#wordbarf

[smoothestkoala]

I know I usually write for wolverine but I HAVE to get this out of my system-

If you want a realistic Ticci Toby… how about focusing on what gave him his nickname- his disorders and how it affects him. How does his amnesia affect him after everything he’s been through? Is he truely happy under Slenderman or is it forced for the lack of normalcy he has? How does his own issues interfere with his daily life?

And please PLEASE- do not make him a rapist-

Homeboy would a, probably find it repulsive and uncomfortable. b, have other issues and insecurities to think about that would interfere with his libido. c, probably asexual- not saying asexuals or self claimed people can’t be rapists, but with everything added onto this with the asexual blackberry on top would be the final nail in the coffin.

Plus an old post from the creator stated he could be asexual which I think is really great as we could use more representation and less sexualisation.

(This was literally the only other pic I found and I lost the better one I’m so sorry-)

Granted it could mean the outdated term of him not being into relationships at all but it would sorta still stand on the point he’s not very sexually attracted.

Then again- you find him sexy that’s fine too- hell I do at times, but don’t make him have every kink on the planet please-

Like imagine a reverse comfort of a breakdown episode with Toby, and the reader guiding his breathing back to normal and making him feel cared and SEEN. “I would miss you if you’re gone..” Feels pretty perfect for him- especially if you look at the art from the original creator. (Which you can find under Kastoway @ deviantart)

Not to mention how his childhood must’ve warped the perspective of normalcy to him. What do you meannnn it’s painful to scratch someone? It’s barely anything! What do you meannnnn you didn’t have you guard up around your dad and father figures? What do you meaaaaaan you and your siblings were the center of attention at home? What do you meaaaan your mom protected you-

Okay I’m sure you got my point here. But imagine the soul twisting and agonising psychological writing of angst this depresso can make-

And if you wanna make him kiss that wouldn’t be bad either-

[sappho-official]

dragon age is about to eat my brain for the next few months. what would you guys prefer:

should i post about dragon age: the veilguard on main?

yes (tagged & with spoiler tags)

no, go back to your ancient dragon age sideblog

i'm bald like solas (don't care)

Voting ended onOct 20, 2024

sideblog is @dreadwolftakeme and is really, truly ancient, like nearly a decade old. I'll probably change the url if i start using it again tbh

[varietyshiw]

okay pardon me for going all fandomy on my first post—but can we as a fandom talk about how Glam Metal Family is somehow accidentally some of the best OSDDID/plural rep i’ve literally ever seen?? in my life??

like. im kinda like having trouble organizing my thoughts bc it’s like 5 AM and i haven’t slept yet but just. look back through the series and read between the lines and you’ll find a lot of context clues/evidence supporting the theory

its like. “sebastian” was the original host and is the one who was geared more towards achieving perfection but a new alter named “glam” formed and took over when they listened to the record ches gave them, and then went on to rebel against their father and create a band and such. glam would be the ongoing host long into their adulthood as u can see by the way their style branched out and the way they interact with daily life.

not to say sebastian isn’t still there though! in the very first episode, when glam& is doing work in their office, they look a lot more dreary. they don’t hold glam’s signature smile and talk in a lower, more serious tone. this is a pretty good representation of sebastian’s presentation, and his role in stuff—he acts more behind the scenes, handling financial stuff and working. but he doesn’t actively front much, especially around others—unless he’s triggered out.

remember the box 37 scene?? when glam& opened it and kinda spaced out and then had a flashback for the next two episodes? i’m inclined to believe that the city model inside box 37 was something so personal to sebastian when he was host, that upon glam& seeing it, it was enough to trigger him out for a while and cause them to have a flashback. the way they slowly turned back and stared out the car window after seeing what was inside was on par to my experiences with dissociation, triggers, and flashbacks—just thought that was a pretty neat detail that added all that much more to the amazing rep :)

to sum it all up—being fully honest, if some movie producer wanted to make a series about a character with DID, i would point them directly towards glam. because glam lives a fulfilling life while managing their disorder. yes, they still struggle with their past and their symptoms. and yes, they are flawed in some ways. but they have a wife and kids that they love! they have hobbies, and friends! and best of all, they don’t kill people and are a normal fucking person in society! which is something we clearly don’t get with most plural rep.

really, the nifty thing about glam is that they struggle, they have symptoms that affect their life, and they’re a pretty flawed character—but they still live a good fucking life. which is, honestly? something i’d like to see way more in representation of people with DID.

