#zodiarch

[fallenrazziel]

[tinolqa]

Hey, @sildih, hey @pudgy-puk, hey @chocographs. I know all three of you have me blocked, so I cannot directly respond to the callout post Terpy made about my girlfriend and that the three of you are cross-promoting. I fucking see you.

It is disingenuous to say the least to treat the scenario that played out over the last few months as if it was my girlfriend browbeating and covertly bullying you out of complaining about Stormblood out of some kind of Garlean-loving racist mania, which you have implied if not outright stated in quite a few posts on twitter and tumblr since you unceremoniously blocked both of us. I’ve been staying quiet, and so has Jo, because this didn’t seem like something appropriate to drag into the public light.

This isn’t going to be a point by point refutation of your post. That’s giving you far too much credit.

Because what happened was you treating my partner and I like a captive audience for all of your personal grievances with FFXIV’s narrative direction. We knew you were unhappy with the portrayal of Ala Mhigo and Ala Mhigans. We knew you massively resented non-Highlander characters for their popularity and resented your own non-Highlander characters for their popularity, and you resented how the story gave any time or attention to Doma. You hated that Garleans were permitted sympathetic portrayal. I say this because you told us this repeatedly. On tumblr. On twitter. In Discord chats. Over voice chat. Over our FC and linkshell chats. It was the only thing in the game you more or less talked about other than your favorite NPC since the launch of Stormblood, and while I can respect the fact that you were deeply displeased with the way the game handled your favorite setting and subject, this was what caused Jo and I to reach the point we did with you.

The point we tried to make was that you’re not obligated to play the game. You’re not obligated to try and enjoy it. Neither of us were here to tell you that your takes on the game were wrong. But that the fucking game was making you miserable for months, and you were getting so little in the way of enjoyment out of it that we genuinely thought that you ought to have stepped away from it. God knows that it’s possible to fall out of love with a work of fiction. And what you could have done was unsubscribed. You could have networked with other dissatisfied fans of Ala Mhigo and actually talked to them about your shared thoughts on how the game handled the narrative. And despite what you might think, they do exist in the community and I’m pretty sure you are or were mutual followers with at least a few of them. You could have focused on a work of fiction that you actually enjoy and don’t find miserable or problematic to engage with on the level that Stormblood did, but you didn’t. You didn’t seek out people who felt similarly.

You treated Jo and I like a captive audience. Because we were trying to be friends with you, and help you deal with your loneliness and alienation from the community. But as it turns out, it became increasingly hard to enjoy spending any time around you being incessantly negative about nearly everything in FFXIV. We didn’t want to turn conversations into arguments. It’s not something either of us enjoy! I don’t know if you did. I don’t think it matters. But I don’t think the fact that you became a constant presence of negativity and passive-aggression in our lives is something you even considered. We tried so fucking hard to be polite for so fucking long and you didn’t consider the fact that you digging yourself into a hole of misery and sourness about the game in more or less every social media post and conversation for months was something that could have been unenjoyable or alienating to your friends. Considering how quickly you dropped us, it’s a little hard to feel like you ever saw us as friends to begin with.

But I guess it’s easier to paint my partner as an evil, racist harpy who told you that you weren’t allowed to be upset about Ala Mhigo anymore, instead of a human being who finally decided she’d had enough of being treated as an open forum for all of your Stormblood criticism with zero room for her own thoughts on the matter, lest you get even more upset that the person you opened up to not treat your word as law. That was never the fucking point. The fucking point is that we were tired of being what felt like your sole audience for all of this commentary, that you couldn’t step away from the game and focus on something else that could actually make you happy for once, and that you openly resented the fact that we enjoyed Stormblood. That we liked it more than Heavensward- don’t think that I haven’t forgotten you getting passive-aggressive when I opened up about my Heavensward criticism on my twitter! I genuinely could never tell if you saw us more than a couple of goddamn wooden posts to talk at to validate everything you had to say about the game, regardless of what we might have thought.

Also, really cool that you call Jo out for having a black character in-game while not being black herself- I suppose it’s only bad when it’s a person who isn’t vocally critical of Stormblood, and not when it’s one of your “good” friends?

