Choi Yeonjun headcanon! wanting his attention
Request: yeonjun reaction to you always wanting his attention so he gives you it sometimes loosing sleep just to give you the attention you want since you are his number one priority…
warnings: this is acc pretty angsty but all is well in the end! Y/N just has a really bad day and misses yeonjun :((( cursing, ermmm, it’s unedited so i’m sorry for that. Y/N is kinda selfish. a loooottttt of crying :(((. mean teachers. self doubt
A/N: oh my god, i kinda like this???? i didn’t know what format this anon wanted so i went with a long headcanon and I hope you guys like it!!!
I feel like Yeonjun would be the type who would sacrifice so much of himself if he were in a relationship
but only if he was absolutely certain that he loved that person
luckily for you, he’s absolutely crazy for you
you started dating Yeonjun a year after his debut
he really hasn’t had time for other people other than himself and group members
that is, until he met you ;)
to be completely honest, Yeonjun didn’t think he’d someone as much as he loves you at such a young age
he also didn’t expect to be dating someone while working
and yet here you are, a year and a half strong !
he was really scared to start dating
he was scared of getting kicked out the group, of sasaengs stalking both him and you, of antis sending hate, or of you leaving him out of stress from the relationship
but for the most part, it’s been really good
the public knows about the two of you and you only get a handful of hate comments every now and then
there are time, however, when you really really really miss him :(
and when the time comes where you’re in your blues and you want his love, you get kind of selfish
for the longest time Tomorrow X Together was Yeonjun’s main priority
but then you came along and his world shifted
now you were his number one priority
you were the centre of his universe
you were the only star in his night sky
you’re kind of an attention whore
you love being in his spotlight
which ends up getting kind of distracting for your boyfriend sometimes, affecting his performance
but most of the time, you’re his driving force, his inspiration
it’s been 3 weeks since his group’s comeback and you were with him every step of the way
he may act confident but he gets very worried about disappointing MOAs but he’s so incredibly lucky to have you for when you expel those negative thoughts from his head
but just cuz the main task of his job is over, he’s still very busy
recording interviews, photoshoots, performing on shows, etc
you know all this and you try your best not to bother him too much
yet again, he’s your boyfriend and you wish to feel him warmth on your skin after a long day
just so you know that there’s something good in an uncertain world
Yeonjun will always be your “something good”
today you had classes at your university and you were well aware that Yeonjun was attending an award show later on in the evening
so when you wake up first thing in the morning you shoot your boyfriend a text
Y/N: Junnie, you’re gonna do amazing today! that award is already in your hands
Jun Bug: oh yeah? did you steal the award?
Y/N: Def (eyeroll) no dummy, you and the boys are collecting wins left and right. I wouldn’t be surprised if you won this one too
Jun Bug: hmmmm, your confidence in me is giving me strength (sad face)
Y/N: that let’s me know I’m good for something! I love you, Junnie (heart) you’re gonna knock it out of the park :)
maybe...he forgot to hit ‘send’ when he was done writing
you shrug your shoulders and get ready for the day
as you’re about to head out the door and to your first class, you whip out your phone and text Yeonjun once more
idk if you’re already practicing for the show but when you get the chance could you send a pic (pout) i need strength too!
your first class was difficult :(
there was a cluster of things that went wrong
it was a class you had to take against your will and it was...hard, to say the least
but to put it bluntly, you didn’t understand anything
and you found yourself crying over that class 95% of the time
and you don’t like feeling like that
you’re also pretty sure your professor doesn’t like you
so today, while giving his lecture, you were focussing extra hard on understanding your notes
maybe to him it looked like you were zoning out
but you were just rereading the same sentence over and over again so you could grasp its meaning
he didn’t like this and he took the chance to ask a question and embarrass you in front of 75 other people
“Miss Y/N. Do you mind telling me what the author meant by this statement?”
“I’m sorry Sir but could you please read the quote once more?”
he slapped the end of his ruler on your desk and had the audacity to say “I don’t have time for students like you anymore. Kindly remove yourself from this classroom immediately”
he slapped the ruler again
you weren’t one for confrontation so you gathered your things and ran to the nearest washroom
you locked yourself into the tiny stall and silently sobbed
you really wanted Junnie right now :((
he had this amazing ability of making people feel like they’re more than they actually are
to others, a regular person is a regular person
but to him, they’re a unique gem that just needs the right angle of light in order to shine
and you really needed that at that moment
you took out your phone again
he didn’t reply to you yet
but you saw that he posted selcas on twitter with the caption “a brand new day and brand new efforts! fighting!”
maybe he saw your message and decided to kill two bird with one stone by satiating MOAs desire to see his face
he’s really cool like that\
Y/N: hey, do you think I could visit you at the practice room?
you wait for a reply for about 10 minutes
Jun Bug: don’t you have class now?
Y/N: well...I got kicked out...
Jun Bug: HUH?!?! what the hell happened?
Y/N: I don’t really wanna talk about it :(
Jun Bug: sorry love, but we’re about to head out for an interview
Y/N: could I...possibly come?
Jun Bug: I don’t think that’s a good idea. you have another class in 45 minutes
he knows your schedule by heart :((
Y/N: okiii, good luck on your interview!
he leaves you on read again
you sit in the bathroom until your next class
this one went a bit more smoothly, albeit boring, but better than the last nonetheless
that is, until you received the score to your last test
your professor came up to you and said
“Y/N, I’m really disappointed in you. You normally do so well in my class, I’m not sure what went wrong.”
you didn’t have the courage to look her in the eyes as you whispered “I’m not sure either”
you were at your wits end but thank god that it was time for you to go home
the second you stepped foot in your apartment, you dropped your bag to the ground, crumpled to the floor and cried
you always prided yourself in school so to be slapped in the face like made you feel like a phoney
you gather yourself up and head to the couch before looking at the clock, which read 5:30
the show started at 6:00, so you figured it would be safe to call Yeonjun
you dial his number, waiting as the phone rings, thinking he won’t pick up
but then you hear his voice
you expected his voice to be soft not annoyed?”
