#xsoftventhavenx

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fulfilment: either murder or get murdered

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radfems really do say the dumbest shit and it would be so funny if it weren't so sad

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anyone remember the doctor who episode where the fat just walks away? how my body felt this morning, literally, i have no idea how it's physically possible to lose 1,5kg over night while being overhydrated

is this my metabolism jump starting because goddamn

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murder mutilation vr game

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my body is lucky i'm so dedicated to working out. anybody who called me lazy while i was actually ✨deathly ill✨ can eat my gym shorts

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literally the worst thing about having no friends is having zero links to dealers

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life sucks when you're stressed out of your mind and don't even have the time to reblog gore

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here it is here's the pinned post:

warnings & dni:

hi, i'm bug i'm 24, non binary (they/them pronouns) and i post horrible horrible things & you should probably block me (you should definitely block instead of reporting if that is your mo)

i especially would like minors not to interact and to just block on sight because i'm not responsible & not a good influence especially as this is my place where the bad stuff goes so i can appear normal irl

tw/cw for: - ed content (my situation is v complicated but i'm not pr0 never will be pr0), i reblog -spo privately but if the occasional post slips through i'm sorry, i mention calories regularly

- v negative mental health content, i have several mental disorders (+ autism) for none of which i'm receiving professional treatment currently

- trauma stuff, flashback logs, dream logs

- vents & vent reblogs

- anime & irl gore (graphic)

- occasional nsfw content but that's not a main focus of the blog

- mentally concerning & unhinged content in general

please dni if any of this bothers you, this is my bad place where the bad stuff goes to keep it contained, i would hate to drag anyone down who isn't on this path already.

that being said if what i post resonates with you (and you're 18+!) feel free to shoot me a dm or ask

stats:

hght: 1.65m

b: 83

w: 64

h: 85

sw: ~57

sw2: 51,5 x

gw 0.5: 51 x

gw 1: 50

gw 1.1: 49

gw 1.2: 48

gw 2: 47

gw 2.1: 46

ugw: 45

my "soft recovery" rules (for myself!):

- >1200cal while remaining within defecit most days with occasional <1000cal "cheat days"; aim for weekly averages of 1400-1600cal

- stretching every day

- exercise every day (workout, walk dog or both)

- concentrate workouts on HIIT, ab & thigh slimming exercises, glute building exercises, cardio stamina + general strength & back strength builing exercises

- increase pace when walking dog

- regular probiotics!

- green tea & honey every morning

- high protein & fiber - aim for (>)2g protein per kg bodyweight per day (vegetarian diet)

- 7k steps per day & raise to 10k with time

- >5 flights of stairs per day

- 7-8 hours sleep a night & get up latest at 9am

- chew gum whenever possible (without overdoing it)

- smoke more weed for appetite; eat whole fruits, vegetables, eggs & nuts

- diet coke for extra energy & satiety on intentional low cal days, especially when eating out

- isotonic drinks, protein shakes, protein bars, vegan skyr with protein/peanut butter powder & fruit smoothie packs for boosting cal intake on unintentional low cal days

- always get fast food (vegan) after tattoo appointments

- do short bursts of cardio/muscle training when doing nothing while waiting around, etc.

- hiking vacations/city vacations with a lot of walking - take transportation to and from vacation spot and while there travel from a to b only on foot (unless impractically far)

- eventually buy vr headset to play beatsaber for fun upper body training

- eventually buy chin up bar