Your initial Tumblr post about Jean Loo getting hurt has just been living rent-free in my head and then I remembered something about how he imagined his new life would be like
What if he almost died from a drive-by? He's talked about his hypothetical death as a rapper who'll forever go down in history, but what if he managed to piss off the wrong person and they attempted to actually kill him? Imagine how shaken up he'd be after that because he's human now. He can get hurt. He can die.
And maybe that's what stops his rapping career. Jean Loo may have survived, but something in him died that day.
God I love Jean Loo fans coz I can make a text post talking abt my thoughts on him getting beat up and instead of getting jumped I get this
and this? this is so freaking good and you’re right coz oh my god!!!
the way he says it so freely beforehand because he has no idea what it’s like to be shot, to nearly die. That the mere concept of him dying out like that is so perfectly dramatic for a guy like him coz he deserves that type of attention
And the fact it’s a Tupac references makes me believe he has the idea because he read it off a Magazine the homeowner left behind. Like how some ppl have a reading nook/stash in their bathrooms, or read on their phones??? Doomscrolling?
That he based his whole expectations of his future on someone elses. Dramatizing their own death and imposing it on his fantasies and then for it to become his reality??? And is forced to realise that reality is harsh and he can no longer hide behind his own naivety.
And the thing is he probably didn’t even 100% mean it when he tells us his supposed future and his death!!! Like he literally ripped it from someone else. He just wanted to sound cool!!! and then boom!!
And imagine it leaves a scar. And it’s not a pretty one either.
This it isn’t enough that he hangs his porcelain awards in his cubicle. Or that his music occasionally plays on the radio or trends on some social media platform. No, he has a permanent reminder of the part of himself he lost right up against his skin that he can’t get ever get rid off or can simply ignore and will carry with him for the rest of his days.
And what if the MC and the other objects reach out to him??? Coz surely such an incident wouldn't be publicised too the world. There's no way his former housemates won't know and reach out to him showing their concern and sympathies.
And he should be grateful but their care only serves to remind him how fucked he is. That everyone else gets to live these successful lives and he gets fucking shot.
Since the game didn't make him the successful soundcloud rapper he was MEANT to be. l've instead coped with him having semi-success before going utterly downhill which ive discussed here so him getting shot would just be the final straw.
Would he hate himself for choosing the cowardly option? Yes. Absolutely. But everything he finds himself beating himself over it he just goes to touch his scar to remind himself of why he did it.
Except it doesn't really help him feel better about the choice he made.
