𝒀𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝑨𝒍𝒑𝒉𝒂𝒃𝒆𝒕 - 𝑨𝒍𝒖𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒅 (𝑯𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈)
Heavily inspired/taken by my several Yandere Alucard posts.
𝑨𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏? 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒈𝒆𝒕?
Affection isn't something Alucard is familiar with.
From the moment he was born, affection and love were taken from him by war and greed. Any form of touch he endured was brute violence - he, too, chose to become a creature strung along by blood and destruction, long before making an oath with the night. He knew nothing of love, of good love - born out of kindness and not the fear of the afterlife.
Even now in his endless pursuit of death, he leaves behind seas of blood. The act of ripping apart an enemy that may be on the same level as him and free him of his wretched existence is galvanizing. What is there to love if all want a taste of what it feels like to be him? Dracula. Alucard. An endless, foolish pursuit for power forming you into a crying, hissing child desperate for more.
So, he must contain himself. Must hold back as his hand sinks to your face and remind himself not to curl it into a fist, not to grab your skull or throat and make it pop. No, he cups and caresses, letting his thumb brush any fear away. It's not that he doesn't know himself, the awe and strength he carries, nor that he cannot control himself. He can...but the mere act of affection as humans do is foreign. Never did he hold nor was he held like this as a human as well.
Slow, calm and at peace. A warmth unlike any other, unlike blood running down his arms. The back of his fingers brushing your cheek, a lock of hair tucked away from your face or a hand on his chest and offering a deep bow. Alucard is deadly silent in any affectionate gesture, in any tribute of love and respect yet it feels like the calm before the storm. His expression either an unreadable, slack gaze or an arrogant beam as he is hooked on your every possible reaction of his reminding gestures. What do you think, what will you say? Awe, rejection, mutuality, terror?
Your reactions are a mystery just as his are. Whatever you may feel at being the object of his affections, the moment he rises from his deep bow and the glint of his fangs reflect in the moonlight, you fear for whatever may happen next, what he'll say next. Alucard is a wild card in battle and the ways of the heart - how could he not be? He's a vampire, a creature of the night, a monster! He doesn't understand the human heart and never has!
His hand rises from his chest and he pulls out his pistol to shoot a ghoul near you. The fingers brushing away your tears leave a trail of blood, leaving your skin crawling. The moment he tucks away some hair, he proclaims you his with that disgusting grin on his face.
Alucard's affections are calm and cold. There's no one else in the world but you, no one to get between as the vampire will simply snuff out their lives at any attempt. It's peaceful to him even as you tremble in fear. This could almost simulate real, human love. Even as he grins and his eyes glow with a vacant, milky light he could maybe, maybe with enough hope make out reciprocity, a love only a human could feel and give him.
𝑩𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈?
What a pointless question.
There isn't anything that could stop Alucard, nor want him to stop. He, for the beast that he is, takes great pleasure in ripping apart anything that gets in his way. Human, ghoul, vampire, men, women, young, and old...there's no line he wouldn't cross, no guilt he'd bear, nothing if not an exhiliriating rush as he applauds his target and eats up the distance between them with a calm gait. How bold. How daring, and interesting, and utterly foolish of them! For their grand naivety Alucard shall show them the error of their ways, the fatal mistake they've made by deciding to threaten, harm or take you away from him.
He ravishes the look of terror and despair in their eyes! How their once confident look distorts and shrinks into pleas for mercy - or even to the audacity to question why, oh why, Alucard the darkness itself, chooses a human above all else! That is a secret only for him to know.
He stomps bodies into puddles of blood all for the both of you. To protect you, to shield you from any unneeded fear you'll never have to have at his side, to cleanse your name from idiotic vampires that know nothing of you. And, he also does it for himself - not only to feel the thrill of the kill - but also to see your face distort into horror. See for what he is. See the monster that chose you and that you have accepted! This is his true form and how he really is! A grotesque being willing to paint an entire country red all for you. Would you still look at him with all but fear? Still touch him with gentleness and speak from your human heart despite all that he is and is willing to cause just for you?