“nothing...i just...i just wanted to wish you good luck”
you voice cracks on the last few words, something that didn’t go unnoticed by him
those three words lead to silent tears streaming down your face
you miss him and all you need is to feel him warmth under your fingers
“yeah...i know the chance is slim but could you come over after the show?”
“not tonight, kid. it’s been a long day and i’ll most likely pass out once i leave the stage. i’ll come around tomorrow though. Sounds good?”
you can’t hold it in any longer and release a choked sob, something that yeonjun notices too
“alright, i’ll see you later” you say through tears
you hang up on him, throwing the phone across the room, hearing it shatter into a few pieces
you know you’re being unreasonable and selfish but you just can’t help it
hot, angry tears make way down your face as you clench your hands into a fist, feeling your nails breaking skin on your palm
you cry some more, to the point your head hurts
when your millionth crying session ended, you turn on the TV and switch to the award show yet all you can do is stare ahead
normally, whenever you saw Yeonjun on screen, you would perch up and whoop at the screen
but now, you look blankly at the TV as your vision goes blurry
heart heavy, you lay down on the couch, closing your eyes
you swear to yourself that you’ll wake up when it’s time for Yeonjun
you sleep past them winning the award
you sleep past his acceptance speech in which he gives thanks to you
you sleep past their performance
and you sleep past his ending fairy where he holds out finger hearts and subtly mouths your name
yet somewhere in the back of your head, in the depth of your dreams, you hear him call out to you
the clock now reads half past midnight
for some unknown reason your body decided to wake itself up at this ungodly hour
you sit up, your hair a jumbled mess and the crust around your eyes begin to itch
looking across the room, you realization of smashing your phone hits you
but you couldn’t do anything other than sigh
laying back down, you hear the doorknob jingle and panic
you scramble off the couch and make haste to lock yourself into the bathroom but your oversized shirt latches on to something, causing you to fall onto the floor
you try to pull yourself up but the door is already open
rather than it being a dangerous intruder, you’re met with the angelic figure of Yeonjun
he think that you’re sleeping, so when he locks the door and turn around, only to find you on your knees, he’s...confused to say the least
“Y/N? what are you doing on the floor?”
he walks forward and you peer up, locking gazes
he can’t possibly be real right now
maybe you’re still sleeping
“who else would it be, silly?”
at this, you press your forehead to the cool tiles of the floor and begin to cry
you don’t know how much tears you have in you
but apparently it’s a lot
shocked, Yeonjun runs, dropping himself next to you and places your figure in his lap
he secures your head in the crook of his neck and strokes your head
you wet his shirt with snot and tears but he doesn’t care
“it’s alright, love. you’re doing so well. you’re so brave for me and so strong”
he whispers all this while patting your bum like a baby while rocking you back and forth
this goes on for a while and when your done your millionth crying session, you look up into yeonjun’s eyes and notice his appearance
where pink usually tints his cheeks, it’s now completely white and you worry that he hasn’t properly eaten anything
the bags under his eyes are prominent and darker
and the light within his gaze is dimmed out of sadness and stress, most of it due to you no doubt
you feel so childish and guilty for the way you acted
you demanded all his attention and relied on him so much
he was supposed to go home to the dorms and get sleep after such an exhausting day yet here he was, coddling you just because you didn’t know how to handle a few failures
“why’d you come here? you should be sleeping right now”
he hold you against his chest and you can hear his heartbeat
“I tried calling you after the show but you wouldn’t pick up. I send over 50 texts too. I got worried, especially since...you sounded so sad the last time we talked. I thought something bad happened to you”
guiltily, you point to your broken phone across the room and yeonjun’s eyes widen
“yeah...i threw it after i hung up on you”
your heart clenches at this question
“i’m angry at myself. today was a really shitty day, Junnie”
“you wanna talk about it, angel?”
you shake your head and gasp when he picks you up from the floor, carrying you to your room
“that’s alright, love. we don’t have to talk about it until you’re ready to do so. but for now, let’s go to bed, hmmm?”
he holds you like you’re made of porcelain, like you’re going to crack under his touch and gentle places you on your bed, tucking you in underneath the covers
he crawls in and faces out
you feel so overwhelmed with the kindness after all the shit you went through yesterday that a few stray tears make their way down your face
he reaches a finger out to brush them away
“I’m sorry for missing the show, Junnie”
“it’s alright, Y/N. you don’t have to worry about that”
he smiles at you but it isn’t as true as it usually is. there’s hints of melancholy behind it
you start to whisper some more but drift off while doing so
“and i’m sorry for being a selfish partner and for...demanding...demanding so much of your...time. i just...miss...miss you so much...it, it...it hurts a lot, yeon...”
you don’t finish the thought
you can’t finish it as you’re already sound asleep
yeonjun stares at you for a while as he clasps his hands over yours, his tears painting his cheeks
he’s so worried about you and feels horrible for leaving you to be alone
he feels like he’s failed you as a boyfriend but he’s done nothing of the sort
these thoughts swim around his head as he silently cries
he finally calms down and kisses the tip of your nose and whispers
“it’ll all be alright, angel. i’m so sorry for neglecting you but i’m here now. i’ll always be here, wherever you go”
and true to his word, he even meets you in his dreams
