#xyai

[badamore]

two (2) meme

tagged by @xyai​

1. what countries have you lived in singapore all my life!

2. your favourite fandom(s) i have only ever been an active participant™ in the yoi fandom tbh. i used to just quietly reblog aph fanart and marvel edits but now you have to deal with my shitposting

3. what language(s) can you speak english! i can speak enough chinese to get by (read: order food, answer questions) but probably not hold a conversation lmao

4. your favourite film of 2016 rogue one and cacw god i’m mainstream

5. what’s the last article you read this pdf article about balinese cockfighting my friend linked me

6. shuffle your music library and put your first three songs here the reckoning - getaway plan, what’d i miss - hamilton, emperor’s new clothes - patd

7. the last thing you bought online ordered an yoi art print for my friend’s birthday!

8. do you have any phobias or fears mild agoraphobia

9. how would your friends describe you one of them told me ‘you’re quite the quiet achiever’ and i felt Validated

10. how would your enemies describe you temperamental at best

11. who would you take a bullet for i don’t need an excuse to take a bullet buddy. shoot me

12. if you had money to spare, what would you buy first alcohol, also possibly insurance

tagging @elaeye, @fireblazie, @kixboxer

tagged by @polishcrown​

Relationship status: single girl seeks good dog

Pets: i would like a dog!!!! any dog!!! big dogs small dogs they are all beautiful. every stray dog in the world is now my dog

Last song I listened to: the steven universe ending song ;;

Favourite tv show: b99! ah what a good pure show

First fandom: i’m pretty sure it was death note? i also recall however that 7yo me watched the first narnia movie no less than 3 times in cinemas

Hobbies: depression

tagging @queerryouta, @rrozeselavy, @gripsyched 

thanks for the tags!!

[bettsfic]

Hello! I've been spending all afternoon reading your writing advice posts and finding them really helpful. I'm considering an MFA program myself, and I'm wondering how you decided which programs to apply to?

honestly i went about the process all wrong out of necessity. for me it was all about money and location, but ideally you should choose an MFA based on writers you want to work with. if i had gone in with that mentality, i would have applied to Vanderbilt to work with Lorrie Moore probably.

when i started, i just kinda took notes and bookmarked links, and then after getting an idea of what the MFA was all about, decided to make tiers of priority.

PRIORITY 1: funding

i knew if i had to pay for school, it was a dealbreaker for me. i wanted a masters degree, but not at the expense of going into more debt i couldn’t afford to pay. so i eliminated every school that didn’t have full funding, which preferably included a teaching assistantship so i could get pedagogical experience. there aren’t a whole lot of fully funded creative writing MFAs in the US, so that narrowed down my search significantly.

PRIORITY 2: location

of the handful of fully funded MFAs, i knew i preferred not to move, because i own a house and it would be an agonizing endeavor to try and sell it, and moreover due to the current mortgage market, i knew i would end up losing money in the deal. BUT i’ve always wanted an excuse to move south anyway, preferably california. so i applied to some additional schools in the south, figuring selling my house was Future Betts’ Problem. thankfully it didn’t come to that.

there were three fully funded MFA programs within driving distance of me, and by that i mean a significant commute but not unmanageable, as long as i only had to go to campus 2 or 3 times a week. i ended up applying to 2 of the 3 MFAs in driving distance because the third required a higher GRE score than i had, and i didn’t want to retake the GRE.

i also applied to 2 schools in louisiana and 1 in california. of the 5 schools i applied to, i got accepted to 1, which happened to be the one closest to where i lived and also, coincidentally, where i already had friends, so it wasn’t nearly the massive life change i had psyched myself out to be. 

what i did wrong

i was so convinced i was wasting my time applying to grad school that i sabotaged myself by not doing my best work (i didn’t think i would get in). this is something i do a lot. what i mean is, i should have researched the faculty of each of the schools i applied to, read their work, and personalized my cover letters more thoroughly. if i had done that, i would have known that i was a shoe-in for the school i got accepted to, because the faculty is a bunch of experimentalists who value transgression. 

but then again, i didn’t really know what experimentalist or transgressive fiction even was at the time, so i’m not sure i would have been able to pair my work at the time with the faculty’s.

and that’s another thing i did wrong: i went in without having any clue what i actually wanted to write or why i wanted to write it. i think that’s totally ok, by the way, you don’t have to know. but it would have helped the application process if i had spent a little bit of time and did more research on authors i admire. 

i hope this helps! let me know if you have more questions!