All this blood...it's for you.
𝑪𝒓𝒖𝒆𝒍𝒕𝒚: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒅𝒖𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅? 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎?
How your abduction went is a bit of an interesting story.
Alucard does not need to confine you into one room, or apartment, or entire mansion. He does not need to hide you in the woods or in a tower by the sea. All he needs to do is choose to...love you.
No, by choosing you, you are now bound to him. Be it through and oath, by blood or by a claim all made on his own. You are his and as long as you may live you will never, ever escape him. He shall tag along in your hopefully long journey until death.
His being alone is enough to chain you to him. His powers, his behaviour, him simply being the Alucard. A giant shadow cast upon darkness itself, a nightwalker lulled by the screams of his own kind, a horrendous fiend and devil scorching the ground and lead by his own whims...
Even before he was the Hellsing's lapdog or Count Dracula...long before your birth he used to be terrifying too, as Vlad the Impaler. It seemed from the moment he took a step on this earth he was meant to be much more than a mortal.
The vampire is quite fond of mockery.
From your helplessness to your naivety but never, ever about your mortality or lack of powers. He may make fun of you for your pitiful attempts of escape and overpowering him but Alucard harbors a deep respect for your humanity and your will to keep it. He respects your heart's strength and cares very little about the lack of power you hold; Wether you can shoot anyone down or not. Your physical weakness is not a weakness to him but a simple byproduct of your mortal self.
Though any attempts of proving yourself stronger...or insulting him and talking back does leave him snickering. How courageous you are. It's almost as endearing as it is laughable. While he doesn't hold any dislike for mortality he is aware of the simple fact that he is stronger than you. A walking catastrophe that could kill you if you were anyone else, so please, my dear...don't make a fool out of yourself.
However, only the minority of his mockery is malicious. Most of the time he is having fun. Good, old fun riling you up and enjoying the role of a beast that holds your heart and your life in his hands.
𝐷𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔: 𝐴𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑏𝑑𝑢𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛, 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑦 𝑑𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔’𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙.ᐣ
There's "only" a few things he will do, mostly because he deems it utterly needed.
Alucard doesn't want you to...truly hate him. Not actively, or rather, not in a way that he can prevent. He never would've fallen for you if you truly, truly hated him from the bottom of your heart. Somehow you found a way to touch his soul, after all, and that wouldn't have been possible without your heart. Without...kindness, gentleness, pity, your own morals of what is right. You hold such strength and little hatred for a thing that is more or less a little, weeping child who's hunger cannot be sated.
He wants you to stay the same. The same human who he became obssesed with in that exact moment - it was perfect, so don't ever change, don't ever hate him.
But some things are non-negotiable, my dear.
For one, Alucard must kill any threats. That cannot be evaded once you are in his clutches and come in contact with Hellsing, vampires, ghouls and common folk that dare claim themselves his 'enemies'. Anyone who wants to harm one hair on your head is dead, including those that may be harmless but want you for themselves as well. His sincerest apologies, but it has to be done and Alucard will do it his way. Bloody and monstrous, just like how he is. Even as you beg for their mercy, scream that they're innocent, he does not care. They will die. That's how it must be. Either for your safety or for the fact that he doesn't like the thought of someone being out there and wanting you as well, let alone have access to you. Possessiveness and greed overcome him in moments like these and the act of killing them can either leave him lavish their end or a strange, hollow feeling in his chest.
Of course, he cannot let you get away. This is a smaller concern of his since Alucard knows there's literally nothing you can do to escape him. He is too invincible, too forceful, too obsessed with you. Until death does you part.
