meet her. TG: Yeah. you probably would have really liked her.

TG: Oh man maybe we should stray away from the topic of the dead. not that im tryin' to be disrespectful to her memory or anythin' but i dont want to bum you out about it.

RS: nah, it's cool. i don't mind. takes a lot more than that to bum me out.

TG: You really dont get bummed out easy hahaha.

RS: not really, no. save for the last time i saw you, but that's a different story.

[technologicgodot]

TG: ok can i talk to you again is that a thing i can do right now

TG: or are you just gonna close the window on me

TG: I. . .dunno'?

TG: ok you havent yet

TG: in retrospect i was being a super asshole

TG: I'm not sre what to say in responce ta'that.

TG: *urr

TG: **sure

TG: yeah that works

TG: sure works thats an ok response to what i was saying and doin

TG: honestly i may have like not contacted you right away

TG: had you not wrote all that

TG: cuz man that shed light on the situation

TG: a vague light

TG: a blacklight that really helps me understand jack nothing but maybe get it a little more

TG: idk what im saying right now

TG: i uh

TG: i guess its not my place to just try and butt in here

TG: bros just my dad

TG: ok that sounded weird

TG: but its accurate i guess

TG: But ya' did, and nah i get it. sorta'.

TG: i gotta look out for him sometimes

TG: yeah.

TG: and rose is like a sister to me ok like me and her are hella tight

TG: and shes not gonna be like disappointed if you contact her or try to make an effort with her

TG: Nah she. . . she would be.

TG: ok just sayin and not to like

TG: make you upset or anything but pretty sure i know her a lot better than you

TG: even if she is by extension you

TG: Also im not sure i wanna'r eally. . .talk to you'bout my daughters?

TG: shes still her own person oh right yeah

TG: this is weird isnt it

TG: Yeah.

TG: yeah

TG: ok

TG: Look im not gonna'bother your bro or uncle or dirk anymore either, so yeah. no worries.

TG: oh shit no

TG: thats not

TG: thats not what i meant to do

TG: hey wait a second

TG: this isnt my shit i shouldnt have done that or said that or anything

TG: But ya'did, and it was how ya'felt. and thats pretty important.

TG: Sorry i bothere ya' ta'begin with. i just wanted to get a sample from your uncle's bird.

TG: Its lusi-naturae, an' i'm in th'process of developin'ones in labs.

TG: oh fuck

TG: its a literal bird

TG: i

TG: god im an idiot

TG: No you're enot, 'cus th'whole pic thing was somethin' that happened. but we were jokin'around about my other friend who seent me one, so he also did it to like make a trend and mock it? i dunno' it was funny at th'time, and he mdde me a plushie of it. but no its not th'funny an'you're right.

TG: he made you a plushie of his dick i dont want to know this about my dad good fucking god

TG: or my uncle who are we even talking about anymore

TG: dont answer that

TG: fuck

TG: Sorry i hsould stop sayin'things.

TG: *shold

TG: **Should

TG: I don't feel good i'm gonna'go.

TG: Sorry dave.

TG: no dont stop saying things just

-- temulenceGenetrix [TG] ceased pestering technologicGodot [TG] at 19:29 --

-- temulenceGenetrix [TG] began pestering technologicGodot [TG] at 19:30 --

TG: Nah'im makin'this worse.

TG: Just like. . .don't tell rose please.

TG: I'm gonna' fix it so.

TG: Yeah.

TG: dont cut all of them out ok

TG: dont cut any of them out

TG: like bro and dirk and my uncle do you even talk to dirk idk but

TG: dont do it

TG: Dirk an' i were goin' to work on adjustin' my labs to his power grids. they are really impressive an'i wanted to start testin' them on massive duobasis with power trip connectors at 24/7 activity. its a way cleaner and efficient way to power my studies on th'whole growin'life thing.

TG: So thats why i talk ta'him.

TG: But first ya'want me to stop.

TG: And now ya'dnt?

TG: 8dont

TG: ***

TG: no dont stop i dont know anything

TG: it was way too premature for me to even try to talk about this

TG: or address it i just

TG: god i dont fuckin know

TG: Dave its fine, ya'are just worreid 'bout your family and thats okay.

TG: *woried

TG: **woereid

TG: ***meh

TG: Ya'kinda tore me a new one on assumin'stuff which . . . .yeah kinda' not cool. but its 'kay 'cus i know why ya'did it.

TG: An'hey with luck im noot gonna remmbr this later.

TG: noot. . .

TG: i meant not.

TG: Not noot.

TG: yeah if we can forget that ever happened and maybe not mention it to my bro that would be cool

TG: . . . . . . .

TG: Uh.

TG: oh god

TG: fuck

TG: Wait no i can fix this.

TG: I like.

TG: Can,

TG: Uh.

TG: I don't THINk hes made?

TG: *madd??

TG: ok i gotta talk to him

TG: Sorry, he just got it out of me.

TG: Which isn't really too hard to do right now im drunkin'skunk or whatever th'sayin is.

TG: I should jsut stop sayin'things.

TG: Sorry 'bout gettin' ya' in trouble hun.

TG: no it aint you

TG: ill talk to you later probably

TG: Yeah sure.

TG: See ya'.

TG: bye