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New Year : 011015

.....Last semester, I had a really difficult time spirituality, professionally and emotionally. In a moment of grief, I decided to pray and ask God some questions although I was a bit unsure about His response or if He would...

So I asked God... * Lord, What should I do? I'm a mess but where do I start? - Romans 12:1, I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. * Alright..How do I do that? - Romans 12:2, And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. * Lord, the renewing of my mind? I know that already and that's what I've been trying to do! - Psalm 51:1-4, (To the chief Musician, A Psalm of David, when Nathan the prophet came unto him, after he had gone in to Bathsheba.) Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy loving-kindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. (2) Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. (3) For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. (4) Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. - Psalm 51:10, Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. * Father, I am really tired of this and becoming more of a mess. It is starting to feel useless...I am starting to feel useless. - Psalms 51:8, 11-13, (8) Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice...(11) Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. (12) Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. (13) Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. ---------------------- Although I have prayed before...in that moment...I really believed that the Lord wanted to talk to me. I didn't feel like I was burdening Him but rather accepting His offer of comfort and love. I'll admit that I really didn't feel like talking but I moved past it because I knew that there was the possibility of someone listening. Someone who would be understanding and have actual answers rather than people who are more interested in my sins for judgement and gossiping purposes. And so in honor of that conversation, I have chosen to focus on what the Lord told me during this new year. This new year of opportunity, growth and change. May God bless you with direction and comfort as well.

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Prayer Request

My maternal grandmother's funeral is later on today and I am asking for prayers of strength, support, comfort and endurance for my entire family, particularly my three aunts and mother. The funeral and burial arrangements have been extremely stressful for everyone involved which has made the process of grieving for the family, a bit harder as well...

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I'm so out of sorts right now and extremely emotional. I'm so confused and I've been praying but I can't seem to get any answers...

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I'm in need of serious prayer.

- Thanks in advance!

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Prayer Request

I believe that God is calling me for something…I’m still trying to figure out what it is. I’m going through a shift in my life. There is something on the horizon for me, it is right there. I’m still asking God to reveal His will for my life. It has been a very, very frustrating process. I’m really trying to develop patience, endurance and faith through this which I believe is part of His plan. Yet I find myself being more frustrated than anything else and I’m still unsure of what He wants me to do. And I’ve honestly removed my desire from the situation and considered scenarios I never would have entertained before but I’m still waiting on an answer. So pray that I don’t lose heart on this. I have to get this!

Also, I need somewhere other than graduate housing to live and have been apartment/roommate hunting for the past couple of days and its been…interesting. That’s for sure! Although I have met some pretty nice people and even made some connections for ministry which was nice.

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Today is my Birthday!

I praise God for another year of life and the lessons that I've learned up to this point. There is no life outside of Jesus and the work of character development is a very special one. I've seen changes in my life that I could never have imagined and I thank God for that. Then to realize that there are even greater things to come and work to be done with Christ. It's simply amazing. Although I may not have always felt that way, I thank God for not forsaking me. Wrestling with me and my sinful ways to lead me in the right direction. Praise God for a wonderful savior, faithful to save. So no matter how I feel about life God will always be love and He will always be good. Now go out and do something great for the kingdom today! :-)

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I was tagged by Shock777

To write 5 facts about me!!

I don't care about sports.

I have a deep soft spot for children's edutainment shows.

I have a higher inclination towards reading a manga than tuning into its anime adaptation.

I highly suspect that the universe wants me to remain poor.

I really don't like it when people use Bible verses out of context to promote a cause that it outright condemns (This goes especially for both professed believers that know that they propagating lies and the smug antis that believe they understand the religion better despite not actually applying what they know).

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Pray for me.

The struggle is real with the enemy. I find things harder and harder to handle. I know that’s my fault though. I don’t pray as much as I should, which I know is a problem. I haven’t been studying or having devotion. Among many other things. I want to better this relationship with Christ but sometimes I honestly don’t know what I’m doing.

I’m stressed about everything. I’m going back to school in August after a SEMESTER/SUMMER break. To say that I feel out of practice is an understatement. And I’ve transferred to a new school which means housing, money, gas and food concerns. I’m still waiting on information about my credits transferring and registering for classes. I also have Benchmark Tapings next month for individual and group/family sessions. Along with the fact that I feel out of practice, that type of setting gives me major anxiety.

Bible study with the youth at church has been a bit trying but that comes with the territory. My main issue right now is figuring out who will continue the study while I’m away at school. Granted, I’m hoping to spend 2 weekends out of the month at home. But what about all those other weekends? What will be our next study topic? etc etc. And there are so many issues there I wouldn’t have enough time to go over everything.

My health has been out of wack. I’ve been exercising except for the past couple of weeks and I’ve actually gained weight. Which is pretty frustrating. I’m not a stress eater but I should probably log my food intake a bit better. I’d be able to catch any crazy patterns that way too.

And lets not even get started on all the personal and interpersonal issues I’ve been experiencing lately.

See what I mean? I’m all over the place. I don’t know. Please, pray for me. I know some of my issues are phases, others reveal trust issues, self esteem issues, etc etc (the perks of being a social worker lol all of this self awareness). So I’ll definitely get through it. I mean the first step is realizing that you have a problem right?

Before I go, I do have some good news. I got the Graduate Assistant position at school (which will cover some $ issues). Although, I am one of a couple, thank God for the opportunity. Now let’s see how beneficial this position can be in me working towards whatever God has planned for me.