#yapzai

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good work, dazai! original

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petition to call souheki fuck around and find out

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paul fucking verlaine manga appearence before sigma waking up are you asagiri kaffucking kidding me

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thinking about how a vast majority of skk shippers tend to ignore the characters they're shipping entirely to force preexisting romantic dynamics onto them that inevitably ruins the pair

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so, I just read the first light novel of Osamu Dazai's Entrance Exam right? and god bless my friends' souls, because I was literally shaking and crying through my live reactions to what appeared to be straight out of the kunizai tag of archive of our own. what did I just read. what just happened.

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Dazai and his paradoxical relationship with humanity is what makes him one of the best characters. he considers himself to be something inhumane, something inferior to humanity that are human simply by existing he does not consider himself human in the sense that being human means feeling, being human means caring, being human means everything else that was taken away from him at a young age. because the Dazai that roamed the underground with his hands in his pockets would never be even considered human, the Dazai that carried weapons with him, and the Dazai that knew where it hurt the most if you prod with a scalpel. he is not human to himself because he's been stripped of the rights to be by becoming a demon. he disqualified himself from humanity because he can't possibly be one of them when his heart is darker than darkness himself. but that's not true. Dazai is human because he left the single place he willingly got himself into in search for a reason to live because of someone he cared about. he's human because he kept his promise to Oda all these years and tried to help others even though he didn't think he had the audacity to play pretend in the light. he's human because he's broken and he picked up the pieces and cut himself meanwhile. he's human because he persisted. he is human because he believes himself to be isn't, because he isn't aware he already is one.

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"Hey, Odasaku, do you think we're friends in every universe?"

"Don't call me Odasaku."

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oda saw dazai beyond the demon prodigy and beyond the black wrath and beyond the youngest executive in port mafia history. odasaku saw a small child abandoned and alienated by the world. he saw a child who had nobody, absolutely nobody. he saw a child that slept in a cold shipping container in the middle of nowhere like he was purposefully excluding himself from society.

odasaku was the only person who saw dazai as the child he was and he's dead