Just, bye. I don’t even have anything to say to you, Teg and Chesca. But I see you there. And I haven’t forgotten how you abused my trust and confidence and used me for emotional support that I couldn’t afford to provide with my life circumstances. I know you’re not fucking unbiased.

Iif you liked or reblogged @sildih’s original callout, fuck off forever. You don’t get to uncritically accept a callout post about my girlfriend and stick around on my blog.

[tiergan-vashir]

💿!

A random song from my playlist, and an explanation of how my it could relate to my muse.

Random song!  This is definitely not a song I’d normally associate with Tiergan, but giving it a listen, I’d say it’s about Tiergan’s struggle to adapt to living a normal life like everyone else.  

He’s only been a free man for 3 years. Many things that come naturally to most are a struggle for him and it occasionally leads to feelings of frustration or fear at his inability to adapt fast enough. 

He wants to see all the ‘colors’ everyone else sees. He wants to be as ‘colorful and free’ as everyone else.  He wants to look in the mirror and no longer see himself as a slave.

The trembling fearIs more than I can takeWhen I'm up againstThe echo in the mirror

[goldbasar]

001, estinien/ysayle?

(THERE’S  MORE. thanks for the ask! ) 

I’m gonna copy a little from an old post of mine again bc I still feel the same way about this ship

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you:

when I started shipping it if I did:ah yes- I have to admit I shipped them even before I actually got to see their interaction; tumblr dropped some nice fanarts and I was like “OH. A GOOD COMBINATION. INTERESTING.”  Of course, I said I’d wait and see what I think of their interaction in the end, but I was quite taken in by the thought from the get go because azure dragoon + lady of the heretics set me on fire. When I actually got to see them in 3.0, they did not disappoint!

my thoughts:everytime I think my absolute love for them has calmed down, I only need to rewatch the 3.0 trip to fall for them even more. I think their dynamic is super interesting, ESPECIALLY because their ideas were so fundamentally different at first, but their journey together with the wol and alphinaud made them form a bond regardless, and a lot of comments from Estinien’s side show that he did care and started to show that more openly -  subtle comments, but definitely there! They both grew out of their views and ways and found that despite their fundamental difference (peace seeker vs. vengeance seeker) they were more similar than they thought they would be. they could’ve been such a good couple that I’d definitely consider working extremely well if they came to work on it, there was some mutual understanding beginning to bloom there, but alas, the game had different plans And don’t talk to me about the flower bouquet.

What makes me happy about them:- animosity turning into understanding- hidden caring (especially estinien->ysayle during the later parts of the journey, and the flower bouquet sort of confirms it for me) - extremely great fuel for the HW conflict while at the same time that unlikely alliance of est/alphi/ysayle/wol always makes their relationship feel so...far away from society sometimes, and I think that really helped them see so many things differently. - I just really think they have great chemistry- ngl I also love the aesthetic of this ship /a lot/

What makes me sad about them:- THEY CAN’T BE TOGETHER. YSAYLE DIDN’T HAVE TO DIE!!! UGH I HATE THIS so much. so much. they were good but there could’ve been so much more.- the thought that Ysayle probably didn’t have the time to realize that Estinien does care beyond coming to respect her a little- Estinien and the Flower Bouquet. it just kills me.

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

things I look for in fanfic:awkward but increasingly deep conversations, always with that physical space between themalso....I honestly do like the nsfws with this ship

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: I want to say estinien/alphinaud but !!! yes. that would take some time. maybe in the future otl

My happily ever after for them:I wish she could’ve lived. honestly.

who is the big spoon/little spoon:both roughly engaged in certain things and keeping their distance after is my only answer lmaoIF THEY COULD’VE WORKED ON IT THEN I THINK ESTINIEN WOULD ACTUALLY MAKE A GOOD BIG SPOON. I think he has that hidden protective side to him underneath his jerkery. and ysayle, as strong and determined as she is, can also be quite frail emotionally, and I believe a hug and some warmth would do her good.

