on an island between Heaven & Hell

she/her | bisexual/demi | INFP-A | nerdy things

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About me

Hi there! My name is Tammy, my pronouns are she/her and I’m bisexual/demi. I live in Brazil and I’m half-Japanese. I speak English and Portuguese (I know very little Japanese, just random words/phrases and I can’t read kanji/hiragana/katakana). I’m now 37 yo (in my head, I’m still in my 20s lol), my star sign is Libra— with asc and moon in Capricorn. My personality type is INFP-A — or Mediator. I’m known as a cat person, but actually I love animals in general. And I’m big on mental health issues, as I’ve handled major depressive disorder for about the last twenty years or so. It’s all good. One day at a time ✌️

PS: pfp by the lovely beasartblog ❤️

Fanfiction on AO3

All of my LITG stuff is here.

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20 questions for fic writers

Thanks for the tag @mrsbsmooth 🥰

How many works do you have on AO3?

24. I also have another 40 fics posted on my old ff.net account that I always mean to cross-post and forget 😅

What’s your total AO3 word account?

366,872. I have another 321,055 words in ff.net. I had no idea it was that much!

What fandoms do you write for?

In AO3, I have works for the MCU (Captain America, The Avengers), plus What If…? And Agents of SHIELD, Love Island the Game, Too Hot To Handle: Love is a Game and Heaven’s Secret (Romance Club).

In ff.net I still have fics for Sailor Moon, Harry Potter, Chicago PD, Chicago Med, Chicago Fire, Grey’s Anatomy, Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Mentalist.

Top five fics by kudos

To Build a Home (MCU)

Avengers Initiative: Reset (MCU/Agents of SHIELD/What if…?)

Drawing Hope on the Skyline (MCU)

A Real Relationship (LITG)

Lights Will Guide You Home (MCU)

Do you respond to comments?

Sometimes. I’m admittedly very bad at engaging back, I used to be way better at it when I was publishing things regularly. I still love and appreciate all the comments and kudos so much!

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I guess that would be Stuck, but then it’s got a sequel where it’s not such a sad ending after all.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

My oneshots are usually happy endings. I have so many unfinished WIPs, it’s a whole other thing. I guess To Build a Home is the only “long” project I ever finished and it’s my idea of a happy ending for the pairing.

Do you get hate on fics?

No. I think I only ever got one rude comment in all my fics, I can’t even remember what it was now, but I just deleted it and went on a tirade in my author’s note in the next chapter, I was really upset 😭

Do you write smut?

I started writing it in recent years. I’m not the best at it, but I find it very fun 🤭

Craziest crossover:

The only crossover I have is Avengers Initiative: Reset and it kind of makes sense since it’s all within the MCU and adjacent universe.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I’m aware of.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I think one of my old fics in ff.net got translated into another language at some point, but I can’t really remember which one now. Oh and I used to translate my old fics into Portuguese too.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have, Love Island, Actually with my girls @i-boop-you, @crimswnred and @ellegreenwxy ❤️

All time favorite ship?

Considering the amount of words I wrote/read for them, it’s got to be Steve/Natasha (CapWidow, Romanogers) from the MCU. But I’m such a shipper, I have so many pairings I love.

What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Sadly, all of them. I’m very bad at finishing projects and once I lose my inspiration to work on something it’s practically impossible I’ll get back into it at a later time.

What are your writing strengths?

I hate this question because I’m very bad at knowing myself as a writer. I’ve heard I’m good at dialogue tags, like I know how to convey the right reactions/emotions with a few words without getting too much into inner monologue. Which makes sense because usually I start writing something with the dialogue, the back and forth and then I’ll work on the scene around it.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I also hate this question because I know there’s so much I need to work on, but it’s hard for me to list them all down at the same time. I mentioned I’m terrible at finishing long projects so that’s one. I know my characters when I’m writing them but at the same time it’s hard for me to translate that into my writing. I have a really hard time creating original characters, my MCs are just facets of myself in general, so it’s hard for me to really get into their characterization.

Thoughts on dialogues in another language?

I’m totally fine with it, I think I’ve done it in a couple of fics. As long as there’s the translation somewhere (author’s notes, in brackets or narration) I don’t mind.

First fandom you wrote in?

Sailor Moon, back when I was 14 years old and used an actual notebook.

Favorite fic you’ve written?

