oh please can you write something with ace jimmy olsen 🙏 maybe something where he and reader are both ace and reader helps jimmy realise he is, or one where he’s worried about not being enough only for the reader to also be ace 💜
Relationship(s): asexual!Jimmy Olsen x gn!asexual!reader (romantic)
Summary: You and Jimmy have been on a few dates now. He decides it's time to tell you something important. Based on past experiences, he's afraid that it's a dealbreaker.
Warnings: Referenced acephobia; internalised acephobia; ace-related dating struggles; food/eating. (Let me know if I need to add any)
Word count: 1.2k
(A/N: As I've mentioned in a previous post, I love the interpretation of Jimmy being on the ace spectrum. He's what I like to call a 'Jessica Rabbit asexual', in that he is canonically very attractive to other people, but that sexuality is imposed upon him more than it's something he experiences for himself. It's one of my favourite ace character types. Also, this isn't me saying that you have to interpret Jimmy as being ace or that I think that he is or should be canonically ace. But, as an ace person, I think it's a neat way to think about his character. And, on that note, I have to add the disclaimer that this is very much from my own experiences and feelings around my own asexuality. Apologies if you're an ace reader and you don't like my portrayal of asexuality. I do admit, the few ace!reader fics I've written are centred around insecurity and/or coming out, so apologies if you're tired of that kind of fic. Of course, if you have any requests, ace-based, Jimmy-based or not, my inbox is always open!)
Jimmy couldn’t help but think something was wrong with him. He attracted women so effortlessly – an everyday superpower that most men would give a whole arm for. And, as sweet and pretty as most of these women were, he couldn’t bring himself to do what he was expected to do with their attention. Whether they knew it or not, he tried so hard to make it work, but ultimately he couldn’t. Some of them were patient and understanding. Some of them thought he’d messed around with their feelings. If he wasn’t so confused and so in his own head about what the hell was the matter with him, he might have felt even guiltier about it.
Was he even attracted to women? The question had popped up in his mind a few times. Maybe if he got propositioned by someone who wasn’t a woman, that would be that. He’d be fully into it. He’d just be one of those gay dudes who women couldn’t help but fall for. But, he wasn’t gay, either. That's not to say he was straight. When he thought about it, he liked the idea of dating anyone, no matter what their gender was. His problem – the thing he couldn’t get over – was the whole thing of him not being all too eager about sex, contrary to what people might assume given his strange magnetism.
Sex was this vital aspect of relationships – Jimmy knew that. And, he knew, if he didn’t feel sexual attraction to anyone, and if sex wasn’t part of any ideal future relationship he might have, it’d be a dealbreaker for a lot of people. It had been. So, to stick himself with a label that could potentially doom him and his prospects at finding a relationship… well, as much as the label resonated with him, and as much comfort as he found in knowing that he wasn’t alone, he was a little scared, truth be told.
This worry loomed over him as he started to fall for you. It was why he held off on asking you out, because it seemed unfair to be the one to initiate anything with you if he knew full well that he wouldn’t be able to give you what all of his past partners had wanted. But, as always, he only had to wait for you to ask him. You were so nervous that he’d have felt cruel turning you down – not to mention, of course, he really did want to go out with you. And, so he did. He was so charmed by you that, after a few dates, he almost— almost— forgot about the issue of sex. But, the more he felt himself falling for you, the guiltier he felt. There wasn’t any reason for him to feel guilty, of course.
Regardless, that guilt is why he found himself sitting across from you at a quaint little diner – his suggestion, his treat. As he’d hoped, it was pretty much deserted, besides a group of four teenagers sitting on the opposite side of the diner and the two waitresses who were busying themselves by cleaning tables. The pair of you sat in silence as you ate. It would have been comfortable if Jimmy wasn’t agonising over the idea of telling you about the thing that had ended so many promising relationships. Even though he was close to full, he wished he had another burger or another serving of fries to keep his mouth out of action. But, he knew that it’d be better for the both of you if he just got this over with. Delaying the inevitable would only make things worse.
“So, uh—” He cleared his throat. “I think I’d better tell you something before things get too serious.”
