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[kwills91]

February Fanfic Update

Words read: 2,770,215

Number of fics: 178

Most common fandom/pairing: Arcane - Jayvik

Words written: 96,573

Number of completed fics: 1

Number of new fics worked on: 4

Number of posted wips worked on: 2

[iloveyouok]

[interestedinthosegirls]

For the first time ever I’m realizing that I couldn’t keep up with you. You always wanted perfection and that wasn’t me. I was always trying to force myself to be something you wanted and was never trying to just be me. I felt my heartstrings pulling on all the things I loved about myself while I felt you pulling me towards mirrors I didn’t recognize myself in. Every time I tried to look away you tried to convince me that that was my face. My mind and body couldn’t stay in that place. I needed freedom and someone who loved me for me. Someone who showed rawness instead of filters. Someone who kept things natural instead of covered up. Someone who enjoyed the beauty of things instead of trying to make them your type of beautiful. My type of beautiful is existence, while yours was painting over the mountains like they weren’t the right shade of real. But it’s time for me to encompass that feeling, that growth, and that love of myself again. It’s time for me to move on.

[asiwithercrumbleandfade]

And perhaps if you start looking at the sun you can stop acting like the darkness destroyed you. It isn't all bad. It isn't all bad. I want to tell you but, please, stop screaming. You are making people run with your loudness, when all you try to do is capture a moment, you're grabbing it with a suffocating power. I am not trying to defy you. Can you believe me? I am not trying to humiliate you. I am merely trying to be your sun until you're able to be your own.

[diedraechin]

13, 15 and 17? ;D

13. How do you deal with writers block?

So for me there are two things… there is lack of desire to write at all or struggling with a scene and therefore unable to write it.  As far as lack of desire to write goes… I haven’t been able to figure out how to combat that.  I just have to wait until something screams “write me”.

But as for the sort of struggling with a scene or story element… I usually try to write something short but related to it.  It’s why the bysoti(d) drabbles are helpful.  Or sometimes it’s a matter of plotting.  I know A and I know D but B and C are eluding me, and then it’s all about finding a quiet place and time to think things through.

So really the biggest help with writers block for me is just having patience with myself.  If I start to get down on myself for not being able to write then I start to spiral into anxiety and self-doubt, but if I have patience, I know it may take a while, but the words will start to come again.  Faster than if I went into a state of self-flagellation.

15. Where does your inspiration come from?

Life.  I know that sounds weird or cliche, but really, for me, so many of the stories I’ve written center on just living.  I don’t usually tend to having a “big bad” or “enemy” because in my life and in the lives of the people around me, the biggest “enemy” tends to be themself.  Or a series of events that just wear down on a soul.  I like to tell stories where the goal is to overcome something and usually that thing is intangible.  And of course all of that goes on while the world and the people around the MC live their lives.  So it ends up complication on top of complication and if I do it right, I don’t need a “big bad” to make it compelling. 

Sometimes it’s prompts.  I’ll see a headcannon or a prompt that just says “write me” and it’s awesome when it works out, not so awesome when the itch to write it is there, but the words and story just aren’t coming…

17. On average, how much writing do you get done in a day?

It depends on the day.  How clear the chapter or piece is in my head.  For example: “everything that’s silver is not gold” took two days to write and was about 11k words.  By days, I mean a Friday night and a Saturday afternoon.  At the beginning of bysoti(d) when Yuuri’s life was simpler and the complications hadn’t started piling up, I could write a 5k word chapter in a day.

When I get going I can get 10k words written in a day.  And back in undergrad, I had nights when I wrote an entire 16k word fic in one sitting.

My writing tends to be very stop and go.  So I think, think, think, plot, organize, scribble notes, jot things down, think some more.  And this can go on for days or a week depending on how much nonwriting stuff I have on my plate.  Then I write.  And I usually can keep writing until I’m done.  I get into a groove and thousands of words just happen.

When that process gets interrupted (demon goat, anxiety, exhaustion, heat (I don’t deal with heat well)) then it’s a bit harder.  So I have stops and starts where I get between 500 and 1k words written.  Also the process can get interrupted if a scene isn’t flowing right.  (I was working on a skating scene last night, and the technicals got a little sticky, but mostly it was the character’s thought process that was ‘eh’, I’m still not 100% pleased with it, so I’ll probably do one of two things.  I’ll either go back and rework the scene that I’m unhappy with before moving on or I’ll move forward with the next scene, hope I get into a good groove and then go back and tweak based off the stuff that comes next.  Sometimes it’s easier to retcon a thought process instead of bash it out all at once.)

Ask me a writing question!

[nomtheburritos]

Words written in 2016: 341,436

Damn son. That’s like 10 years worth of writing as a teen.

[holdonaseckkay]

Blasphemous Congress with Heinous Things in the Woods