Keeps you away from family and friends. He sees you still having contact with them as pointless since he's always hovering over you. Stalks through the shadows, enters your privacy through walls or watch over you in your sleep in the dead of the night like the moon does. More people would just get in the way and force him to kill them when necessary - and you don't want that, do you? Alucard just wants his peace and quiet with you, be with you, own and monopolize your time. Others just don't have any room or right for that. It's too suffocating and not like he imagined having you at all. He saw you, talked to you, touched you and now...just wants to gaze at you, drink up your existence on his own, all for himself, in the dead of a beautiful night. It's a hunger that consumes him.
𝑬𝒙𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒅: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒗𝒖𝒍𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
Such a thing is...fragile.
It's a long road until you ever see him in such a vulnerable state. Alucard doesn't mean for it to happen nor does he ever plan to expose himself like this. Perhaps he'll act sentimental here and there through your many conversations but they are brief and fleeting, like a breeze you barely felt on your skin. But it was there and imprints on your mind.
However it happens, it's involuntarily. Slumped in his pathetic and make-believe throne and his eyes unusually soft. You ask and demands, he delivers. Telling you of his past, his actions, why he does what he does. He doesn't seek any sympathy or understanding or comfort. The pain of immortality weighs heavy to a point he can no longer deny it. There isn't much regret afterwards; His past is a fact. The monster he is, a fact. Alucard simply accepts his pitiful existence. There's no such thing as an immortal.
Beware if you are sympathetic for he might fall more. More than he thought possible and in a way, it only digs the abyss you're in into a deeper darkness. At the same time, it only makes him revere you more. Nothing else in this filthy world is as brave and strong and open as the human heart. Yours overflows with kindness to him in this moment even if you still harbor some fear and hatred for him. You can still scold him and tell him how the thing that he is, was made of his own doing but he'll keep on grinning. His little, precious human. Such a fierce thing you are, holding your head high despite the fright you feel everyday.
He knows he cannot ever really love you. He can no longer - or may never have been able to - to hold true love for another or himself but he cannot deny the pull he feels towards you, the want to bask in your existence and own it. He's a monster, after all, and that's all he can do so he just gives in. You're much stronger than that.
𝑭𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒊𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌.ᐣ
As mentioned once, he finds it funny.
There isn't much that you can do, so many attemtps are comical to him. A shove, rushing to get outside or a gun pointed at him earns laughter. It's almost cute that you try because you should know that it's futile. Alucard barely needs to lift a finger, too. He'll just approach, tilt the gun to his heart and ask if you think you'll be free once the bullet goes through him? Do you think he'll stay dead?
Nothing can make him stop wanting you.
If, however, you really went out of your way to fight and show that you are serious about hating him and wanting to leave, it'd be like swallowing a bitter pill.
The vampire should be aware of it - that his nature would deter you. That you'd never love a monster because monsters aren't lovable. But putting so much effort on a way to leave or kill him makes this stinging hole in his chest wider.
Usually he'd be more than happy to have an opponent, a human opponent determined to kill him but when it's you...it hurts. Yet he knows he doesn't have the right to feel hurt if he doesn't love you, if he is a monster. If monsters cannot know true love, then they cannot know true pain, can they?
For a night or two he's silent after foiling your plans. Scream and hit as much as you like, or cower and cry in a corner but the pain in his chest isn't going away.
𝑮𝒂𝒎𝒆: 𝑰𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎.ᐣ 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒆.ᐣ
Again, if your attempts are child's play for him, then, yes, it's amusing. Any serious ones hurt his 'feelings'.
While Alucard gleefully enjoys toying with his enemies and fighting them in any way that smashes their confidence and their bones, he doesn't hold as much sadistic tendencies for those he 'cares' for. He mocks Seras, Integra and Walter but that's about it. His insults sting, especially because you're so helpless but he doesn't truly enjoy seeing you suffer.
He'll humor you. Pretend to be surprised or be part of any hypotheses but he doesn't lead you on just to see you wriggle in pain. You're not stupid but you're determination far surpasses any reason so you try; Try and try and try and as Alucard laughs at your foolishness, he'd never toy with you. No...he decided you are special to him, after all.
