I hope death finds me soon. For unknown reasons. Where do broken souls go? Where do I belong to? I don't want to live this way, I have to live this way. I want to hold your hand and not tell you lies. Spread my ashes to a place where I have never been, the place I never mention. I don't like you, you never stop. You only stop when I don't want you to. Who do I indulge to? Are you here? On my fingertips? Are you gentle and soft? Like a soft breeze flowing through me? You run away, you have that person. I look stranger, you look stranger. On my fingertips. So far away to bring it to my heart. On my finger. It has stop beating. I feel nothing. It consumes me. I feel everything. I am mistaken about all of you, none of you. You are what I see. In my sweet ramblings, in my bitter truth. I don't feel like caring anymore. Forget about me. It's too late anyway. Where are you? I am searching. I am searching. I am standing alone. I like dark, but not when I can't see you in it. Who do I go looking for? I am so lost. There's a world with no one in it. I don't want you to come back. I want you to find me. Who am I talking to? Where do I exist? I feel inconsiderate. I should be thankful. I didn't want it. I don't want to ask of you anymore. Who are you? Who does even know me? I am not even lying, but I can't bare myself anymore to you. Where do I even stand? I came looking for you, you are not looking at me. Do I drown or do I soar? I smile. Do they even recognize me? I understand you. You are noise. I am hearing you. I don't want to. I want to. It's too late. I am always late. My legs hurt. I am breathing. Trust me. I combed my hair for you. When can I stop waiting? I don't want to seek you first. I pity you. I pity me. Do you pity me? You don't even think about me. You doubt. You always think, you never do. I am tired of you. I don't want to tell you anything more. I regret telling you. I can't tell you. I don't want to be good. I want to be strangers. I don't want your calls or your texts. I want to sit silently while you talk. I don't want to be seen, I feel insignificant. You know what I am. Why are you like this then? I don't have anyone to look back to. I just hope you can hold my hand sometimes. Why do I have to seek you out? I feel miserable. You forget about me. It's too late. I don't care. I care too much. You don't even try to help. You don't even try. I don't even want to meet you right now. Pull away and leave me. You are not worthy. I am not worthy. I am crying. I am crying. I am crying. Where are you? Help me find you. Hold my hand. You are leaving again. Why? You never hear me. I don't like you. I love you. I don't like you. I look back and don't see anyone. All because of you. All because of me. I only have me. I have to love myself to the world's end because no one else would.