BLEGGHHGJSGSHDH that was sure a lot of motherfucking wordbarf but thanks for reading it all!!

also i am so fucking excited for season 2 EEEEEE!!!!! i’m especially excited for the series to delve more into glam and ches’s past in season 2, kinda scared for the angst tho RIPPPP but that clip of the band getting excited over smthn in the trailer more than makes up for it lol :)

[beanchronicles]

How to find an istj in fiction

(i.e. a very long word barf about mbti)

Honestly, I know next to nothing about all the other myers-briggs types except my own, lol. But there's a lot of misinformation about mbti out there, and not a ton of good meta about fictional mbti in general, so lemme pop my two-and-a-half cents in here. (honestly though I've been thinking about this for a while and just wanted to get it out somewhere)

First of all, fictional characters are imperfect people in that no one is actually able to create a complete replica of a fully-functioning human (with all the different facets of their personality and stuff). A character is meant to be a part of a story, and each character is built for a specific purpose. So often, this makes it very hard to accurately type a character, because not only are they incomplete, they are also often inconsistent. BUT, we can try our best!!

Not every person within a type is the same. But in the case of fictional characters, I find there are a few similar tropes used that make it pretty easy to notice when they are an ISTJ.

The first one is that they almost always have some kind of personal moral code or concept that they follow to the ends of the earth. They take this "moral" very seriously, and a lot of their actions/backstory is oriented around it. If they are faced with a decision where they have to compromise this code, it gives them a lot of conflict. And in the situation where a previously-existing code of theirs gets suddenly disproven, they often are quite rattled by it and can become lost. If someone does something that is the opposite of their code (or conflicts with it), they often get irritated and can be condescending towards said character.

Secondly, they are often very forceful and often ruthless in implementing order (or in some cases, trying to convert people to their personal code). This is a behavior that is common for ESTJs and possibly some other types as well, but a key difference is that said ISTJ character only does it with a select few people that they encounter (i.e. the person they're stuck on an adventure with, or the person they're battling), whereas ESTJs are a lot more open with their correction. A key example of this is Iida Tenya from BNHA, an ESTJ. He is very open about keeping order, to the point of confronting people he doesn't know very well (getting on Bakugou's case about disrespecting the desks in the beginning, and directly telling Deku to stop muttering in front of a crowd of people). And Neji Hyuuga from Naruto, an ISTJ, only really conflicts with the people he's battling and the people in his team. Otherwise, he's pretty reserved. The same can be said for Uryuu Ishida from Bleach as well.

Thirdly, their past experiences (i.e. backstories) are very important and defining for them. This is a common thing for anime characters in general, but ISTJ characters usually take it farther than that, letting past events completely shape how they view the world and other characters.

Fourthly, they are almost always serious and quite reserved (though they are not always quiet).

There are other ways to figure stuff like this out too--in fact, some ISTJ characters you never get to know well enough to see these sides of their personalities, so you have to go off of other things. But for more main characters, these are the things I personally notice the most.

hope you found my random word barf of a meta useful lol.

[storfulsten]

idk nostalgic pony rambling sorry

so recently when I was sick and bed/couch-bound I watched netflix and in the sick state I wanted something chill to watch so for nostalgias sake I put on the first season of mlp which I haven’t seen in like 4 years or whatever. also watched the second and third season, which was as far as I got back when I was still in the fandom or whatever.

I used to be so into that stuff and it was so nice to watch it again, such a cute series my gosh.

kinda makes me wanna draw ponies again, but at the same time I don’t wanna join the fandom again or whatever? IDK it’s been a long time and I’ve missed out on too much to muster up any will to bother lol.

I wasn’t even that far into it back then either, pretty much all I did and was “known” for was drawing cute ship art vector things of Applejack and Pinkie Pie, heck ye ApplePie/PinkieJack was my jam ha. FlutterDash was always a close second but I never really did much of that ah well.

applepie was always a small ship back then though people did enjoy my stuff and it did get some love. though I guess since then there was that one ep that implies they might be distantly related so people stopped? haven’t watched the ep yet myself though probs will soon, but as far as I’ve understood it from what I’ve read it was never confirmed, and even if they were to be related it would be so distant it wouldn’t matter anyways (4th cousins twice removed by a 5th cousin something like that). idk still need to watch it but after all this time I’m pretty sure I won’t care or whatevs ha.

idk where I’m going with this, just felt like wordbarfing some I guess lol.

might start watching past season 3 soon, it’s gonna be all new stuff for me past that point. kinda exciting yet spooky lol. might end up doodling ponies again if it’s motivating enough, though chances are just as high I won’t so no idea abt anything atm.