𝑯𝒆𝒍𝒍: 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈’𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎.ᐣ
Somewhere along the lines, you'd watch him kill someone. You can't call it mere murder. As Alucard tore them apart, it was as if he also spat on their dignity.
Nothing was left, nothing identifiable, leaving people to ponder if the pool of blood and flesh is that of an animal or person.
A person, ghoul, vampire, or anything - as long as it's alive and a threat, he kills it.
Alucard gloads, sucking in their blood beneath his boots and claiming their being as his. First he shoots holes in the body, dismembers the limbs and makes them his prize, their blood and soul now his weapon. Knowing what it means to be a vampire - a true and genuine vampire like him - leaves you rigid and cold. Not only does he strip them of their hopes, dreams and lives, of their physical form but he takes their souls for himself. His curled hands a cage and mere people, from soldiers to bystanders, are his. Swallowed up like lambs in his never-ending belly, swimming in a wild current within alongside a million of other souls.
You realize he could do that to you, too. He could simply kill you and chomp away at your corpse, eat you up as your essence becomes one with his and you float about...with so many others.
He could just drink your blood or turn you into a vampire. Anything is possible and all of it ends with him truly claiming you as his own. A master and his puppet.
𝑰𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒔: 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒇𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓/𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
The moment he traded his humanity for immortality, he threw away his future.
He can be nothing more than a pitful king of the dead. So the only thing he can have to look forward to, is you.
He knows he is being selfish - no, that's an understatement. He's being egocentric and utterly greedy by keeping you to himself and robbing you of a normal life. You may be able to go where you wish but the shadow of a monster always trails behind you. Mocks you. Protects you. Keeps you to himself. It's the only thing he can do.
The only thing he can do is keep you, really. As long as time allows. Until every cell in your body dies and falls apart and your flesh is lined with wrinkles...he'll keep you. The only death for you is a natural one and instead of turning you into something like him, he'll continue to cherish you in his memories. If he can never die, so can never the memories of you - you do become an immortal in a way.
It's sad and perhaps, to some it's kind...keeping you far away from becoming the equal of the No-life King. You may be ensured a long and healthy life...but it still revolves all around him and the trail of chaos he sheds like a second skin. A long and healthy life full of death, walking alongside a true vampire in darkest of nights. That shall suffice. That's all he needs.
𝑱𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒚: 𝑫𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒋𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒔.ᐣ 𝑫𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒉 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒓 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒑𝒆.ᐣ
Perhaps by seeing you with another human, yes.
Alucard cares very little how other supernatural beings view you (if anything, it just upsets him slightly and he kills them anyway) but seeing you with an human, an equal...it reminds him that they can give you true love unlike him.
A normal, boring life full of true, human love. They have so much that he lacks. A life not tainted by hunting and by the night. Devoid of any fear, devotion and obsession.
So, he might silently fume and watch that human. If you get along that only makes him more jealous but a part of him doesn't want to kill them in case it makes you hate him. But sooner or later, he must. They're too close; Either to the Hellsing Orginisation...or you.
There isn't much sadism behind his killing unless they demand to be taken seriously and make themselves an enemy here to kill Alucard. He flips like a switch and is oh so delighted to ram his arm through their good-for-nothing, wretched heart. Any jabs made towards you is more fuel to the fire, it equally pisses him off as well as pleases him, gives him more motivation to go all out.
They think they can take you away from Alucard? Believe themselves to be more worthy of having you and eager to finally get rid of Alucard? Oh, he could say the same.
𝑲𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒔: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
It's hard to put in words what he really wants.
At times he is qutie talkative. Making fun of you, humoring your witty jokes, or simply listening and giving his own opinions. He can be quite melancholic, his thoughts deep but never finding a statisfying answer. He enjoys discussing life and mortality with you. However, there's also something utterly...soothing listening to you speak of your beloved things in the world. It brings such a different perspective to his, one that is light and merry. Like a calm spring breeze and warm air in your lungs.