Ahhh there’s so many of them! I’m really proud of the ones I wrote for the MCU, they were a lot of fun. I have a Sailor Moon long fic I spent years writing, I still think of going back and finishing it. Recently I’ve been obsessed with Heaven’s Secret though so if I have to pick one it’s probably Prayers on his Lips. It was just so much fun getting back into writing after I went through a very long pause in all my projects.

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Can we please make "I'm depressed" a valid reason to out-of-the-blue fall off the face of the earth?

I'm not busy.

I'm not tired.

My plate isn't full.

I'm not swamped with work.

I don't have a cold or flu.

I'm not laying awake at night. (But I am sleepy throughout the day.)

Nothing tragic or traumatic has happened.

I nor anyone I know or work with is going through anything.

You didn't do or say anything wrong.

But I'm not sad, either. I'm not homesick or in mourning. I'm not angry at anyone or anything.

Nothing is wrong...

I just woke up and suddenly being alive sucked, eating became a dumb idea and nothing mattered. I canceled training for the next two weeks, making up a lie, saying I'd be out of town on business.

And I have no other explanation for that, but I don't [can't] say anything because the word "depression" might as well be "itchy" to some people.

"Here, have a mango. You like mangos, right? This should cheer you up!" But I'm not sad.

"Just think happy things!" But I'm not sad.

"Did something happen? You know you can always talk to me!" About what? I'm not sad.

It'll go away just as it came: on its own.

How long it'll stay in my system this time is anyone's guess.

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Well, that was something! I do feel a little bit called out, but I wish I were that creative 😅

Thank you for the tag @operationnope ❤️

Tagging my girls @beasartblog @crimswnred @i-boop-you @ellegreenwxy @mrsbsmooth

Take the Cosmos Persona test here

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Sorry for all the boopage. I really like sending you boops because it says "Sent Tammy is obsessed with a super boop!"

This brings me joy.

Omg I love that!! No need to apologize, I’m loving all the booping ❤️

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Bobby would be so happy 👉🥹💗

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When I tell y’all I miss drawing 😭

Here’s some art from the vault of a Heaven’s Secret OC of mine (whose name I won’t be revealing for fic plot purposes 🤭)

But yes, that is Mal’s camp and yes, she is a succubus. She’s hot and I love her 🫶🏼

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I already love her so much 😍

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hooters and tooters

Yes, tatas and titties

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Happy Valentine’s Day ♥️

Full NSFW images

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I’m physically unwell over these, I love them so much 🤭🥵

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^^^ me when Mal appears from the shadows in them grey sweatpants

[catchymemes]

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Demons, angels, half-breeds… let’s give them all gray sweats 🤭

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a sketch that i probs won’t color in, so enjoy

also, idk anything about shakespeare but i’ve been meaning to do a redraw

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Spell your URL with a song title!

Thanks for the tag @mrsbsmooth!!

test drive, Ariana Grande Anti-hero, Taylor Swift Mad love, Mabel Mad at Disney, salem ilese yes, and?, Ariana Grande Ice Cream, BLACKPINK with Selena Gomez Seven, Jung Kook One right now, Post Malone with The Weekend Boyfriend, Dove Cameron Stupid Love, Lady Gaga Ex's and Oh's, Elle King Smoking Out The Window, Bruno Mars she's all i wanna be, Tate McRae Envolver, Anitta Daisies, Katy Perry Woman, Doja Cat I Don't Know Why, NOTD, Astrid S Take You Dancing, Jason Derulo Houdini, Dua Lipa Phew! That's a long list. Tagging my girls @crimswnred @i-boop-you @ellegreenwxy @beasartblog

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My LITG Fanfic

Just a place to gather around all the fics I've written for LITG. Sadly, I don't think I'll be updating the ones in progress in the foreseeable future, but I also can never make myself delete anything, so it's just saved as it is.

A Real Relationship. In Progress, 7/?. Past MC/Rahim, MC/Lucas, eventual MC/Bobby.

2nd person narrative on what happens after MC comes back from Casa Amor and finds out Rahim recoupled with Shannon.

Meet Me in the Afterglow. Oneshot, complete. MC/Will. NSFW

A rewrite of the fight/makeup scene after the Dylan storm hits the Villa, featuring bff Angie, Will and the MC.

Secret Moments in a Crowded Room. Oneshot, complete. Noah/MC.

A rewrite of the sexy dance-off Hearts Racing challenge in which Noah can no longer hide his feelings for MC.

Written as prompt for the LITG Writers Room, originally posted here.

Let It Grow. In Progress, 2/?. Past MC/Kobi, MC/Hazeem.

Bombshell Lily chooses to recouple with Hazeem in a friendship couple after Kobi decides to get back together with Lexi.

