tell me what to do
i’m always either ice cold
or burning fire
and it tires me to tremble so
and to dance for so long with the flames
i sometimes feel nothing
for so long
i think i forgot what is it like
to have joy
or grief
but it only takes a second
for all the things i didn’t feel
for a month
to come back
all at once
do you know what is like to shiver
when you are burning?
i am never satisfied
neither with emptiness
or fullfilment
please teach me
teach me not to love
the chaos i build around myself
teach me not to long
for the feeling
teach me to love the peace
please
for all i know is emptiness
but never calm
tell me how do i live
how do we live
how do people live
inside their heads?