Other times he spends his days spooking you. Walking through walls, his hand appearing visible and grabbing your head to run his finger through your hair and pet it. His teeth dangerously close to your throat as his hot breath fawns over your skin. If he becomes too predictable, he'll change the routine.
Aulcard's not fond of giving gifts. None of his would make you happy and he's not the kind to leave anything obvious for you to find. Maybe, and just maybe, he'll retrieve something important to you and if he's lucky enough he'll catch a glimpse of your eyes crinkling in mirth. It's the most beautful sight.
There are nights where he can also be completely silent. Content with watching you from afar or towering over your shoulder. Watching you sleep calms him as he caresses your head. These nights are small glimpses into a time of normalcy and quiet. It often leaves him bitter knowing this is the best he'll ever have but he's thankful either way.
You see within him. He's a sadistic and terrifying creature that indulges in war. Cruel and merciless - yet he's a lonely monster full of regret. Nothing more than a crying child, never deserving more than pity.
𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒈𝒐 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
There's no real courting involved. Alucard saw you, then fell for your heart and decided that he was going to keep you.
Never did he confess his 'feelings'. He doesn't quite know what he feels, can't put an approrpiate label on the whirlwind of emotions he feels, the things that pull you to him.
You're interesting. Very interesting. Full of surprises and a steadfast heart. Does he wish to toy with you? Watch you like a caged mouse and see what you'll do next? Does he yearn for something you have and can give? Love you like humans do by offering his heart on a platter and proclaim himself as yours? He wants you to be his but does he want you to own him? He doesn't know. He simply gives into his desires. Even if he can't make any sense out of them.
Whenever you ask what he really wants and if he can even love you, he always goes back to the same excuse; He's a monster. It's what monsters do.
It's a sorry excuse and you're sick of it. He doesn't even know what he's talking about - horrendous beast here, a walking hell there - he's a giant coward who is too scared of finding out the truth of what he feels. It would confuse him and have him question his nature. Accepting his selfish devotion and manic obsession is the easy way out because that's 'what monsters do'. Killing for you is a thrill and he calls it protection and devotion. Stalking your every move is admiration. Forcing you to hear each grotesque thought of his is adoration and reverence but it's never for you. Each thing he does is all for himself. Kill with a purpose and suck in all that you are all for himself just so he can feel a sliver of love grace him.
𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒌: 𝑨𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒅𝒊𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒆.ᐣ
Not at all. Alucard feels no shame in what he is and is open to present his deranged fixation to everyone on a silver platter.
Whyever should he shy away from his affections of you? Lie about as if anyone else could do something about it.
Not even Integra is spared. No order of hers will overpower his own will when it comes to you and she has no choice but to accept it. Begrudgingly.
His speeches about you are like symphonies to his enemies. Bold and proclaiming to them as he sings your praises and strikes them down for daring to put you into question.
Why, yes, Anderson, that is his little, darling human. Aren't they just exquisite? More than any other person, priest, or god. He can't let him, let alone anyone have you. He swore to himself he'd never hand you over.
𝑵𝒂𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒚: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒑𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
Again, he doesn't want you to hate him. A true punishment from would be his anger.
Be it from another escape attempt or doubting his feelings, one thing too much has it be the last nail in the coffin.
You doubt, you scream, you throw everything at your disposal at him, that's enough! Scream your head off if you so wish but it won't change anything! He will keep fighting and killing anyone until none are left because that's how it has to be! If they want to steal you from him and harm you, then. They. Die. Throw your tantrums, pierce his heart, blow off his head but he'll keep coming back, oh, he will because that is just how he is! A monster! Your monster!
You don't even understand the power you hold, do you?! Command him to siege cities and he will, show him the way to your enemies and they'll be no more! Ask for blood, jewels, riches, and it's all yours. He may be Integra's weapon but you have him as your monster. Aren't you smarter than to sniff and wail at your doom or to stab him to death?! He may not be able to love you but this monster is yours until you die. So get used to it.