what is their favorite non-sexual activityhonestly I have no idea. estinien is so set on training and vengeance at that point, I still struggle imagining him with a fitting hobby yet, but if they both lived, I would have loved to see them travel some more. Ysayle enjoys the nights when they’d sit on campfires and sit closer to each other bit by bit as time progresses. Estinien actually loves Ysayle’s soups, but don’t tell her that. He’s just eating it because there’s nothing else and you don’t waste things /wink wink winkalso. estinien+ysayle+dragon bonding. ysayle kicking estinien’s rude ass

[shofie-ffxiv]

zodiarch replied to your photoset: uh hey SE  why is my labia so lovingly rendered in...

i presume that this is genderlocked and thus i will not be able to get a good look at shiny shrinkwrapped duskwight dick by getting this on mog station for my character?

It is in fact genderlocked, but let’s be real, most outfits don’t really give us the goods as far as menfolk are concerned.

[thelasthomelyurl]

STAR WARS, old republic period :o

Hi it’s me, the person who takes 2 weeks to answer cool ask prompts. 

STAR WARS IN THE TIME OF THE REPUBLIC (AKA PREQUELS, PRE-PREQUELS, AND CLONE WARS TIME)

OTP: Obi-Wan + pining (more actually-a-pairing answers: Qui-Gon + Shmi, Obi-Gon)

Favorite canon pairing: I do actually like anakin + padme

Worst pairing ever: Anakin and literally anyone else

Guilty pleasure pairing: Obi-Wan + Satine. I don’t actually ship it, but I love to wallow in the feels. 

A pairing I want to see more: Obi-Wan + healing. Padme + handmaiden. 

A pairing that everyone likes but I’m like “lol no”: I’m not actually sure? Maybe if people ship Ahsoka and Anakin or something, but I hope that’s not popular?

Favorite non-romantic pair: Either Ventress + Obi-Wan or Ventress+ Ahsoka. Or tbh like Qui-Gon and anybody.

[sichore]

'Hime in C1 or Ggio in A2?

[legendarydesvender]

how do u juggle multiple projects asking 4 a friend

i don’t im dying please send help

ok but joking aside uhhh

i’ve got like a lot of free time because 1) i only have work on 3 days of the week, 2) no more school, and 3) i stopped playing as much ffxiv recently due to being busy, so that saved hours of time in my day ahaha

got my handy dandy calendar sort of to try and keep track of when things are due, scream a lot in panic, and then work on stuff in bits and pieces??? i also have a calendar on my phone, and a weekly calendar (it’s vld and super adrable) that i tick off to Feel Cool, and the tatsumaki bot on one of my discord servers has a to-do list function so i put reminders there too

my adhd ass can’t focus on one project at a time so whenever i get antsy about something, i just swap to a different wip for a bit, but i will primarily try to focus on whatever is more immediate

posting progress pics to my friends also helps bc i’m a ho for validation (thanks for putting up with my wip spam everybody haha) 

sometimes i stream bc it forces me to keep working on a thing without zoning out too long, and i end up trying to make things look a bit nicer than if i was just dicking off on my own rofl

if I feel the urge to do something else fun I just do that instead for a bit instead of trying to Fight My Own Brain because I end up wasting more time that way, better to take a break and see if i’m up for more work later

i save time to hang out with friends and do fun stuff so i don’t become a student athlete meme, otherwise momgan will ground me, and sometimes just chilling and goofing off re-energizes you or gives you more inspiration for other things

sometimes your original plan is too complicated and you just don’t have time for it so there’s nothing wrong with changing some things to fit your schedule better, and sometimes that actually makes the final product better than before!

i find out what time of day works best for me to do certain things, like i know late afternoon or evening + night is my most productive for drawing and writing or things that require longer focus, so i save most of my work for those hours; while commuting i let my brain wander about random ideas and things to save time for later bc i’m bored anyways; chicken nugget lunch sundays are when i do misc planning and brainstorming

this isn’t really a ‘how’ but… i draw pretty fast i guess, so that comes in handy when i’m juggling so many things ahaha

im not actually sure if i answered your original question any more bc i got kinda offtopic and im very sleepy but here u go