Panic at the Mansion. Oneshot, complete. Bobby/MC.

How would Bobby react if his claustrophobic wife got trapped in the attic during the Escape Room part of Chelsea's Murder Mystery dinner? Spoiler: not that well.

Originally posted for the LITG Writers Room monthly spotlight on Bobby.

Stuck. Oneshot, complete. Bobby-centric.

At his friends’ wedding, Bobby gets a little drunk and a little introspective, feeling somewhat stuck back in time.

Full Circle. Oneshot, complete. Bobby/Priya. NSFW

Sequel to Stuck.

Her Story (Don't Blame Me). Oneshot, complete. Blake/Lucas.

It's day 1 of Casa Amor. Blake hits the Villa and she's not holding back.

A Friendship Thing. Oneshot, complete. Emily/Bobby.

It's been years since Love Island ended, and Emily has long since moved on (or tried to). Then an opportunity and an old face make their way into her life unexpectedly.

The One. Oneshot, complete. MC/Tim.

After moving on with life post-Villa, the night of the Christmas reunion rears around, and Anna is going through it at the thought of returning to that world.

Jealous. Oneshot, complete. MC/Dana.

After a whole day of handling everyone's feelings and reactions, Luma and Dana decide to come clean about their own feelings.

Darling, You're the One I Want. Oneshot, complete. MC/Gary. NSFW

Gary and his girlfriend spend a lazy Sunday morning together, with some hot and surprising gestures along the way.

One in a Million. Oneshot, complete. Bruno/MC, Youcef/MC.

Best friends Bruno and Youcef meet up only to discover the girls they're seeing have a lot of suspicious things in common...

The Only One. Oneshot, complete. MC/Jake.

Laura's life is absolutely perfect. She's got great friends and tremendous satisfaction from her work as an event planner. But what happens when her latest client forces her to face the ex-boyfriend she could never quite get out of her head?

Lay Your Heart on the Line. Oneshot, complete. MC/Suresh.

Detective Bethany Owens has a great working relationship with one of the Assistant District Attorneys, but could this relationship ever cross the boundaries of strictly professional into more personal, intimate territory?

Love Island, Actually. In Progress, 10/?. Collab, Multiple pairings. NSFW

The LITG cast set in a Love, Actually fic. Five stories, featuring five MCs, all about love, centred around Christmas. Meet the Bride, the Mistress, the Runaway, the Maid of Honour, and the Divorcée.

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Three things for 2023 🤍

Tell me 2-3 fics you loved reading in 2023

Tell me at least one fic you loved writing in 2023

Tell me something you’re looking forward to (in general) in 2024

Thanks for the ask, Jessie I mean, Anon!

@longbobmckenzie’s Wings of Fate reads like a freaking novel, I could not stop once I started reading it and it was the equivalent of a holiday movie for me. @lucas-koh’s Every Single Cut absolutely destroyed me in the best possible way, cried actual tears while reading it and I’m still not over it. @mrsbsmooth’s Famous Last Words was at one point the only thing bringing me joy in my life when I was too depressed and I hold this story in a very special place in my heart ❤️

Recently, I had the most fun writing Prayers On His Lips, so much that I’m still working on it and will be adding either chapters to it or a sequel, I’m still unsure. I also had a lot of fun writing The Only One. It was my first time writing for Jake and I was rather proud of the result I got.

I guess just looking forward to the future in general, hoping good things come my way and for my friends. Which is a huge deal as I was going through a scary depressive episode when the year started, so just being positive about anything feels amazing now. I hope I keep finding reasons to smile. 😊

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Are there any new fics you plan on working on in 2024?

Hi anon!

I’m currently working on continuing a fic I published recently for Heaven’s Secret called Prayers On His Lips. It’s supposed to be what would happen on an Adi route, sort of.

Other than that I’ve also been writing another HS fic that I might publish featuring an MC that’s involved with both Lucifer and Dino during HS2, with focus on the latter.

As for more LITG fics, I’m not sure. I’m going where my inspiration is taking me and lately it’s been with HS.

Thanks for the ask! ❤️

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Merry Christmas to those who celebrate! And Happy Holidays to everyone!

The lovely @beesandfigsart gifted me this beautiful Dino art that needs to be shared with the world. Just look at his little smile!! Ugh I love him so much!

Bea, thanks again for such a wonderful gift, I can tell how much love and care you put into every line and color you used, all the details in the wings and the fairy lights. ❤️❤️❤️