𝑶𝒑𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
Alucard does not need to take away anything because you are helpless compared to him.
Whereever you may run, he follows. If you do something dangerous, he'll shield you. There's no need for any oppressions when he can easily overpower you in anything.
Talk to anyone you like! Human or vampire, they, too, are weaklings compared to him. Simple insects crushed under his boot with no way of ever becoming a threat.
Part of him sees no point on keep an eye on what you can and cannot do and another doesn't want to restrict you more. He knows what it's like to be a prisoner, both as a human and as an undead. The way your life loses its meaning once you lose your agency as well is...soul-crushing. Even Alucard cannot allow that to happen.
𝑷𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒑𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
Abundently. Alucard has an eternity left and there's no rush for anything. Calming your wrath. Winning your heart. Keeping you in his clutches.
He doesn't expect anything. He knew what would happen once he has you and doesn't expect for you to love him back - you'd be insane to!
All he wanted was to...have you - which happened the moment the abyss in his chest grew tighter at the sight of your smile. Everything else that follows shall happen. Rejection, tender moments, despair, sympathy, and whatever else happens in the love between a monster and a human.
There's nothing to be patient for. You're the prize. If, somehow, you find it within yourself to become fond of him, and that's all he will get, then so be it.
𝑸𝒖𝒊𝒕: 𝑰𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒊𝒆𝒔, 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒔, 𝒐𝒓 𝒔𝒖𝒄𝒄𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒆𝒔, 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒐𝒏.ᐣ
Escape isn't possible. The only way you can leave is through death.
As mentioned, Alucard will devote himself to your safety and massacre masses to keep you safe. He'd wander to the ends of the world to find a cure if you're sick. The only death he accepts is of age. Your face decorated in wrinkles, hands full of liver spots, hair thinning and graying...you'd be so beautiful. So utterly exquisite and stunning, it'd leave him in awe.
Someday it will happen. He'll ask where you'd like to be buried, what you'd like to wear, what flowers you want. There's a calmness to him as he gently smiles at you, almost as if he's eager to end the chapter of your life. Many would fear their death but Alucard can only envy them.
The difference is startling; Such humble acceptance unlike all these years before where he was fanfatically adamant, about keeping you safe and far away from the reaper.
Once you're dead, he'll drink your blood. Sip it as if it were holy water, your last gift to him. The taste can't be compared...unequaled throughut 500 years. You'll be carried beneath the earth and bid goodbye.
Alucard would do anything to ensure a long life and never take the privilige of death away from you.
𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒕: 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒈𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒕𝒚 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒅𝒖𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒈𝒐.ᐣ
No matter how much you spit the truth at him and let him know how wrong what he's doing is, Alucard won't care.
He can prattle how much of a monster he is but the truth to him is that he always has been to selfish to let others go. He could never let go of his people as he urged them to decimate countries or let go of his pride and fear of death as he betrayed his faith. Could not let go the message Van Hellsing drilled into his being and let it shape him. As if starved, thirsty and cold he clings onto the things he craves. He can't let you go - he is aware of his greed as much as anyone else is but he simply cannot go back as if you had not touched his soul. A beast as him craves and craves and craves more. Fill him up for he has nothing.
His ego is too big for any guilt to find a place to settle. An egotistical, selfish monster is all he can identify with, so it's all he can accept to be.
𝑺𝒕𝒊𝒈𝒎𝒂: 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 (𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒅𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒅, 𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒊𝒐𝒔𝒊𝒕𝒚, 𝒆𝒕𝒄).ᐣ
Whaddya think
Violence and death was all he had known both as a human and vampire. Kindness, grace, love and acceptance...he yearned that from his faith but was rejected. In his eyes the world was a growing battlefield all for faith and never anything more. Humanity's ugly stain left behind by wars and how they thirst for it, is what he sees in every era. It shaped him, made him what he was meant to be from birth. A king and conquerer.
