"Naïve."
Darth maul x Former jedi! reader
Notes: Unreliable narrator, angst, forbidden love, breaking the jedi code, oneshot (might do a part 2? Dunno), not much maul in this 😔, short, set a little bit after order 66, gender neutral reader, might also do a prequel of reader and Maul reuniting during the clone wars.
Pain. And sadness.
Those were the only things that followed you now. No laughter, no cheap jabs, not even a tight smile. You were a shell of your former self. You almost scoffed as you went down memory lane. You were naive and rebellious back the–having grown up in the order since you were two, you longed for the outside world, yearned to have one normal night. You never knew what it felt like so you continuosly pushed your master and the council for it, complaing about the code. They scolded you constantly, and as you grew you stuck to your views, you could never grow out of them. And after one particular scolding from a council member—looking back on it you couldn't believe they let you stay in the order—you left the temple in the middle of the night. Finding yourself in a seedy underground bar. And that's where you met him. He was quiet and unnerving, but he had this arua around him that spoke to you. And he...he wanted you.
He gave you what you desired, handed it to you on a silver platter, and you....oh you...you ate it straight out of his hand. You were intoxicated with passion, drunk on it. And he was the mastermind behind it. Whispering sweet nothings into your ear, making you feel safe, loved, comforted. And making you forget. Forget he was sith. Forget about the code. Forget about your master. So he could turn you. Design you into what you hated and stand by his side. And you could not let that stand.
"Was it all a lie!?" You shouted, your light saber in hand as he stood there speechless. He couldn't move. He was stuck in place, his pupils dilated as he stared at you. You almost felt sorry for him. Almost. "Be reasonable!" He shouted. "It was nothing like that! And you know it!" The rest of your fight was a blur. The only thing you can remember after that is running. Running as fast as you can, while tears flew down your face.
You could sometimes still hear him screaming your name in quiet moments. And sometimes you swore you could feel his presence. And it was gnawing at you, had he found you through the bond? No...No you shut off the bond years ago! It couldn't be possible. You shivered slightly, your arms wrapping around you as you sat down in an alleyway. You had nowhere to stay, no money, and no food. Maker, you had spent your last credits getting to this kriffing planet! You groaned as your mind continued to wander, before gently closing your eyes for just a few seconds then opening them again. And yet when you opened them again you were still alone.
How far you had fallen from grace.
