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#home cooked hijinks #wugh.#i want to live in a way thats like dying. i want to die ina way thats like living. i want to blow something up #they should invent a way to satisfy my mute and imperceptible desire for [???]#they should invent a me[??] maybe. like a better one

so like. something i wanted to include but felt just a taaaaad too personal for that siffrin post is that like. i am disabled. and my shit is shit youre born with, but the thing is its like. progressive. and there was a period in my life where i realized that i just. couldnt do a lot of the things i used to be able to do.

like i used to go on walks around my neighborhood and stuff and i eventually got to the point where that just wasnt fucking possible anymore. i cant sit for too long or stand for too long and i have to make a conscious effort to hold up my head.

and like. do you have any idea how fucking frustrating that is? how EMBARRASSING it is? to know you could do something once and now its almost impossible? it makes it so unbelievably easy to be mad at yourself. because you could do those things once, you could and it was easy. so you should be able to do them still! but you cant! and now its all gone and you feel like a toddler learning how to walk for the first time.

it feels like its your fault that its happening. that if you just tried harder itd fix is. but it wouldnt! itd just make everything worse! but youre so mad at yourself about it!!!!

#rant #ish. i guess.#internalized ableism #i talk pretty vaguely about the shit thats up with me on here because im still kinda learning to like. be okay with it.#i guess?#but i dunno i guess thats one of the parts of sif that i see myself in. this idea that its your fault that your disability has disabled you #that its some kind of moral failing on your part.#wugh.#basil babbles

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#wugh.#physically can't do words anymore. just mgh...#endless chatter

My acting class is talking a lot about what it means to grow and mature and I honestly measure a lot of my growth in my art's growth. So... I felt the desire to rework a six year old character of mine.

(psst! you can check under the cut for a look at her old designs!)