[badamore]

aubreyli replied to your post: Kidfic

THIS IS QUALITY LITERATURE RIGHT HERE. I LOVE YOU.

dadvans replied to your post: Kidfic

this is the best thing i have ever had the privilege to read with my own two eyes oh my god

xyai replied to your post: Kidfic

KEVYSTEL……….

it had to be done

[badamore]

xyai replied to your post: shit i am so excited about this magical coffeeshop...

am i currently in a champagne-induced dream

I’M GONNA DO IT

IT’S GONNA HAPPEN

[elaeye]

Alphabet meme

Since I haven’t done a meme in ages and @goldfalling tagged me~

A - Age: 23
 B - Biggest Fear: Stagnation and not living up to my potential or being my best self 
 C - Current Time: 2:37pm
 D - Drink you last had: Chicken soup - sadly, leftovers so the chicken got overcooked in the reheating process E - Easiest person to talk to: Hmm…probably my close friends
 F - Favorite song: (of the moment bc I don’t really have a fave song ): the Yuri on Ice free skate theme #shameless
 G - Grossest memory: once I was too intently staring at my phone as I was walking to the station at night and slipped and fell through someone’s vomit that had been left in the middle of a public walkway and then I had to endure a 30min train ride home before I could wash the coat properly. I almost burned the coat but it’s a nice coat so I just washed it about 10 times /shudder 
H - Horror yes or horror no: Yes but I have v picky tastes. I don’t like gore for the sake of gore and it’s a rare movie that will truly frighten me
 I - In love: Not right now
 J - Jealous of people: Yeah, I guess so. But I try to turn it into motivation 
K - Killed someone: WITH FEELS, yes. With tools, no lol 
L - Love at first sight or should I walk by again: HAH. I wish I could say the former but I’m not really the type to do that so. Walk by again. And again. 
 M - Middle name: Its a secret : P 
N - Number of siblings: one younger brother
 O - One wish: To not have to worry about money
 P - Person you called last: My parents, probably
 Q - Question you’re always asked: “What are you studying?“ Gotta love networking =__= 
R - Reason to smile: it’s summer so no uni, @xyai is coming to visit in LESS THAN 2 WEEKS \o/
 S - Song you last sang: …..History Maker >___>
 T - Time you woke up: 7AM 
 U - Underwear color: black lol
 V - Vacation destination: I want to go to London…… one day 
W - Worst habit: Dermatilomania ; __ ; it’s been better lately 
X - X-rays had: Teeth
 Y- Your favorite food: Don’t really have one! Maybe my mum’s char siu? 
Z - Zodiac sign: Leo (but v likely a Virgo cusp)

[axelsandwich]

"#I ALSO WANT DAMEN TO HAVE THE PUFFIEST SPARROW BUTT OF THEM ALL" lae i'm so proud to call you my friend

The highest praise

[lantekt]

xyai replied to your photo: “I would court you, with all the grace and...

it’s been a full 3 minutes and I’m still staring

yes, yes damen is, after all, all charm. ; ) 

[axelsandwich]

for the fandom meme: W R Y

WELP TY 4 CHOOSING THE PROMPT ABOUT KINKS this is why it took me like 2 days

W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships

So trying to answer this question made me realise I………don’t have a lot of go-to kinks omg, I am basically a ‘I KNOW IT WHEN I SEE/LIKE ONE and then promptly forget about it’ person =____=;; ……..I tried.

laurent/damen - their entire UST-laden relationship. also hands. and necks/collarbones. i don’t know what specifically. but these body parts are a thing

shinkane - deadly assassin rivals AU where they have impeccable, bond-level suit game (akane in a ladysuit) and hidden weapons in their clothes………

merthur - spitfire relationship and possessive!protective!arthur

PIERCING, UST-RIDDEN EYE CONTACT while attempting to carry on as normal (specifically re: that scene from Kill Your Darlings in the library) - general purpose application

For that matter, the entire Ginsberg/Lucien dynamic from KYD - careless, magnetic heartbreaker boy casually breaking hearts 

R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships

This is so hard because I rarely ship and also the internet ships all sorts of things so I’m pretty sure someone has shipped it. But. Umm. There was a brief and glorious period of time when I shipped Changmin/IU.  

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)

MCU (I have watched a couple of the movies but haven’t really engaged properly in the fanlore), One Direction (Larry specifically because a tumblr I once followed for a different fandom became this), Haikyuu and some other sports anime, Star….Trek…….. (sort of…….)