ponies aside though I just need to get around to drawing something in general, haven’t gotten around to it much at all recently and for that I am sorry. even though I still ofc love it fnaf has kinda fallen to the side currently yet nothing has replaced it motivation-wise so rn it’s just eh in general. will try to get around to drawing something soon hopefully, no idea what but hopefully something lol.

meh that’s enough rambling feel free to ignore and all that lol have a nice day <3

[sappho-official]

that post about aspd reminded me the second worst presentation i ever saw at art school. it still makes me laugh/cringe

one quarter i took a fantastic basic-level psychology class as an elective, and one of our units was on mental illness. the professor made it EXTREMELY clear that she hadn't originally had this as a subject, but so many students had requested it over the years that she got tired and started including it. she did a great job at respectfully teaching about commonly stigmatized conditions like DID and ASPD and psychosis and the history of how we've treated various conditions, from medications to therapy over the past century or so.

the end of the unit had a project: make an art piece based on and do a presentation on a condition listed in the DSM-5*. the only required source was the DSM-5 itself, but the professor encouraged us to read about the lived experiences of people with the condition we were covering. simple enough.

*conditions outside of the DSM-5 were permitted with professor approval, and I actually did mine on grapheme synesthesia

SO presentation day goes through like normal. there was one piece allegedly about PTSD that was a pretty painting of an ice-covered rose that was very very obviously not painted for the assignment (which was against the rules) and the presenter was like "I guess the red of the rose represents blood and the ice is like uhh the shattered glass from the car crash?" not great but nothing too crazy

then this one girl gets up. she's done a digital piece so she brings it up on the projector. it's a line drawing of a girl pointing aggressively at another girl, who is cowering; something about it reminded me of a musical poster but I haven't been able to figure out which one. it was also like a photo collage, I think there were photographs inside the line drawings of the girls.

and so the presenter begins telling us about her piece which is about "Antisocial Personality Disorder" and how it makes you "scared to interact with people."

which is, uh

not what ASPD is.

if you're not aware, Antisocial Personality Disorder is what is sometimes colloquially referred to as being a s*ciopath (idk if that needs censoring but it's an outdated and not-great term so I'm leaning on the side of caution). the DSM-5's describes it as "a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others" which may not be a perfect definition, but most CERTAINLY is not what this girl was describing.

so she continues her presentation on social anxiety "antisocial personality disorder," and maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if she wasn't constantly like "antisocial people hide away from others due to a fear of being vulnerable" "antisocial people are scared that their friends secretly hate them" just REPEATEDLY using the word antisocial incorrectly. someone in the class actually tried speaking up in the middle of the presentation to be like "uh, that's not--" but was cut off. and need I remind you that this was a topic that had been covered IN THE CLASS ITSELF, and, sure, maybe she had missed a day but if she had just read the SINGULAR PAGE of the DSM-5 she was required to cite, she would have been fine!

when the presentation was done, the professor stopped the class for like 10 minutes to basically re-deliver the entire lesson on ASPD, just to make sure no one was confused. I have no idea what kind of grade that girl got, but it was rough to watch.

anyways, the worst presentation i saw at art school was in 1900s art history and involved a guy looking at marcel duchamp's Fountain (a picture of which HE HAD PUT INTO HIS PRESENTATION) and saying that it "looks kinda like a urinal"

it is a urinal.

[sappho-official]

i have gotten TWO WHOLE FANARTS of my fanfiction today....im cry

[sappho-official]

I’m suddenly having a very visceral memory of the Greek Philosophy class I took in my senior year of high school as an elective. It was the professor’s very last semester teaching, and he was this like 90 year old tiny British dude that everyone absolutely loved. Honestly I don’t remember jack shit about the class itself (besides something about the music of the spheres) probably because it was also my last semester and I had that Senior Spring in me, but I do remember some good moments:

One time we were having a class discussion where we were discussing the concept of “beauty.” People said shit like sunsets, mountains, art, that sorta stuff, and the professor says “Okay, what about Beyonce?” and honestly we were too surprised he knew who Beyonce was to even respond. He went on about how there are people that we view as beautiful, and asked us if we can name more beautiful people. This beefy football player in the back of the class piped up and said, “You, Mr. Cobbold!”

We had class at a cafe at one point, which was pretty rad, especially for a high school class. No idea why, I honestly think he just didn’t give a shit and it’s not like anyone would stop him.

For some reason, I think like the very last assignment (or the last one I actually did) involved, like, us writing an essay on which animal we were most like. I’m sure it had something to do with some philosopher, but I feel like that was just an assignment where he was trying to figure out who was a furry. Anyways, my academic fursona is a hedgehog.