“Sure.” You covered your mouth as you spoke, the last bite of food still mushed up in your mouth. “Is everything okay?”
He scratched his eyebrow and let out a nervous chuckle.
“Yeah. No. I mean, I don’t know.”
You grabbed your napkin and scrubbed the corners of your mouth and your fingers, conscious of the fact that you didn’t want to have shit all over your face when Jimmy was talking about something serious.
“What’s up?”
“I… I don’t know how to explain it all that well. But, I, uh, I guess… people assume I’m, like, some ladies man and that I sleep around. Maybe you do too. But, actually, I’m not into… sex.”
You nodded.
“Okay.”
“I like you – I really like you,” he added, panic in his tone. “But, not in a way that involves sex… And… if that’s a dealbreaker for you, that’s okay. I just… I figured I should tell you now, before things go too far.”
As he awaited his fate, he looked anywhere but at you. Though, the second you spoke, his eyes darted straight to you.
“I don’t wanna put words in your mouth or make you label yourself or anything but… are you asexual?”
“Probably. Yeah.”
“What about aromantic?”
He shook his head.
“No. Just—just… asexual.”
You noticed his hesitation to use the word and you offered him a small, reassuring smile. He’d barely said the word aloud before – about himself, anyway. It’d cycled through his head plenty of times but it still scared him with how definitive it felt, no matter how accurate it was to his experience. Every time he’d tested it out, it filled him with nerves as much as it relieved him, in the way that only the truth could.
He knew there was nothing wrong with him or any other ace person. Not everyone agreed with that, and even those who were accepting of asexuality weren’t always open to dating ace people. The people he attracted tended to fall in that latter camp. At the very least, it was nice to be met with support even when it was, more often than not, the end of things, like with any incompatibility in a relationship. He couldn’t begrudge anyone for their needs in a relationship, in the same way he hoped they didn’t begrudge him for his, but he couldn’t deny that it hurt.
“Well,” you said. “I don’t want to take away from your moment or anything, but this is probably a good time to tell you that I’m asexual.”
Jimmy stared at you for a moment before replying.
“You’re asexual?”
“Yep.”
“So…”
“So, you don’t have to worry about sex with me, okay? The feeling’s mutual. No offence. Your charms only work so much on me.”
At that, Jimmy let out a much needed laugh. His posture relaxed as all that built-up tension left his body. A wobbly smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Tears brimmed his eyes. You reached across the table and grabbed his hand; you knew exactly how he felt, having been in his position plenty of times. It broke your heart that he’d been so nervous, no doubt from rejection after rejection. It wasn’t all doom and gloom for ace people, of course – this moment was evidence of that – but it sure felt like that sometimes. You’d be lying if you denied getting a little choked up as well.
would think ur making excuses at first for not being ready & honestly he would think reason you don't want to do it w him is bc hes vamp & he could hurt you( thats not a reason at all )
he has some patience, so he would wait for the day you would want to do it w him( which never came )
when he tried to be more sexual w u, he would touch ur waist & play w ur belt, which u noticed pretty quickly & u told him to stop cause it makes u feel weird & uncomfy
he would get so confused after that, he doesn't understand why would that make u feel those feelings
when you told him abt ur asexuality, same as Paul he thought u were making an excuse
after somewhile he from those “excuses” made some jokes from them & ur asexuality, which almost cause u to leave him
if u did leave him, that would become all of its own issue, but if u didnt u sat him down in his nest & explained everything abt asexuality u knew
after explaining ofc he would have questions, “so you would never have sex?” “yeah” “not even with me?” “not even with you or anyone Marko” “:(” “i still like kissing you and holding you're hand and other non-sexual stuff” “:)”
it would basically went like that, after that he understood & was careful to not make u uncomfy
him & Paul would def make nsfw jokes w u( if u don't mind them )or around u but would stop if they make u uncomfy
Today I've been made feel bad for being ace, so I'll be postponing a bit the requests and start working on a bunch of characters x ace reader for some well-needed asexual positivity and the sake of my own mental health
I thought of making some slashers, some from marvel or some from genshin. If you have any preferences you can send them to my inbox <3
