For the second time in those short hours, the world as Joan knew it narrowed to the density of a single thread.
She could hear him in the back of her mind - her husband, whose voice she would know even if she were deafened; whose connection to her went beyond sire to sired, beyond the realm of spirit and soul. She could feel his every word reverberating like they were being written on the inside of her skull. I don't give one good god damn about his plan, get back inside this goddamn buildin' b'fore I come get you.
The thought passed from her mind in the flicker of a heartbeat before it all went to hell. What if he does it? As if she wasn't privy to the flame-flicker of Remmick's memories in her periphery -- the Celtic Hare, North Carolina, Neshoba -- what if he does what he's been hopin' t'do? What if I can see her?
The stake didn't land where it should've.
That was what she told herself as a wave of agony overtook her, a pain so intense it congealed the hazy present into part of a memory. Fever-sick and trembling, gripping a fistful of his shirt. The nausea of wrongness; the pressure of a too-small infant struggling her way into the world.
She had gripped Pearline. Taken a handful of the youngest vampire's dress as though the silk would be grounding. All the while mixing the past with the present - pale-gone lips parted over too-sharp teeth. The way he said her name when he needed her to focus. Familiar pain, worse than backin' up into the potbelly stove in the old house when she an' her brother played too rough - but almost the same. Heat.
Like a physical sensation, she felt him struggling to move. To get up and go to her; to drag her back inside by her sleeve if he was capable. The whirl of panic, bein' beside her while she was in labor, blocking the door as Remmick's teeth sunk into his tender throat. Only times he hadn't been able t'save her.
Seconds. Precious seconds. Still holding on, barely conscious of the act, Joan pulled. The hoarse sound she made might've been coherent. It might've been run. It might've been directed at the others. Cornbread. Mary and Stack. People she should've felt all wrapped up in her, but couldn't. Everything was a swirl of Remmick's pain amplified and multiplied by the sweet new kiss of flame.
Little heels not meant for digging into soft earth sunk deep only to pull out jagged. Lungs that didn't need air struggled to push out enough. Go go go please I'm comin' Jo-- please I'm comin' heat God pain no.
The barn doors became heaven's blasphemed gates. And Joan became aware of her eyes, of the transparent membrane separating her consciousness from his, from Remmick, from anyone and everyone else. She could do nothing but give the young woman whose arm she'd gripped a curse-breaking shove into the ever-vanishing dark.