And there you are, a plain human never once touched by what he is made of. You give grace, pity and mercy. Despite all that you had to go through by simply existing in this world and because of him, you still are able to see the quiet beauty of it all. Your presence a soothing balm to his battered being, his wretched and disgusting self. You fear him and see him. Hate him and pity him. Alucard's pride isn't even hurt much - your being alone having him spun around your finger, like the moon chasing the sun.
𝑻𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎, 𝒄𝒓𝒚, 𝒂𝒏𝒅/𝒐𝒓 𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒔.ᐣ
It was ought to happen sometime.
He wouldn't be surprised if it was common ocurrence. Who wouldn't weep for their lost life taken by a fiend such as him? It's not that he is emotionless but he cannot fight what is natural for caught prey to do.
Saddened for a night or two, maybe. If it prolongs, he might get angry or calmly tell you that this tantrum is meaningless. This isn't the human he loves, this is a sniffling baby. But he supposes it's still his fault.
Taking you into his arms, Alucard assures you that he will keep you safe. Never will he burden you with the fear of having him around, of turning into vampire or ghoul, or of becoming a victim of his enemies. He won't mention you'll be staying with him until a delicate and fragile age, for it would just upset you more. Know that despite the creature he is...he still longs for your love.
𝑼𝒏𝒊𝒒𝒖𝒆: 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒊𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒄 𝒚𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐣ
There's a certain amount of respect he offers from the beginning but most of it is based on his own morals and views of humanity, strength and mortality.
His mockery isn't always malicious. It's his type of humor. A part of him enjoys the role of a beast and, you, the beauty. Someone who owns you, owns and causes your fear, who protects you in his own way. Keeps you like a gem in his cave and invites you into the darkness.
His choices are either influenced by you or his standards. He doesn't mind listening to you as long as the aftermath isn't crucial or wouldn't bother him.
𝑽𝒊𝒄𝒆: 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒍𝒐𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒆.ᐣ
Nothing. Don't underestimate the No-Life King.
For someone who cursed himself to wander the earth for 500 years, there isn't much that you can do to trick or exploit him. Entire armies and orginizations have been after him and spent decades in an hopeful attempt to capture him. You stand no chance.
𝑾𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒆𝒏𝒅: 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒖𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
No. He's aware of his power and could kill you in a second.
Additionally, there isn't a shred in him that wants to hurt you. No, not you, never you. He'd scream at most but can never bring himself to hurt you. He's your monster. He's supposed to protect you while being the lingering darkness in your life himself.
𝑿𝒐𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ 𝑻𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒈𝒐 𝒕𝒐 𝒘𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓.ᐣ
Oh, does he hold you to a high regard.
A precious, silly, human. An adorable darling, and one of the strongest people he has ever met. Your personality is what draws him to you and every other action you do - smile and laugh, scold and sneer, correct and stay curious - it's all so endearing to him, so very interesting. Now, he doesn't drop to his knees or offer you anyone's head; His gestures of worship are rather dramatic and done to not only let you know of his obsession, but to also amuse himself.
He bows deeply, hand on chest, cups your face and shoots that wide grin at you as he tells you all that he adores. It's fun, and most importantly, it's true.
Winning you over is having you love him back, quite the unrealistic goal. He never expects for such a thing to happen, so he never genuinely tries. That doesn't stop him gushing over you, however, and have you endure his affections.
𝒀𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒏: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒔𝒏𝒂𝒑.ᐣ
No pining. He came, he saw, and he took hostage.
Keeping you to himself is enough, and all that he went through is nothing compared to what you could do.
𝒁𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒉: 𝑾𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈.ᐣ
Your true, genuine self is what he wanted. So Alucard could never bring himself to break you. He wants to own the you, the real you and having a broken, hopeless version of yourself is worse than killing you.
No. He planned to keep you until old age do you part and he couldn't do this to you. Not have you go through what he went through.
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