#wordsofsequoia

[unlikelyherogirl]

Fear

I have fear. Fear that someone I love will be hurt by something I said. I want to write and write without limits. But I find myself afraid to post what I have written because I’m afraid to not only hurt someone from my honesty but for others to know that I have that scar, that I have such a deep wound I am  a full grown adult still burning from pain of my adolescence. 

So much happened and so much has not changed. I write about the same thing over and over again. Part of me wants to set it free. The other part wants to keep it locked away where no one will ever find out about it.

[unlikelyherogirl]

Eleven years have passed and I still haven't saved myself. I'm still too alone to even have someone to ask for help when I so desperately need it."

Sequoia Red

[unlikelyherogirl]

It's so hard to keep living like this."

Sequoia Red

[unlikelyherogirl]

"I'm always the one you hurt, the one you’re rude to, because I’m the easiest. The nicest. The quietest. "

- Sequoia Red, taken from [I've Tried. It Hurts]

[unlikelyherogirl]

I ask myself questions pretending I’m someone else so it feels like someone cares enough to wonder why I write what I write. I’d say things like ‘I wrote such characters with trust worthiness because everyone I have ever trusted betrayed me and it hurt so badly I was sure I’d die sooner than I should. …’

- Sequoia Red - taken from [I’ve Tried. It Hurts.]

[unlikelyherogirl]

I had to tell someone I love more than anything...that I can't stay.

- Sequoia Red

[unlikelyherogirl]

What's the use in dreaming when no matter how hard you work, everything gets taken away from you?

- Sequoia Red

[unlikelyherogirl]

My heart aches...

- Sequoia R.